My Favorite Camren One-Shots (Part 2)

Love Gone

The morning sun shines into my gloom. In a few hours, I’ll probably be seeing Lauren soon. In a nice, extravagant and surely elegant white dress with a big smile plastered on her face. Finally tying knots with a dude who couldn’t love her as much as I do. She called me up a couple of days ago. She asked me could I keep a secret. The ceremony of them is set in late that month. Right into her birthday.

27 nights into June.

“I know it’s a rush but I just love him so much. I hope that we could meet up soon.”

This boy who already broke her heart in two, decides to come back into her life. Explaining that he’s changed and wants to give them a second try. Honestly when I heard that sentence I choked up, knowing Lauren as my best friend and knowing that her beautiful green eyes could be very naive at times. The boy that was her first love, could easily steal her heart back. She told me herself a couple years back.

“He knows he’ll always have me.” she tells me with a sad smile. “I’ll always love him.”

I didn’t want to believe it. I didn’t want to see eyes who was deceiving her again. I knew he didn’t want her back. He just wanted her spotlight. He wanted to share that Lauren. So fucking selfish.

She let me go a few months back explaining her reasons why. She cheated on me with him, saying she’s sorry and she didn’t mean it or didn’t know why. I honestly believed she knew what she was doing. I knew it she no longer did want me. As soon as he came back into the picture, he interest died down. Our spark was dying down with each phone call she received and every text she got. I knew it was from him because everytime she received it, she had that big idiot smile. The same one I got whenever she texted me. The same one I got while she kissed me. The same one I got when she hugged me and said she’ll never let me go.

So careless. So stupid. So oblivious. 
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When she told me she didn’t want me or us anymore, I didn’t cry, I didn’t shake, I didn’t dare to move a muscle. I just stare into those damn green eyes that changed multi-colors. Those eyes who once stared at me with admiration didn’t dare care any less about us anymore.

Finally, when she spoke “Camz” I shook out of my shock. I shook my head mindlessly, muttering “no.” Once she spoke ‘Camzi’ I went crazy. The screams that filled the air was all for her. All the yelling I was doing was questions.

“You’re leaving me for him!?!”
“You’re letting go almost two years of us for a boy who left you broken?!?”
“Do you even remember how he left you?”
“Why are you doing this!?”
“Why are you leaving me!?”

My screams become soft sobs. i got down into the floor and covered my face up. I didn’t want to see her. I didn’t want her touch. I didn’t want her right now. She was leaving me all broken all over again.

I couldn’t see it, but I could hear it. She softly started sobbing. Probably fake tears. She didn’t care about us anymore. He was always more important than I was.

When I hear it, I open my eyes and watched her. She gave me almost instant eye contact. She bend now next to me on the floor and picked me up, now cradling me like a baby. I covered my face back up.

“I’ll always love you, you know?”

I shook my head again, wasn’t convinced one bit.

“Don’t bullshit me Lauren, it was always him. You know it.” I managed to say clearly through my hidden face.

She moved my hands away to see my clearly dark eyes. She picked up my chin.

“I’m so so sorry.”

I moved my face out of the way. “No the fuck you’re not.”

“I know you don’t believe me. You probably won’t ever like me again. But I promise you that I will always love you.” She leaned in for a kiss that I tried to defy, but it was useless but I kissed back with as much force and passion. It was one of those kisses that made my stomach fill up with happy butterflies. Maybe I did have bliss in that moment but I know it was temporary. She pulled away slowly killing me with taste that was placed on my lips.

I still stayed there in her arms, caught up in those damn green eyes that was now mixed in with grey. I was staring hopelessly now, but loosing my grip and getting out of her arms. She has to get away from me. She had to leave. I’m not longer relevant. The more I gazed, the more I began dread what we had. I finally spoke up with a stern remark.

“Go.”

“Bu-”

“Leave before I say something I regret.”

She gave me a look. “Say it then. Tell me!”

I retaliated. “Go.” My tears started to fall again as I choked out. “Leave.”

She picked up her bag and left without any more questions. With a huff and a bad ass strut. She know she wasn’t being fair.

She was never fair. This whole relationship wasn’t fair.

I curled back up into a ball in the corner of the couch. Back into my oblivion of crying.

I don’t want to hear the wedding bells chime. I don’t want to see her happy when I’m still dead inside without her. Especially when I know it’s all a damn lie. It makes me wonder how many lies she told me, how many nights she spent with him.

I’m still wonder to this day, how much bliss that he gives her that wasn’t enough?

I swear if I could do it all over again, I would.

Just to get the smile she gave me when we were together again.