English Love Affair//Luke hemmings//5sos

Chapter 39

Through the tears I can hear that I shouldn't have gone-close as strangers

So the picture is of Sophie +a couple of years cause idk I wanted you to see what she looks like in my mind.

I'm really rubbish at this picture stuff so I think if you click on it you can see the whole image.

Writing this whilst listening to as close as strangers has left me emotionally unstable.

Lucy x

Sophie's POV

"Why are you here" he asks through the line.

"I want to say goodbye"

"Then say it" Ashton says with no emotion.

"Not like this" a tear slips down my cheek.

"Like what then?" He says exasperatedly.

"I need to see you" my voice breaks slightly.

I let out a quiet sob as the call is cut short by a dealing beep - he hung up.

After composing myself I get changed, brush my hair and cover the bruises on my face with foundation.

His house is only a couple of streets away.

(A/N I can't cope wherever you are has just come on )

So i walk alone (only awesome people will get that)

After a while I'm standing outside his house looking aimlessly up at it.

After some hesitation I decide it was a stupid idea and turn to leave.

"You seriously flew all the way over here just to say goodbye" a voice calls behind me.

I turn around.

"Err yeah" I run my hand through my tangled mess of hair.

"You look well" he attempts to make conversation.

"Really?"

"Well why wouldn't you? Congrats on your engagement by the way"

I just look him in the eyes and say flatly.

"Thanks"

"You were crying earlier" he informs me like I didn't already know.

"You hung up early" I reply bitterly.

"You left me"

"I loved you" I feel the tears starting again, in a steady stream.

He goes to whip the tears away but I step back.

I don't care that my eyes are red and puffy or that my hairs entirely made of tangles.

It doesn't matter to me anymore.

He doesn't want to see me, so it really doesn't matter how he sees me.

"Goodbye" my voice cracks turning into a harsh whisper.

It stings so much just to say it but it's said and done now.

It's over.

Me and Ash are over.

I can't do a thing about it, he hates me.

"Soph wait" I turn around hope shining through my eyes.

"Why did you leave?" The hope soon fades from my eyes.

"Sometimes you don't have a choice, sometimes people ruin fate" my voice trembles.

"If it's Joe I swear..."

"If it's Joe you swear what? He has dirt on you Ash" I say back.

"Maybe I don't care about that dirt, maybe I just care about you"

"Well maybe I care about that dirt because I care about you"

I look at him and say:

"I have to leave Ashton, I love you remember that"

Short, sad and far from sweet but meh I guess you got a picture.

The good girls video has killed me.

Lucy x