Her.

Nineteen.

London entered the house filled with drunk and horny teenagers around every corner either getting it on or dancing with one another their bodies grinding against one another as if no one in the room had mattered. She pushed her body between people who were to busy focusing on other things the music blasting in London's ear the smell of weed making her nose hurt. She looked around peaking her head up to see Faye among the crowd but someone had turned her around.

Alexia stood there her eyes bright pink a big smile on her face "You did come!" She said laughing. Anger rose in London seeing that stupid smile on her face , she wanted to punch her so bad for letting Faye come knowing she couldn't control herself but she pushed it down and smiled kindly. "Come get a drink with me."

"Actually I'm just looking for Faye." London protested trying her best to sound nice but looking at Alexias face made it hard "Where is she?"

"Shes out back." Alexia answered and without hesitating London turned around and left her standing their in the dancing crowd. She couldn't stand Alexia in this moment; how could she just let her walk in her and destroy herself? She was finally out of the crowd walking towards the kitchen seeing through the door a girl sit on the porch steps dressed in the exact outfit wore. She opened the door approaching her slowly.

"Faye?" She softly said as her head perked up. She had mascara running down her face as if she had been crying making London's heart drop thinking of those two guys in the video touching her sexually Faye getting uncomfortable. "Are you okay?" She sat down next to her the only sound between them was the distant music in Alexias home. She noticed a bruise around Faye's neck seeing a fading hand mark around it.

"I-I am okay." She slurred trying hard to speak it out "They-They just like it rough."

"What happen Faye?"

"It's...It's my fault London...I said no but they threw me on the bed and..."her voice trailed as she stared at the trees feet away "It's my fault. It always is."

"Faye...did they...they rape you?" London asked the word rape making her heart pound hard in her chest.

"It doesn't matter." She shrugged somehow trying to process everything that had happened to her. "I hate my dad...he always does me rough and my mother...do drugs all...day." She slurred leaning on her arm her eyes completely out of it "I...I don't think I wanna live anymore."

"Faye-" London began growing fear.

"It's my fault; my fault. I can't believe how stupid I am." She said slapping her head with her palm making London grab her head softly making their eyes meet and for the first time since they met Faye finally had showed emotion. "I...I can't.." she whispered making London furrow her brows.

"What can't you do?"

"I can't fall in love again." Faye stood up trying to regain her balance seeing the darken loom over her. She toke one step trying hard not to fall as London stood up touching her arm but Faye yanked it away "Get away from me; look at what you're doing. You're not suppose to do this to me London."

"Faye-"

"Get away!" She said louder leaning on the wall that way she couldn't fall "You-You..." She pointed a finger at her seeing the sudden wave of anger drown her "Ever since you came to this fucking school you-you make me feel like I'm changing and I can't take it anymore! You make me go against my words and yet you still make feel like it's okay to let you see me."

"Faye I-"

"I-I'm not finished London." She spoke louder trying to make words of it "I never had any friends or let myself think twice about my actions but yet you come and -and fuck with me and my fucking feelings and somehow I'm not scared with you but-but I am when you leave and I hate it because somehow with you I feel like I-I can be myself and as much as I try to stop it you come in with your little heals and perfect smile and get me all winded up again like a kid in the candy store. I hate these new emotions you bring me but-but somehow each and every day they grow deeper and deeper and I can't get out out my head but-but if I don't think about you I don't know what else to do so I party and get fucked u-up. I don't think like this London, I don't like this feeling."

"Faye what are you talking about? What feeling? What's going on? Talk to me Faye!" London exclaimed the desperation in her voice visible. "You can't just shut me out and then spill out these emotions, you have to talk to me and let me know what's wrong with you . I care Faye. I care a lot about you because if i didn't I wouldn't stand here wanting to help you?"

"You scare me London." She spoke softly as tears weld up in her eyes. "You scare me so much and sometimes I hate you for it; i...i wish I never met you London. I wish I never went back into that bathroom , i regret everything I've done with you."

"You...you don't mean that." London spoke softly those words stabbing her like knives "I know you don't. Faye there's something I see in you that I want to bring out and if you could let me in-"

"Fuck you!" She suddenly roared making London jump . "You think you're so prefect walking around with everyone's head up your ass thinking I'd be another one to kiss up to you but I know the minute I do you're gonna leave me. Everyone leaves me." She came close to London's face that was full of hurt "Don't think for another second you have me wrap around your finger, I don't care about you i never did. I hope you go fuck you're self London, I can't even describe the amount of fucking hatred I have for you. Just seeing you makes me want to kill my self." She spit on the floor near London's shoe opening the door walking back into the party leaving a heartbroken London on the porch in the middle of the cold night. She stood there staring at nothing but trees for a couple of seconds before tears dropped from her eyes.