Her.

Twenty Three.

Faye entered her home seeing her mother sitting at the kitchen counter crying holding a noose in her hand. Faye wondered when she got here surprised that she was home; normally she would be gone for months getting all the sex and drugs into her system living like the irresponsible mother she was.

Haley turned around Faye noticing the makeup running down her cheeks her eyes pink meaning she was still high. "Faye." She spoke sniffing "I-I need your help with something okay?"

"What's going on?" Faye asked pointing to the noose in her hand.

"I want help to kill me." She spoke calmly making Faye's face scrunch up with disgust. She remembers the last time Haley had did something like this and only did it for the attention, she knew this trick already. Last time Faye fell for it and Haley bursted out crying saying she shouldn't do it and all Haley did was laugh and call her stupid for it. "I'm being serious this time."

Faye stared at her emotionless practically bored with her mother's words. She just wanted attention, she wouldn't actually do it. "I'm going to sleep." She said ready to walk up the stairs but Haley grabbed her hand but Faye yanked her hand away slapping her hard across the face "Don't touch me you fucking bitch. You're not actually going to kill yourself you just want me cry that way you feel powerful over me. Don't you fucking think for a second I'm going to fall for your stupid lies this time ." She spat seeing Haley's eyes filling with tears "I hate you do you know that Haley? You let dad do whatever he wanted all for some cocaine up your nose." She turned walking up the stairs suddenly feeling bad for what she said.

"I'm such a bad mother." She heard Haley said "I'm so sorry Faye." She touched her arm softly Faye's body tensing up "I actually mean it. I'm sorry for being a horrible mother and you're right...I did know everything but I'm scared of your father Faye; he's such a monster and the only way I cope is the drugs. They help me feel better about myself...I should've left him years ago but I was so scared of being alone so I just drowned myself in drugs. But I wanted you to know that I've always loved you, I remember the day I had you and all i could do was think of the Amazing bond we would've have but then I fucked up. You were so happy Faye and I destroyed you." She sniffed "I destroyed my only daughter and I never cared. I'm so sorry Faye I wish I could take back everything I've done to you and have the bond we lost but I know we can't. I can't keep living with this misery anymore Faye...it's getting to much for to handle. I have nothing to live for and before I kill myself I need to know Faye." She wiped her tears that kept streaming down "Did-Did you ever love me Faye?"

Faye's back was still facing her mother. Of course Faye still loved her mother no matter how fucked up things had gotten but this was the same thing that had happened last time and Faye wasn't going to let Haley seem powerful. She was tired of the abuse she had from home all Faye wanted to do was sleep and go to school and not deal with her mothers bullshit. "I-I don't know." She spoke sternly. She continued up the stairs "I'm going to bed." She said opening her bedroom door stepping in before closing it.

Faye stared out her window seeing the night sky lightening up with stars. Would she actually do it? No. She's bluffing to get a rise out of me. She laughed the last time I begged her not too. Faye shrugged it off getting a bad feeling before she heard a thud come from downstairs sounding like something fall but she brushed it off thinking Haley had bumped into something since she was high. Faye couldn't shake off the feeling that something was wrong but she wasn't going to feed into her guilty conscience and let Haley over power her. She won't do it, she's too punk to do something like that.

Faye sat on her bed staring at her door still wondering if she should look out since it seemed really silent downstairs and Haley was never silent when she was high. What was going on? Faye tried to fight down her emotions but it seemed overwhelming so she got up from her bed opening her door going down the stairs before she saw her mother hanging from the noose, her body wasn't moving anymore.

"Mom!" She screamed rushing over picking up the chair stepping on it "No,no,no,no,no,no." She said picking up her mother lifeless body taking the noose around her neck setting her lifeless body on the ground. "Mom!" She Screams seeing her lips were a light purple with a deep bruise around her neck, she began to shake her head with tears streaming down her cheeks "Mom wake up I didn't mean it!" She yelled before they were overcome by the loud sobs "Mom wake up! I need you!" She began to cry shaking her Faye's body feeling weak "Wake up mom I didn't mean what I said. I do love you . I do love you just wake up please." She held her mother's dead body in her arms with a tight grip "Mom I love you okay? I admit it . I forgive you if wasn't your fault okay? Please..." she sobbed loudly "I need you mommy...I need you so bad." She cried into her chest.

"What's all the screaming about?" She heard Jakes voice from a distant before stopped seeing Faye hold Haley's dead body. "Mom?"

"Call 9-1-1!" Faye sobbed "Tell them she's dead."

Jake ran back upstairs hearing his distant voice speak on the phone. This was to much for Faye to handle, she didn't mean what she said although it was how She felt but maybe if she said she loved her she wouldn't have done it. Maybe she would've cried the whole night and not killed herself, it was Faye's fault. All Haley wanted to do was to be know she was loved before she passed on and Faye robbed her of that. She stood up going out the front door running with Jakes voice yelling in the background but she didn't care, she couldn't stay there anymore.