Her.

Thirty Two.

Faye didn't know what over came her in the two weeks they had shared the intimate moment, she was trying not to crawl back into her shell; blocking out everyone but London would notice at times with how cold Faye got but would brush it off and try to make her feel she was acting out. It was more fear that overcame her, she didn't know why of all things it had to happen now after London and her had sex. Her mind seemed to replay her words, 'I'd thought I wouldn't ever love another pure soul', to think she was opening up to the person she always wanted to be, was like a horribly dream she was reliving. It was like a moment she regretted, that'll live with her forever. The idea that London is most likely going to be spending there lives together, wasn't a dream Faye was ready to live...the most dumb thing to ever think. She tried to keep her father out of her mind but he always was in the back of her mind, considering she felt like he was living inside of her; controlling her thoughts, emotions, actions, as if she was a game to be played with.

The overthinking got so bad that Faye White was second guessing if she loved London or if she had won the game she never signed up for. Yes, its unfair for London but Faye didn't give it the time or day to worry about what London felt, she grew more annoyed with London, anytime she tried to break it up London would say something that made her feel more trapped. It wasn't more of the freedom of being single but slowly trying to not become the abusive person she use to be, fighting her own demons and London wouldn't understand that; she'd say she was right about Faye only having her virginity and leaving once she got it...a part of her felt London wasn't lying. Faye was becoming this ugly person, wanting to fight anyone and everyone that didn't even know she existed. So, it leads to this trip Faye planned...if she felt in her heart London was too good for her, then its over.

Nevada seemed like a good state to start in since it was closer than the others London wanted, the hotel was booked with a carnival only a few blocks away, more tourist stops around the area which would get Faye's mind off of her issues, she needed time away from her thoughts and focus more on the fun things life has to offer, that was the original plan she failed to see.

London opened the hotel door, Faye bending down to grab her stuff before a group of people who looked only two or three older cam running down the hallway but she ignored taking a step until a girl bumped into Faye. "I-I'm sorry." The brunette said her eyes covered in heavy eyeshadow leading into a glitter waterfall, a nice smile she had with a tooth gem, her hair in curls, petite with strong built almost Faye's height. "I didn't mean that, I was just-"

"It's okay." Faye grinned the brunettes green eyes sparkling, Faye's eyes traveling down her body seeing she was wearing a jumper that had a deep v-line that lead to her small breast. "Have fun." Faye toke a step but the brunette intervened looking between London and Faye.

"M-My name is Phoenix..ermm..." She went looking for her pocket before pulling out a flyer handing it to Faye. "It's a party at the festival tonight up a couple of blocks. You guys should come. We always go out bigger than last year."

Faye toke the flyer , a small grin.

"Sounds fun." London smiled at Phoenix who smiled back but looked at Faye waiting her approval.

"Looks packed...but...we'll check it out." Faye said as Phoenix gave a shy smile. "See you then."

"Okay..." Phoenix smiled before running to catch up with her friends who had left the floor.

Faye shrugged it off going into the hotel, "She seems to like you." Londons voice spoke envy which made Faye roll her eyes. "Faye it hurts when you do that."

"It's so tiring to hear the same thing when I talk to someone, you act as if I flirted."

"You were checking her out in front of me."

"Who cares? If I wanted to something I would've left with her." Faye argued with made London yell in annoyance.

"Your such a whore with those eyes, my God!" She continues to yell. "Your always eye fucking someone when you're with me, you don't even give me the time or day to even speak a sentence."

Faye toke a deep breath it, "London I'm here to have a good time I refuse to let it be ruined by your bitching."

"Fuck you." London spat making Faye stop dead in her tracks, shaking her head throwing her things onto the floor, she made her way towards the hallway. "Faye-" She rested a hand on her arm but Faye slapped it away.

"I don't need this."

~

The argument earlier left Faye's mind as she stepping into the party, feeling the heat of the bodies surrounding her, music vibrations singing a lullaby to her as if it controlled her body movements. Her blood pumping the alcohol and mixed drugs she had taken from strangers screaming the lyrics, lights flashing, her emotions numbed out not a single thought in her mind, in that moment she wondered why she even gave it up in the first place, but London popped into her mind making her mood dimmer down but it picked it back up as Phoenix stood in front of her. Faye stopped dancing and for a swift moment, everything blurred, "Your girlfriend came with you?"

"She's not my girlfriend." Faye was speaking more than her mind can think, she was heavily under the influence which had to explain why she felt so free and open saying that sentence with no remorse. "I'm not into blondes."

"So what you into then?"

"Brunettes." Faye smiled flashing dimples as Phoenix smiles shyly, Faye moving closer until there lips locked the music somehow setting back in as there kiss depended as if they were long lost lovers. The energy this random girl gave off somehow attracted Faye, the carefree vibes lured her...she needed this fix....she needed a break.Phoenix laughs between kisses resting her hand on her cheek, they stood in the dancing crowd holding onto one another, eyes burning with passion.

"Your eyes are mesmerizing." Phoenix says kissing her lips . "Its like love at first sight you feel me?"

"I thought I was the only one who felt that." Faye smirks as the girl laughs.

"I wanna take you to meet someone." Phoenix giggles leading her away from the crowd.