saving you | kamijirou

two

it was two am. jirou tossed and turned that night.

"i never did love you kyouka, i just wanted to get away from you,"

"itsuki.."

"goodbye, my dear daughter,"

"mom.. come back,"

"nobody will ever love you,"

jirou sat up in bed suddenly. her breathing was heavy and sweat was dripping from her forehead. night after night she's been having nightmares of the two she loved most, leaving her. it made her feel like nobody wanted her, that she didn't deserve love at all. her father didn't even know she was suffering like this, since she lived in the dorms now.

"why'd you have to go," she weeped softly into her blanket, "why itsuki.. mom.."

she's cried before over her mother, and she made up reasons in her head why she left her. but the one she doesn't understand sometimes is hamasaki. even if they broke up a year ago, the thought of him still lingered. jirou always questioned "why did you leave?", until she found her answer which put her in the entire state she's in. a childhood friend of hamasaki's had told jirou that he was annoyed with her and wanted to move away. over the years, he said she became so clingy and he couldn't stand it. however when jirou confessed to him, he couldn't turn her down since she saw him as her "best friend". they may have dated but jirou never noticed the things he'd do.

"you barely answered my texts, always made excuses to not go out.."

kyouka kept sobbing, it was a normal night for her though.

"we never even said "i love you".. not even once,"

she hiccuped every now and then.

"and now.. you cut off all contact with me,"

she was truly blinded by the love she had for him, she never even noticed he didn't have any for her at all.

-

the next morning, kaminari had gotten up pretty early, around six am. it's not like he wanted to, it's because shinsou wanted to. he walked outside the 3-a dorm, went outside behind the building, and there he was standing with a tired expression on his face.

"hey shinsou.."

they were now face to face, only little space between them. kaminari was pressed against the wall in slight terror. his only guess to why shinsou looked the way he did was because he was out with neito last night.

"hey kami," a smirk came across his face.

kaminari already knew what coming next. there was no reason shinsou would call him out this early unless he just wanted to mess around for a bit. he was leaning in for a kiss, but kaminari knew it would turn bad if he continued to do so.

"shinsou please stop," he begged.

the purple haired boy's eye twitched, "don't refuse me,"

"you were with monoma again, weren't you?"

shinsou didn't listen and still kissed him forcefully. kaminari shut his eyes quickly and tried pushing shinsou off. he hated mornings like this, it always ruined his entire mood. yet, there was no way he could go against shinsou when he's this way.

shinsou took a slight breath and that's when kaminari escaped. he pushed him off finally and slumped to his knees, gasping for air. if shinsou had the power to continue on like that, he would be kissing a corpse.