It Started With a Song [Shawn Mendes]

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(Shawn's POV)

"Summer, why doesn't Shawn pick up you and the twins anymore? I miss you guys," Aaliyah questioned. I hid behind the wall and listened.

Summer paused, then answered, "Well, I don't know, I guess we're just not really in the best place right now, but you can come over whenever you want to see the twins."

     Aaliyah still looked sad though. "Is it because he loves you but you don't love him?" I inhaled sharply in surprise. I saw Summer's face, and she looked surprised too.

     "No... actually it's the other way around Aaliyah."

     "Summer, Shawn's my brother, I've known him since I was born. I can tell when he cares about something, and even if he doesn't know it himself, he cares about you." Aaliyah walks out of the room and up the stairs and Summer just stayed silent. Not Aaliyah too! It seemed like everyone knew how I felt except me. I gave it a few seconds before walking in with the teas.

     "Here," I handed one to Summer. 

     "Thanks," she mumbled, taking a sip. "So, where do you want to start?"

     "Can we start with factoring polynomials? I don't understand them at all," I asked her, showing her my homework.

     "Sure," she took out her note book and started explaining to me how to do the problems. It actually helped a lot, and by two hours, I had finished all of my homework and studying, and I actually had learned something about math. When it was time for Summer to leave I walked her to the door.

     "Thank you so much for coming, that actually helped a lot. You could come back over tomorrow and I could drive you. Maybe we could even go get milkshakes after-" I said hopefully, but then Summer turned to me with her face full of pain. Then she said slowly:

     "Shawn, you know that me having to tutor you doesn't change anything, right? We can't go back to how it was before... before... you know." Summer looked at me sadly for a minute then walked out the door. I wanted to stop her, but I didn't. Seeing her walk away like that hurt me more than I ever expected it would. I needed her. I thought back to what Aaliyah had said, Brian, even Isabel. They all knew. How could I have been so-so- stupid, and ignorant? Summer meant more to me than any other friend. She knew me, and she loved me. And I loved her. I realized that now. How she always knew when something was wrong, or how it seemed like she understood me better than anyone else. The way she laughed at the smallest things, or played with her hair when she was nervous. It was like wave after wave of pain and relief were hitting me, breaking me. I had finally figured out my feelings, but it was too late now. I had hurt her, badly, and I couldn't change what I had done. I laid down on my bed and stared at the cieling. My mind was overflowing, I needed to get out my feelings. So I got out my guitar and did it the only way I knew - I sang.

This is honestly one of my favorite chapters! And yes, I have a lot of time tonight so I'm just posting a lot. Tell me what you guys think!