In The Name of Love (COMPLETED)

Chapter 23

#ITNOLCornered

A/N: Too much realizations and truths for PioGine in this chapter hehe. Sana may mapulot kayong aral! Sorry for the grammatical errors and misspelled words. Thank you, enjoy reading!

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Hindi ako nakasagot.

My body automatically shifted it's attention at Piolo, saying yes to his proposal of me dancing with him. I didn't speak a thing, as if my brain unconsciously is controlling me right now. He gave me a small smile and positioned himself for the dance. He placed his manly hands on my waist and held my hand on the other.

Nakatitig lang kami sa mga sarili namin na para bang nalulunod sa mapanuksong sandaling iyon. We were swaying like I was Cinderella and he was my prince. Hindi ako marunong sumayaw ng ganitong mga tugtugin pero bakit ganito, bigla nalang akong mabilis na natututo kapag kasama ko siya? My heart was beating so loud that my left ear could hear it.

I'm sorry.

The music stopped as well as our dancing. That was the most intimidate dance I did, siguro because I was doing it with my ex. He removed his hands that were supporting my body earlier and instead clasped it on mine. He kissed them softly and took a deep breath before saying something.

"Ilang beses ko nang sinabi to pero gusto kong sabihin ko sa'yo to ulit ng seryoso. You always took everything as a joke or either iniiwasan mo lang talaga ang tungkol doon. I also want to take this moment to say this to you wholeheartedly." he paused for a moment. "Gusto kong malaman mo na mahal pa rin kita. Hindi nawala ang pagmamahal ko sa'yo kahit naghiwalay tayo, kahit kinasal ka sa taong mahal mo. I never stopped loving you, never will be. I'm blessed enough when I knew that you were pregnant and we had a daughter back then. Kahit yun nalang, kahit si Sarah nalang ang nasa piling ko, okay na yun. Both of you are my world. Hinding-hindi ko kayo mapapalitan. Regine, nandito lang ako kung kailangan mo ako. I am here to save you when life's really hard, I will be there to help you when things get rough, I will be there to catch you when it's deep enough to fall into. I am also happy that you didn't shut me out when you decided to get married, eto ka pa nga sa harap ko, naging date pa kita. I am beyond grateful for what we are having right now. I thought you'll turn this offer down but you didn't and I love you so much for that."

I caressed his face. "You don't deserve this. You don't deserve to be my future rebound. You know what you really deserve? To be loved wholeheartedly. Hindi mo alam kung gaano ako nagpapasalamat dahil may isang ikaw na nakilala ko. Alam ko na hindi ko matutumbasan ang pagmamahal na binigay mo sa'kin for all these years. Hindi ko matatapatan ang pagsalba mo sa'kin sa mga panahong kinakailangan ko ng kausap at kaibigan. I cannot pay back as much as the efforts you did just to make me happy everytime I'm feeling down. You...did so much that my husband didn't do to me for the last fifteen years. Ang laki laki ng utang na loob ko sa'yo, pero ayoko namang gamitin yun para lang makasama ka. Para lang i-give up ang marriage namin ni Ogie. Ayokong matali sa isang lalaki dahil lang sa may utang na loob ako, gusto kong matali kasi mahal ko ang lalaking iyon. Hindi kabayaran ang pagmamahal sa utang na loob, Piolo. Minahal kita, sinubukan kong patagalin ang nararamdaman ko sa'yo pero nabigo ako. Always remember that meeting you is on one of the happiest moments in my life and leaving you will always be one of my biggest pains that I'll carry along the way." I didn't expect that I would shed a tear with what I was saying.

A tear left in his eye also na kaagad naman niyang pinahid sa mga mata niya. "Hinding-hindi ka mapapalitan ng kung sino sino lang, Reg. You are special to me no matter what happens. Kahit titibok pa ang puso kong muli sa iba, you will always be an exception."

"So, we made everything clear..." I sniffed because my tears were flowing by itself. "Buksan mo na ang puso mo PJ, ha? Don't burden yourself anymore, wala kang dapat pasanin na hinanakit just because you once failed in love. Tama na ang pagiging sarado. Lagi kang nasa puso ko, tandaan mo yan. Hindi ka mawawala, never kang maliligaw..." I pressed my right chest. "...nandito ka lang."