In The Name of Love (COMPLETED)

Chapter 40

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A/N: Sorry for the grammatical errors and misspelled words. Thank you, enjoy reading!

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"Randy, you're going out now." masayang tugon ko sa kanya. "How do you feel? Siguro sobrang luwag sa pakiramdam, ano?" I smiled at him.

"Sobra, Doc. Salamat sa lahat ng nagawa mo sa'kin. Akala ko wala na talaga akong pag-asa." humility engulfed his voice. Napangiti nalang ako sa sinabi niya.

"But! Do not forget to visit here during your monthly check-ups okay? Baka may maging komplikasyon pa or worse, babalik yang mga bukol mo sa utak." Payo ko sa kanya.

"Aysus, kahit wala naman akong monthly check up, bibisitahin naman talaga kita dito. Hindi lang kita doktora, kaibigan na rin kita. You can always contact me if you need a friend and will be there if times get rough." he uttered. "You're different from the doctors I met on the other hospitals...ewan ko ba kung anong meron sa'yo na wala sila."

"Ewan ko rin. I'm just diligently doing my job and offers a hand to help the needy, that's all. I mean, that's what a doctor should be, not thinking about making money or rank in this institution." maiksi kong pahayag. "And one thing, other doctors should quit being a money-faced paper bitches who just ditch around and not do their supposed to be workloads."

"Maybe that's what makes you different from others." tinuro niya ang puso ko. "Yan kasi, sobrang vulnerable niyan. Sobrang pure ng puso mo. Hindi lahat ng tao may taglay ng ganyang kabaitan."

I pushed his wheelchair, going into the hospital's mini garden. Napaupo ako sa bench at pinuwesto niya ang sarili niya sa tapat ko. "Aanhin ko naman tong career ko, kung mismong buhay ko sobrang gulo at di ko maayos-ayos."

He gave me a confused look. "Sabagay, wala naman talagang perpektong tao dito sa mundo." he cackled. "Mind sharing? Mas maganda magbunton ng sama ng loob sa di mo masyadong kilala." he poised himself as if he was ready to listen on what I'm about to say.

"Fine." I shrugged as I sighed my worries away. "So...where do I start? Ah, I loved a man for almost 20 years. I did ended up with him pero sapilitan lang naman yun lahat. In the first place, he didn't show me his love and affection, for the reason that I am not her. I am not the one he loves, I was just his replacement. Replacement sa namatay niyang fiance at magiging asawa na niya sana. Inalok niya ako ng kasal, syempre dahil mahal ko siya um-oo naman ako kahit labag sa loob niya at motibong pwedeng-pwede niya akong saktan kahit kailan at kahit anong oras. Sa loob ng pagsasama namin, hindi niya ako tinuring bilang asawa. I'm just a stranger who shares his surname."

"Hay nako, pag-ibig nga naman. Mahal mo e; nakakalimutan mong pairalin ang isip kasi puso na ang naghahari ng buong sistema mo. You'll do anything even if it hurts, it pains, it breaks, it damages you, in the name of love." suhestiyon nito. Tipid lang akong ngumiti sa mga sinabi niya. "So, next paragraph? Kidding, tapos ano sunod?" he joked and I cracked up.

"Ngayon, hindi ko na talaga siya natiis. He pushed me on my limit and that's it—hindi na niya mababago ang isip ko. I'm cutting our ties off." I concluded. "Kung palagi nalang niya akong sasaktan ng ganito, wala akong choice kundi pakawalan siya. Napapagod at nakakasawa na rin kasing maghintay at umasa sa wala. Plus, he cheated on me. Dun ako na-trigger na hiwalayan siya. I gave him two chances, two fucking chances but he threw it all away. Oo, tanga na ako pero kung bibigyan ko pa siya ng isa pang pagkakataon, ako na siguro ang pinakatangang tao sa mundo, lalo na't a third chance again ain't evident on his eyes and actions. Hangga't may oras pa, hangga't kaya ko pang magbagong buhay muli, gagawin ko. And that is now."