The Lioness: Change

Thorin's POV

written by cristianaistypingnow

I am so going to kill whoever hurt Law or any of my friends. Even if the culprit is the one I befriended. He'll pay for what he had done.

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Jes- oh, here comes my bad habit. Boy, was I dead anxious and freaked out when I heard that one of my friends' been hurt!

Well, he's supposedly woken up, everything's positively back to our nice, normal, simple life. Or almost eveything.

THIS WORLD IS SO FULL OF PROBLEMS!

I mean, I don't seem to take part in these important events.

Gillian's been acting really strangely recently. I heard her yelling and crying in the restroom, I didn't comfort her, just walked past even faster to get out of unwanted trouble. After all, I supposed that I shouldn't be interfering her feelings. However, Dianne and Analisa simply went up and tried their best to do everything to comfort her. I feel that I'm pathetic.

Law got stabbed and went missing for a whole damn day. I didn't worry or set out to look for him. The first one to see, care about and visit him was his not-good friend or even nemesis, Tree Alders. I didn't feel anything, not even shock when he disappeared. No worries, I always said to Dianne and the others. No worries my f**king head. I feel even more pathetic.

Francis seems to be thinking about something troubling him deeply. I didn't converse or even look at him. At least, Dan walked over to him and asked rather nosily about sense problems. Although he earned a glare and 'Aucun de vos affaires' (none of your business) at the end, well, he's got the courage. I am the most pathetic.

Official congratulations to myself.

I suck.

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"Hornus Carvol. Well, that's who I suppose I had seen, but I'm not sure really."

After a while of coaxing and threatening possibly the whole school during break, I got the answer from a 'somewhat' witness. And I got a conclusion. 'School bully rulz', as a note passed to me said. No one wanted to fight. No one dared to.

I do suck indeed. Like, BAD AT EVERYTHING. I wanted to hit that Carvol rat until he falls- no, plus kneel and beg for my mercy. But, what can I do? I can't even care for my friends, let alone avenging them.

Everyone I met told me not to pick a fight. Maybe sometimes it's right after all. However, I heard that Law's mental limit broke into pieces after he was requested to play a bit. Yes, I know he likes bets, to tell the truth. Maybe he's a bit overreacting? Well, I suppose Eustass and Bekan were really close friends with him, but... They passed away when I was eight, or nine. Time really does take away memory, even the happy ones. Then they leave with you the sad ones. I don't know, but I don't really remember them anymore. So I don't necessarily have a right to doubt Law.

I repeat again.

I suck the most.

THIS WORLD IS SO FULL OF PROBLEMS!!!

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AWW, here goes Thorin's mental status.

We broke the 200 mark! Oh, I am so happy I'm crying now. Thanks to everyone!

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