Trainwreck |✔️

CHAPTER 33

I haven't updated this is so long I am so sorry... I just really couldn't decide if I liked the chapter or not... I've decided to stick with it and hopefully the next one will be better xxx

Stepping through the door of my small Newcastle home I was hit by an unexpected silence. With a frown and a furrowed brow, I walked through the house to the patio door which was open, allowing Ants deep voice to drift through into the living space.

"Hi Mam it's me again, Anthony... i still don't know if this is your number or not, but... uh, I got a job... it's just part time at a bar but I'm hoping after a few shifts they will put me on full time.... I Uhh I don't know what you've heard about me and that but If you get this... I just want you to know that I love you... a-and Sarha, So much. And I miss you.... bye."

My heart broke in my chest. It hadn't even occurred to me, not once that he hadn't seen or heard from his sister or mother in 4 years.

Oh god poor Anth.

I fought back the tears as his steps got closer and closer until with a defeated look on his face, he walked through the patio door and closed it. I must have given him quite a fright, just staring at him the way I was. He visibly jumped and placed a hand on his heart, his sad expression, painted over with a smile.

"Decky, you almost gave me a heart attack kidda, you okay?" I held back the tears when he acted like everything was fine. I stayed stalk still as I was wrapped around in my boyfriend's arms. Before I would have gotten angry about him lying, but I understand it better now- I understand him better. He won't tell me because he doesn't want to hurt or upset me... he's just trying to protect me. What he doesn't realise yet is that he doesn't need to fight every battle alone.

"Decky talk to me baby what's wrong? How was work?... did your day with Timothy go well?"

"Nothings wrong, sorry... I was in a world of my own. Work was great actually, I made a huge breakthrough with Timothy so thankyou for that." He looked at me questioningly but didn't press when I continued. "I will be meeting with Blake's teachers tomorrow- the school's split up for Christmas but they will review his year for me just to see how he is getting on tomorrow. Depending on the result, if you don't mind I'd like to go with your idea and let you meet him during my Friday session with him."

"R-really?"

"Are you okay with that? You don't have to if you don't want to."

"No... no, I want to. And if you think it will help then definitely."

"It will. Thank you baby." I pushed up onto my tiptoes and kissed him on the lips gently. "Who... uh who were you talking to on the phone?" I could feel how he tensed up beneath my touch but he schooled his features perfectly.

"Nobody baby, nothing to worry about it anyway." I hid my face in his chest and blinked away the tears that were threatening to fall. I tried to do what Ant did and hide my pain behind a smile but I just wasn't like him.

I couldn't switch it on and off.

I could barely keep the emotion from my voice as I changed the subject soothly.

"It's almost Christmas. We should put up a tree and decorate."

"Why would you put decorations up now? Christmas is two weeks away." He looked at me genuinely confused.

"What do you mean? This is late for putting up decorations! We haven't even got a advent calendar going!" My eyes widened in horror at the realisation "but that means we can binge eat all the other days yay!!!" I practically bounced about like a little child at the thought but Ants expression stayed firmly questioning.