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Part 29

"Jimin can you just back the fuck off?" I yell at Jimin, who has been telling me to relax so I won't get another panic attack the past 15 minutes.

"But I'm just worried about you" He explains and I let out a big sigh.

"Exactly! This is why I didn't want to tell you about the panic attacks in the first place! You treat me differently!" I scream at his face. His puppy eyes looks scared at me.

"But you are sick! Of course I have to treat you differently" He says way more calm than I am talking.

"You don't get it do you? I'm not any more sick than I was the day we met. Panic attacks or not. I'm not a sick person. And I definitely don't need my boyfriend to treat me like one!" I yell and I feel the anger rise inside of me even more.

"That is exactly what a sick person would say!" He says and now his voice is getting louder too.

"Get the fuck out of my house!"

My alarm rings and I gasp being almost out of breath. My heart is beating faster than it should for a dream. This dream seemed way too real. It's the second one I've had where I've been having a talk with Jimin about my panic attacks. It just kind of pisses me off that he can't stop seeing me as someone who needs to be protected all the time. The past couple of days has been going way too slow, that I didn't even think I would make it till Friday, but now we are here. The most fun I've had this week was in music class. Our teacher loved our song and even wanted us to post it online. So we did. Yoongi wasn't too happy about it though.

*Flashback*

"You guys! This song is really good! I can really see that you all work really great together. Good work!" Mr Wilson says with a big smile, making us all hope for a good grade.

"Have you guys thought about uploading it online? I really think it has a lot of potential" Mr Wilson says and we all look at each other in great satisfaction.

"Yeah I don't think we'll be doing that" Yoongi declines and we all look at him like he just popped a really big balloon.

"Too bad" Mr Wilson says and points at the next group.

"You guys ready to show your work?" Mr Wilson asks and they start getting ready. I look at the guys and we all look like we agree to disagree with Yoongi, and Namjoon gently taps Yoongi's shoulder.

"And why are you making this decision without discussing it with us?" Namjoon whispers to Yoongi and I stare at Yoongi's cold gaze to Namjoon.

"Do you want that song on the internet?" Yoongi whispers back. This boy really feels like he owns every damn thing in this school doesn't he?

"Why not? I don't see a problem with it?" Namjoon says. Yoongi looks around to see all of us staring at him, hoping for him to give in.

"It's a school project. It's not like it's that good" Yoongi states and I'm just about to kick his face. We worked hard on that song. I think it's the best we've ever done.

"Dude, it's just for fun. It's not like anyone besides us will listen to it" Jimin says before Namjoon can say anything back.

"Let's just do it. If you are that embarrassed of it, we can leave your name out of it" Taehyung suggest. Yoongi looks at all of us nodding along with Taehyungs idea.

"Okay, do whatever you want" Yoongi says looking away from us, meanwhile we all smile bright at each other excited to post it after the lesson has ended.

*end of flashback*

I sigh as I get out of bed and get ready for school. My heart has calmed down a bit. Friday is a good day, so I should be really excited. There's a Plover party tonight so I'm actually really hyped for that. But Friday also means that tomorrow is Saturday, and this specific Saturday, is my 4 month anniversary with Jimin. Don't get me wrong, I've been looking forward to this for a long time. We've planned out the date a long time ago, but after the week I've had with Jimin, and now this dream. I don't know what will end up happening and it kinda scares me.