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Part 30

Bella came by my house around 7pm to get ready with me like we always do. It's really nice having her over before the parties. I somehow always end up getting nervous when we start getting ready, so it's calming that she's around. Another plus about her coming is that she has a car... I don't actually know why she would drive to every party, because she'll have to be sober at the end of it to drive the car home.

Anyways, today we were talking mostly about Andrea and Jungkook. I've tried making a plan over every little thing I could possibly do, that would make them end up hopefully kissing tonight. At some point I also tried talking about Taehyung and her, but she was quick to change the subject. They are going on a date this Sunday and I really can't wait to hear everything about it.

At around 9pm we are ready to leave my house. Bella starts the car and we turn up for the radio.

"Dee can I ask you something?" Bella asks me when we've been driving for a little while and she turn down the volume a bit. I nod as an answer.

"We haven't talked much about this lately so I thought I don't know... I just wanted to know how it was going with you and Jimin?" She asks and I sigh. I usually tell Bella everything. This is the first time I haven't been openly discussing my thoughts with her, and it's simply because, I don't know how to make them all make sense. But I guess, I should be telling just a little bit of it? At least the things that makes sense.

"I really don't know" I start out, which is very much true, but not the whole truth.

"Lately he has been pissing me off a little. I know that it's just because of his new knowledge on my panic attacks, but I really just don't want him to treat me the way that he's treating me right now" I say. There's a quiet pause, and I don't know if I should say something. I guess we are both trying to understand what's going on.

"Do you think you are going to break up with him?" She asks and I shake my head quickly without hesitation.

"I can't do that. This is not that big of a deal. Every relationship has some hardships. That's just how it is" I say, but Bella doesn't look convinced. Maybe I was trying to convince myself more than her?

"Have you thought about the kiss with Yoongi?" She asks and I choke on my own breath for a moment. I had managed to somehow forget about that.

"There isn't much to think of it... I was drunk, so was he" I answer while scratching my hand. I'm nervous. I should think about something else.

"Can we please go back to listening to the music? Tonight is about Andrea and Jungkook for me, not my personal problems" I say and turn the volume up again. The song playing isn't really one I know, but it's still better to just get away from the mess in my head for a while.

"You are right, let's just get drunk and forget that tomorrow exists" She says and I give her a small smile. I'm not mad at her for asking the questions that I don't know how to answer. I'm mad myself for not knowing what to do.

Bella parks close to Plover's house and we quickly get out and run towards the door. Plover is as always standing and hugging everyone that comes.

"Bells and Dee! Happy you are both here! Some of the guys are already in there, so you two should hurry in" Plover says with her big friendly smile. We both hug her and tell her we hope to see her later. The kitchen is already filled with people, but I spot Namjoon quickly. That tall boy isn't easy to oversee.

"Joonie!!" I yell out as Bella and I approach the table he's standing by.

"Oh hey girls!" He yells back at us and turn around. Seokjin turns around as he hears Namjoon's words and I give both of them a hug.