Things change || BTS

Part 27

"Here, take this" Yoongi says when he comes back. He hands me the bottle of water, that he opened before handing it over. I drink a little bit while Yoongi sits down beside me.

"Are you okay?" He asks and I look up at his face. He's looking down at the small package he's fumbling with.

"Yeah, I'm doing okay now. Thank you" I say looking at Yoongi's hands unwrapping the paper little by little.

"You don't have to thank me. I just did what I needed to do, really" He responds still not giving me a glance. I don't know what to say after that, so I go quiet. But I quickly remember the lighter in my hand. The one that distracted me.

"Here" I say and Yoongi finally looks up. First, he looks at me and then down at my hand that's holding the lighter. He reaches out to take it, and before I know it, it's down in his pocket again.

"How did you know?" I ask out of nowhere and he looks taken back for a short moment.

"Know what?" He asks giving me a confused look.

"How did you know what to do?" I ask and this time I think he gets what I mean. He starts unpacking the package again, that slowly looks edible and before he answers he gives the sandwich that has come to show, to me. I don't really hesitate to take it. My stomach is almost making sounds that the whole school can hear.

"I get them too" He answers, and I look up at him with my mouth full. He's already looking at me and I get a little embarrassed. I'm not the most beautiful when I eat.

"That's why I have the lighter on me, all the time" He adds. I feel a little bad from assuming it was because he smokes. Maybe he isn't as bad as I had led myself to believe.

"Sorry about that" I answer. It's probably not the best answer, but I'm just speaking my mind at this point.

"I've learned how to deal with it" He says looking away from me for a bit. I use this short while to admire his face a little. I can see the dark hair in his roots, and the mint blue hair is almost gone and leaves his hair looking like a pale blonde. His lips are a little bit apart from each other and he has the deepest brown eyes I've seen in a while.

"Are you done with the sandwich?" He asks facing me again and I quickly move my eyes down to my food.

"Almost" I say and take another big bite.

"Do you want me to get Jimin?" He asks moving his eyes away from me again and over to the school instead.

"What?" I say out of confusion. I might have forgotten Jimin for a short while. He did yell after me when I ran past him in the hallway earlier...

"Jimin came after you when you were out. He's sitting back at the school waiting for you. Do you want me to go get him?" He asks and I quickly get my head back to reality. Jimin doesn't know about my panic attacks, but now he has seen one. He has to know now. The thought is a little scary to me, and I don't really know why. Jimin is supportive and loving, but I never thought about sharing that part of my life with him. Not that I wanted there to be lies and secrets in our relationship. But this small thing about me might worry him. It will make him think of me as a victim.

"I don't know" I say trying to take my focus away from all these weird thoughts.

"You don't know?" He asks as I take the last bite of my sandwich. It's not until now that I realize how good it actually was.

"I don't really know what to tell him... I've kinda forgotten to mention it to him you know" I say and he gives me an understanding nod.

"I can explain it to him" He says and my eyes go big. Yoongi explaining to my boyfriend why I freak out? That would be a weird scenario.