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Part 31

"Are you okay?" I ask, looking worriedly at the teary Nana in front of me, who's still drying the tears in her sleeve as they come out.

"Me? Yeah, I'm okay, just caught a bug in my eye" She says with a fake laugh. Whatever it is, it must be something she really doesn't want me to know.

"You don't look okay Nana" I say and she's quiet for a bit, while another tear travels down her cheek.

"I'm here if you want to talk, but it's okay if you don't want to. But for real, I'm here for you" I say stroking her shoulder. She's still quiet. I want to be there for her like she has been there for me, but I don't know how to make her open up to me.

"I can leave you alone if you want to, but just know that I would much rather stay out here with you and talk" I say and give her a small smile. I pray that she will come to me herself some time.

"I don't know if I can explain it. It will make me sound like a horrible person" she says.

"It's not a big deal, but I just think my head is making it a bigger deal than it is" she adds.

"Maybe if you talk about it, it will seem like less of a big deal?" I say and she makes a small nod.

"I guess I can try that, but you have to promise not to tell one single soul about it and you can't judge me either!!" She bursts out and I laugh at the suddenness.

"I promise" I answer. Her cheek is dry for a moment as we find a sidewalk to sit at. It's nice to see her less sad for a short moment.

"I don't even know how to begin this Diana" she says.

"Well was it something that happened today?" I ask.

"I guess, well yes but also no" she says. She squeezes her eyes tightly, trying to get it all to make sense.$12

"Okay I'm going to tell you something that you can't tell anyone, because if you do I might never forgive myself" She says giving a really serious face, that I almost want to laugh at. It's cute that even if it's me who tells someone, she won't get mad at me, she'll get mad at herself.

"Of course, I won't tell anyone. You are keeping my biggest secret, so now I will keep yours" I say before smiling brightly at her, but she doesn't look amused.

"That's the thing, it's not my secret" she says and then she lets out a big sigh.

"Namjoon is not 100% straight, he doesn't have a title for it or anything, but he likes a guy. That's one of the reasons we broke up" she explains. Without realising it, I've left my mouth open. I would've never guessed that.

"And the reason I was really upset, the reason I am really upset, is because I just saw him in Plover's quest room, with the boy" she says and then the tears start running again.

"It's not like I don't want them to be together or anything, but I just... It's the first time I've seen them together and it just hit me. There won't be a him and I anymore. I still love him so much, and it really breaks my heart that I can't make him happy as he makes me" she says and now there's no stopping the waterfall coming out of her eyes. I rub her back trying to comfort her, but I don't think she even notices.

"Well if he fell for someone else while the two of you were still together, I say he's not worth it" I say, trying to make her feel better, but she just shakes her head.

"He didn't completely fall for someone else. He told me that he thought he was into guys, but that he loved me and everything, he just didn't know what it was that he felt towards this other human" she says.

"He even said that he didn't want to break up because of it, but that he thought it was only fair if I knew why he had been acting odd that past week" she says.