Sleepless Nights

00:01 AM

"When this will end?",
i asked the universe every night;
The sleepless ones,
The peaceful ones,
The tired ones.

I've been running for years,
Chasing things i don't even know.

I've been giving for years,
Receiving nothing but demands to run more.

I've been crying for years,
Looking at my own life.

I've been standing alone,
Trying to be tough.

"Shit, i am too young to feel this far.."

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Restless,
Sleepless,
Afraid,
Tired,
Angry,
All covered with empty stares and fake smiles.

All covered by the thick wall i built.

"They'll never see the weak side of mine."

"Will they listen if i speak?"

"Will they hug me whenever i feel blue?"

"Will they always be there?"

"Am i enough for them?"

Running thoughts,

2 AM,

Lights down low,

Mind set up high.

//
Lost myself,
with no one to find me.

Walking along the beach,

Wind stroking my hair,

Grainy sands,

Lonely moon,

Looking at the constellation,
Brokenhearted,
I feel empty.

Done with love,
They were so tragic and cruel.

For as long as i live,
..always been remedy to others,
with no one to hold.

Feel sorry to show my negative side,
but i'm a human too,
in case you forgot.

Dear Universe,
I'm so damn tired.
I deserved way much more than this.
Been holding too much,

So tell me,

"What did i do to receive all of these?"

"Am i not worthy to be loved..?"

"How much longer do i have to stand this all?"

"How much longer do i have to endure..?"

"Help..i'm...givin' up..."

"When this will end?"

Answer me!

"When. this. will. end?"

-A