Sleepless Nights

12:58 AM

3 July,

exactly 4 days ago

...was my birthday.

I don't know why,

i feel happy,

and empty,

at the same time.

Besides all of it,
i know that i shouldn't put such high hopes on you to just say 'Happy Birthday'.

Or even worse,

to join the surprise my friends made at the kitchen.

I mean,

who the hell am i?

Just an ordinary 19 yo;
drowned in her totally raw mixed feelings.

a broken-heart writer,

a sorrowful singer,

an insecurity full-timer,

was born from the melancholy one.

/Well,

people said that as you grew up,

you'll learn a lot;

to have patient,

to forgive,

and to let go.

And that night remarks the day i let this torture feelings go,

i let you go,

...freely.

We're not meant to be.

And i don't want to fight the universe this time.
-A