Warning: homophobic slurs and/or life threatening thoughts. Read at your own risk!!
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I woke up to a smaller boy attached to me, forgetting that Eddie had wrapped his arms around me least night as we drifted off to sleep.
I smiled at the thought of him cuddling with me. Not just because it's him, because i like the feeling of being wanted.
I looked around and everyone was still sleeping.
"Wake up sleepy head" I whispered to Eddie turning to face him trying to get his hands off mine.
"No" Eddie whispered and nuzzled his head into my chest startling me a little bit.
I slowly slid my hand in between his arm and his waist and lightly rested my head on his.
His hand slightly gripped my hoodie.
"Don't you think this is kinda..gay?" I whispered to Eddie.
"Been called it my whole life, doesn't faze me" Eddie whispered back to me.
"Well i wasn't trying to be mean i just.. i don't know" i whispered to him.
"People still bully me for it" He whispered with a voice crack.
"Me..too" i said whispering.
"wait.. actually?" Eddie asked looking up at me.
"Yeah.. Henry.. he calls me it when he gets mad at me. I never do anything to piss him off he'll just flip out on me" i explained quietly.
"I'm sorry Richie" Eddie whispered.
"No dont be. He was right about some of it" i said hinting that i'm into guys.
"Oh- wait-" Eddie said looking at me confused.
"Shh Eddie-spaghetti go back to sleep" i said running my fingers through his fluffy brown hair.
"oh- okay?" He whispered closing his eyes and sliding his hand around my waist.
A little while later i woke up and Eddie was gone. Everyone was just laying in bed but they were awake.
"Where's Eddie?" i asked sitting up and rubbing my eyes.
"Right here ya dork" Eddie said coming from the bathroom, sitting down next to me.
"oh.." i said scratching the back of my next.
Everyone left after we cleaned up including me.
I wanted to go home and get ready for the first year of Junior tomorrow.
Tomorrow is the first day and i'm quite scared.
I know i shouldn't be but i've been nervous about my mom and dad getting here.
That was when i heard a car pull up into our drive way. I run to the door and look out the window.
It's only my dad. Where's my mom?
"Dad!! your home!!" i yelled smiling.
"whatever, kid" he said walking all the way in past me.
"Where's mom?" i asked.
"Shes not your mother anymore" my dad said sitting on the couch.
"what happened?" i asked.
"We aren't together anymore! now go!" he yelled at me causing me to run up my stairs to my room.
I slammed my door shut and locked it.
I went to my bathroom and stared in the mirror with tears running down my face.
I ripped up my sleeve looking at my scabbed cuts.
I grabbed another razor blade and slicing into my wrists as i fell to the ground crying.
"I hate everyone and everything... i bet nobody would care if i just stopped talking" I said to myself.
Fuck everyone.
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