Warning: homophobic slurs are/ or life threatening thoughts. Read at ur own risk!!!!!!
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We got to my moms new house.
It looked like she was doing good without my dad.
We grabbed my stuff and headed in.
"You have your own room with a bathroom" She said smiling.
"oh cool" i said giving her a fake smile.
She walked me over to a room that only had a bed in it.
"You can decorate however you want" she said smiling.
"Okay" i said as she left shutting the door behind her.
I walked over to the door and locked it.
I immediately broke down into tears.
"What the fuck? why did i have to leave when things got good?" i asked myself laying on my bed.
My mom left to bring my letter to the post office.
I sat up and just stared at my wall for a little.
I got up and went over to my bag grabbing my blades out of it.
I honestly didn't think i would ever do this again but here i am, cutting into my arm again.
What if i killed myself.
I'm never going to get a job which means i'll never get train tickets to see Eddie again and i've left all my friends. There's nothing more to live for.
But then i get a thought.
I jump up pulling my sleeve down my arm and leaving my room to the kitchen where the house phone was.
I tried to remember Eddies house phone number as best as possible typing it in and dialing it hoping it was Eddies.
"Hello, Kaspbrak family" i heard a small voice say. It sounded like he had been crying.
"Eds?" i asked.
"Richie?!" I heard the voice say getting excited.
"Eddie! baby!" i yelled getting super excited.
"I miss you richieee!" Eddies dragged out.
"my moms out mailing a letter to your house right now. So chances are it will be there tomorrow or the next day" i said smiling as i talked to the love of my life.
"Okay Richie, anyways how's your new place" he asked snuffling a little bit.
"I have a pretty nice room but it won't ever beat sitting in your bed cuddling to music" i said letting a tear fall from my eye.
"Babyy i knoww, i will miss those days, and you. You are the best thing that's ever happened to me. You were my first kiss and i would like to keep it that way. I want you to my first everything so you better come visit me soon!" he said giggling into the phone.
"God i love you, what did i do to deserve someone like you?" i asked him as my mom walked in.
"who are you talking to?" she asked me.
"Eddie" i said after i put the phone to my chest.
"Ohhh" he said smiling.
"Okay Eddie Spaghetti, the letter was sent out" I said smiling into the phone.
"I can't wait to see your drawing skills." he said.
"Ah, they aren't even that good" i said giggling.
"I'm sure they are amazing just like you" he said giggling making me smile.
"Gosh Eddie stawp your making me blush" i said smiling.
"Well you are" Eddie said giggling on the other side of the phone.
"Okay well anyways, i have to get a job here so i can pay for a train ticket down once a month." i said smiling.
"YAY!! I JUST WANNA KISS YOU AGAIN!!" He yelled really facts breaking my ear drums.
"ME TOO" i yelled a little quieter than Eddie did.
"Hehe..Oh shit my moms home! I got to go but i love you Rich and i can't wait to kiss you all over" he said making me choke on my spit.
"oH oKaY, i love you too Eddie Spaghetti" i said hanging up on him.
"I LOVE HIM" I screamed as i leaned against the counter.
"Clearly" my mom says laughing a little bit.
"He's so so amazing" i said smiling to myself.
"well here are some applications i got while i was out" My mom said handing me them.
"Okay thanks mom" i said smiling and going up to my room.
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A couple days went by and i was sad as ever. I applied for work at the grocery store stalking the shelves.
I went out to check the mail, ive been waiting for a letter back from Eds.
I opened the mail box, reaching in and grabbing two letters.
I brought them inside to my room since one was from the place i had applied for.
I opened the one that said from Derry.
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