The Falling virgin

f i f t y e i g h t: I question life

"You fucking idiot." I yelped as Ethan spilled his glass of lemonade. "Hey, hey, you know I'm clumsy." He said and shook his head. I sighed, a smile plastered on my face as I eyed my best friend's shirt. "I missed you." I said and he looked at me. "Who wouldn't?"

"How are you and Lewis?" I asked and Ethan bit his lip. "We're amazing actually. My dad loves him."

I shrieked. "He met your dad?"

"Yeah, and I think my dad finally accepted that I am gay." He said, smiling. "About time." I said and patted his shoulder. "Let's get a clean shirt for you."

***

"Connor, what college are you attending?" My mom asked him and he looked at me. "Oxford." He answered and my mom gave him an impressed look. "You got in?" Ben asked and Connor nodded. "Well, yeah."

Ethan met my eyes, frowning as he didn't find any sadness in my face. I wasn't happy he was leaving in a few months, but I knew we would work.

"What will you be studying?" My grandma asked, taking a bite of her food. "Something in the medical direction." Connor said. "Oh, I didn't think that would be it, to be honest with you." My mom said. "Well, my dad wants me to take over his company, but I don't really see myself in the business."

"Oh, Connor Hamilton wearing suits all the time doesn't sound that bad now, does it?" Ethan said, a joking grin on his face. Connor rolled his eyes, sighing. "Jacobs, you are truly something else."

"Luckily, the world would be boring if everyone was normal. Was even is normal in your eyes? You have seen a lot, haven't you?" Ethan said, squinting his eyes at my boyfriend. "Eth." I hissed. He frowned and then saw the look on my grandma's face. I cleared my throat as I looked at my mom. "So, how's the food?" She asked, quickly changing the topic.

"I like it." Ryan said, nodding. "As always of course, I don't think anything can top your cooking, Aunt Alice."

"You're such a little charmer." Lily said to her brother. "But, you're right, it's lovely." Phoebe frowned as she looked at her twin. "You haven't talked all day," She turned to me. "She's a little stunned by your boyfriend's looks I think."

Connor stifled back a chuckle as Lily's cheeks turned red at her sister's comment. "We all are, aren't we?" Ethan asked. Connor grinned as he looked at Ethan. "Oh, I'm flattered you think that."

I rolled my eyes as Ethan winked at Connor. "Hey, would you keep your flirting for when I'm not in the same room?" I asked and Connor looked at me. "I didn't notice you were here, Ethan's looks blinded me for a second."

"I didn't know you were gay." Benjamin said as he scanned my best friend. "And why wouldn't I be?" Connor asked, grinning. "I've kissed you, right?"

Ben's mouth fell open. "I thought we would keep that a secret?"

Connor shrugged. "Ah, right, now the world knows too." He said and everyone was following the conversation with a frown on their face. "Sometimes I question life." Phoebe said, shaking her head. I licked my lips. "Okay, okay, we get it." I said.

Connor put his hand on my knee. "I love you."

I rolled my lips inside my lips as everyone went completely silent. "What?" My grandma said. "Ah, I forgot to mention that I plan on marrying your granddaughter one day, of course I'll need your permission first."

My grandma looked around the table. "Come ask me that in a few years, would ya?" She asked, shaking her head with a smile on her face. "Alright, I promise." Connor said, taking my hand and kissing it. I let out a sigh, trying to calm my heart rate.

"When were you gonna tell me? I'm your best friend and the brother of your girlfriend." Benjamin said, glaring at my brother. "Calm your tits, would you?" Connor said. "I was, but, in a more- You know what? You'll see in a few years."

***

There was knock on my door and the knob turned. I closed the book I was reading and looked at the person who entered. "Can I come in?" Ben asked and I pushed myself higher up. "Yeah, what's up?"

He shrugged and plopped down on the bed. "I need you advice." He said after a few moments. I frowned. "Advice?"

He nodded. "Yeah, about Emma." He said and I licked my lips. "But, I don't know her. How can I help you then?" I asked and he ran his hand trough his hair. "Well, when did you figure out you liked Connor?"

I rubbed my temple and sighed. "You helped me figure that out. But, if you mean love, then I just knew when he drank my drink in Titi's diner." I said, smiling when I thought about it again.

"Wait, you told him you love him?" Ben asked, his brows furrowed. "Yeah, I did." I said and he grinned. "I knew something had changed between you two."

"Okay, but besides all that, why do you need to know if you like Emma?" I asked and he gulped. "I know I do, but I don't know if she likes me back."

I smacked his head and he winced. "What was that for?" He yelped. "You're so dumb, of course she likes you. Do you ever listen to what Connor says?" I asked, laughing. "No." He stated truthfully.

I chuckled and he frowned. "So, should I ask her to be my girlfriend?"

"Yeah, finally. What the fuck did you need my advice for?" I asked and he sighed. "Cause you're my little sister and you know me better than anyone on this world."

"Aw." I said and pulled him into a hug. "You're so sweet sometimes." I mocked and he pushed me away, rolling his eyes. "Alright," He said, getting up from my bed. "Want me to send Connor?"

I shrugged. "Maybe just tell him that I'm gonna be sleeping if he decides to come up late."

He nodded and left my room. I turned off my light and got under the covers, laying my side.

After a few minutes, when I was almost asleep, the door opened and you could hear Connor shuffling to my bed. "Alli?" He whispered.

I hummed and turned on the light to look at him. "Your grandma is crazy."

"I know, I think she accepts you. Until she finds the condoms of course." I said and he chuckled as he took off his pants. "She won't if we use them."

"What if she opens the bin?" I asked and he let out a breathy laugh. "Oh right, cause that's a regular thing to do?"

I shrugged. "You never know with her."

"Facts." He said, getting in bed too. "But, would she?" He asked and I frowned. "Open the bin?" I asked and he nodded. "I have no clue." I said and he grinned. "Let's find out."

I rolled my eyes as he tried to kiss me. "No." I shrieked as he kissed my neck. He put his hand over my mouth. "Stop, imagine she walks in cause you are screaming."

I sighed and softly kissed his lips. "Hey, I told you, no sex." I said and he let his shoulders fall. "Alright." But then he grinned. "Watch yourself. In a few days, you are gonna be the one all over me." He said.

I slowly shook my head. "Alright, alright, we'll see about that." I sighed.

"Yes, we will."

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Happy new year! I wish you all a happy 2020! I hope mine goes better than 2019, cause honestly most of it sucked ass.

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