The Falling virgin

n i n e t e e n: Hamilton's sweater

We walked to my house and he stopped at my doorway, putting his hands in his pocket. "I should head to Jane's house, actually, I'll see you tomorrow?" He asked and I nodded. "Yeah, have a good night Con." I opened the front door and walked inside.

I immediately went upstairs cause everyone else was sleeping. "Alli?"

I turned around, seeing Riley in a shirt of my brother walking out of the bathroom. "Hey." I said and opened my door. "Are you okay? You look like you've been crying."

"Yeah, thanks." I said and she gave me a small smile before getting back in my brother's room. I softly closed my door and changed into a shirt to sleep. I turned off my light and crawled into my bed.

This all was too exhausting.

***

"Alli, come one, get up!" Ben shouted as he slammed on my door. I groaned, turning around. My door flew open and his eyes widened. "Alli, we're gonna be late." He said. I slowly sat up, rubbing my eyes and I looked at my clock. "Fuck."

I quickly got out of my bed and Ben walked out of my room. I quickly grabbed the sweater of my chair and put on pants. I walked downstairs. "Mom, where's Ben?"

"He already left." She said and my mouth fell open. "Fuck. I thought he was gonna drive me."

She shook her head. "Take your bike."

I walked to the garage as she said that and jumped onto my bike, cycling as fast as I could. When I quickly locked up my bike and jogged inside the school. I got a few stares from people and I just ignored them, walking inside my class knowing I was late.

"Miss Daniels, care to explain?" Sir Heath asked and I licked my lips. "I overslept, it kinda got late yesterday." I said, looking over at Lucas who was playing around with his pencil. "Probably fucking Hamilton." Bobbie said and I shot her a glare. "Sorry?"

"Why would you be wearing his sweater then?" She asked. I looked down at my chest and sighed, because I was in a hurry I took his sweater. "Fuck." I sighed and sir Heath cleared his throat. "Please take your seat next to Mister Sanchez."

I nodded and sat down next to Lucas who didn't seem to be wanting to look up. I got out my stuff and Lucas huffed. "So are you and Hamilton a thing now?" He hissed and I jerked my head towards him. "Can we talk about this after class?" I asked and he shrugged.

I leaned back in my seat, sighing. He still didn't look at me and I let out a long breath.

The class took a long ass time.

***

As fast as the bell rang I got my stuff back in my backpack. "Can we talk now?" I asked and Lucas shrugged. "Sure."

We walked outside and sat down on a bench. "Look, I'm sorry I told Connor about the whole thing on Saturday, maybe I shouldn't have. It's just that he's concerned about me sometimes and we just talk about that kinda stuff."

"It's not about that, Alli, it's more that I'm scared that you'd believe him about the love part. I really do love you and no, it's not to have sex with you. And yes, I wanna have sex with you but that's only when you want to. I don't want you to feel under pressure." He said, finally looking at me. "I don't think that's why you said it, it's just that it felt quick." I tried to say that as understanding as possible, not wanting to hurt his feelings even more.

"I don't expect you to say it back." He said, wanting to get up. I grabbed his arm and he frowned. "Are we okay?" I asked and he gave me a small smile. "Yeah, of course. But you gotta promise me that you're gonna hang out with me tonight."

I sighed. "I can't, I have volley practice." He licked his lips. "I'll see you at lunch?" I nodded and he walked off.

I ran my hand trough my hair and looked around, spotting Jane. I got up and walked over to her. "Hey." I said and she turned around. "Uhm, hey." She said, scanning me. "Allison, right?"

I nodded. "Yeah, you can just say Alli if you want to." I said and she nodded. "Okay, so what's up?"

I bit my lip. "Just wanted to say hi cause your Con's girlfriend and Hamilton and I are kind of friends." I said, an arm made it's way on my shoulder. "Are we now? I remember you telling Lucas something else two weeks ago." Connor grinned and Jane cocked an eyebrow. "Lucas Sanchez?" She asked and Hamilton nodded. "Her boyfriend, have you guys talked about yesterday?" He asked me and I nodded. "Yeah, we're good."

Hamilton's hand moved to my lower back, I froze trying not to smack his face right now. "Honey," He said, moving his hand even lower. I coughed and he let his hand fall next to his body. "we're gonna hang out tonight, right?" He asked and she nodded.

"Daniels, you look way better in my hoodie than I do." He said and I rolled my eyes. "I was in a hurry." I said and he shrugged. "So what?"

"Wait, that's your hoodie?" Jane asked. Hamilton bit the inside of his cheek. "Yeah, I handed it to her because she was cold. Wait, it doesn't even matter, you have my jacket." He said and she looked at him. "Yeah, that's true."

Didn't he only give his jacket to his hook ups?

"I'm gonna head to my next class." I said and Connor frowned as I started walking away. "I thought I was gonna get a hug?" I showed him my middle finger, receiving a low chuckle and an angry girlfriend, him already trying to apologise. I shook my head, smiling to myself.

"You're smiling?" Ethan joked, I looked up at my black haired best friend. "I'm not." I said, trying to straighten my face. "And you just talked to Hamilton." He said, a smirk forming on his face.I quirked an eyebrow. "What's that supposed to mean?"

"I don't know, you tell me." He said, I fixed my backpack, causing him to look at my sweater. "Never mind, you're literal couple goals already." He said, giving me a toothy grin. I smacked his chest. "Remember, we're both dating someone."

"So what? You guys would be really cute. I mean, he looks good, so do you. You're short, he's tall. You're feisty while he on on the other hand is demanding, which would keep you down." He said and I rolled my eyes. "He would definitely not keep me down, plus I'm not feisty."

"You sure?" He laughed and I narrowed my eyes. "Fuck off."

He pulled me in for a hug. "Oh, I'm sorry, did I hurt your feelings?"

"I hate you." I said, still putting my arms around him too. "I know, I know." He said as he rubbed my back. "But you do look good in this sweater."

I pulled away from him and shook my head. "You're such an idiot." He gave me a wink. "Yeah, that's why we're friends, remember?"

I mean, this sweater was actually comfy.

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