I need you, I need you, I need you

chapter 23- pacify her

August 27th, 2019
Rachel's p/v
Holy shit, last night was incredible. I'm not going to say that it was magical because that's cringe, but it was a night to remember. Kyle and I were on call all night. Our conversation did give me flashbacks to when Tyler and I talked. I even told Kyle about my past. He was very understanding and wasn't pressuring me into saying more. I felt safe. Now I gotta manage to not fall asleep in class. I put on an uncomfortable outfit for this exact reason.

I'm wearing a green dress, denim jacket, white Filas, and my Kanken backpack. Cute fit if I do say so myself.

I thought I was going to get through the day without falling asleep but I'm already failing and it's only first period. I have my head on my desk and ready to drift to la la land.

Mary's p/v
Today's fit was based on a dream I had last night. I dreamt that I was staring in a Hollywood movie with Robert Pattinson. Everyone in the film industry knew that I was the best, but the director ended up giving my part to Rachel. I remember exactly what we wore. I'm almost 100% sure that Rachel can recreate the outfit.

In my dream she was wearing a white baby tee, blue mom jeans, and black converse. I was wearing a white babydoll top, blue denim skirt, and brown uggs. I decided to spice up my outfit for today because dream me obviously knew nothing about matching. It's still based on my dream because the colors are the same, but I added my own spin on it.

I'm wearing a white/red baby ringer tee with a brown teddy bear in the middle, red corduroy skirt, white knee high socks, red brown docs, and a brown corduroy tote bag. But it's obvious that Tyler isn't doing this fit justice; he's focused on her.

"Hey, do you know why Rachel is sad? Yesterday after choir she seemed to be happy." Tyler whispers in my ear. I just frown at the ground.
"Not you feeling sad too."
"I'm not sad, Tyler. Just tired."
"Of what?"
"Literally everything. No, I don't know why she's sad. All I know is that some guy broke her heart, Darry told me. That's it." I take my Airpods out of my bag and put them on. I need a timeout.
"Do you know who?"
"No, but it's probably that blond dude that was with her yesterday after show choir."
"Ah, I see."
"You don't care, right?"
"Yeah, I don't care. I need to use the restroom though." Tyler gets up from his seat and walks to the teacher. Yeah, he obviously doesn't care.

Tyler's p/v
Obviously I do care, and a lot. I'm ready to ruin the guy who hurt her. But I'm also shaking at the thought of her talking to other guys. I'm not allowed to feel jealous, but I just can't help it. My stomach aches from thinking about her flirting with someone else. I'm more frustrated than upset though. I let this happen, I can't complain. I just wanna yell out my feelings to Rachel on top of the school roof top...but it's no use. She's hurt by that jerk from yesterday which means she did move on. Gosh, is the room shaking? My limbs feel like stone. And my stomach won't stop churning.

Rachel is allowed to move on. She's allowed to find happiness because it's clear that I can't give it to her. But fuck man I'd be lying if I said I didn't wanna kiss her precious lips right this instant. I've been craving my hand on her cheek and her precious smile beaming at everyone. That asshole was blessed with her presence and he had the fucking audacity to hurt her. If she was my girl, I would do anything to protect her. But that's what I'm afraid of; I'm afraid that I'm going to hurt her even more. No one said moving on was hard.

Mary's p/v
Great work, Rachel, you have Tyler wrapped around your finger. She's faking her sadness to get my man's attention, and it worked. I hate both of them for it. But I'm going to show Tyler that I'm the girl he needs. And I know just the way on how to do it.

Rachel's p/v
I never meant to ignore Sage on purpose. Her and I get into dumb fights often, but we always recover from them. I miss her a lot, but I understand if she doesn't want to see me. She's sitting at a table all alone so it's worth a shot getting my best friend back.
"Hey, Sage." I say.
"Hey."
"I'm really sorry I ghosted you. This week hasn't been easy."
"But you always do it, Rachel. I never know if you're mad at me or not."
"I could never be mad at you. So what do you say? Are we still friends?" I reach out my hand.
Sage looks at me for a while. She then smiles.
"Yeah, we can be friends again." She shakes my hand.