Vixen (Bts Gang AU)

Insecurity

"Just wait here alright?" I asked, taking out the earrings and hiding them in a drawer in my office, wrapping them in fabric. "Sure." He sits in the couch as I rush to the bathroom and take a quick shower before heading to the closet. I slip into some dark red lingerie and stare at myself in the mirror, the dark bruises and small cuts left by the sex traffickers litter my skin and I inwardly wince. "It's alright." I murmur and look for some clothes, trying to get back into my Vixen mindset.

I put on a pair of leather pants, a white lacy crop top and a black leather jacket. I quickly put my hair into two matching French braids before applying makeup. I then sigh, meeting my eyes in the mirror again, flashes of the past few weeks replaying in my head. "How is it you always look beautiful?" I hear Yoongi whisper, coming up behind me, one arm wrapping around my waist and his free hand running through his hair in the mirror.

Despite the fact I can clearly see him and distinguish who he is I still flinch. "Whoa Jinnie. It's alright." He says softly and I grab onto the dresser, gripping it so hard my knuckles turn white. "I know. I know." I mutter quickly and I catch the worried look that flashes in his eyes. "I'm fine Yoongi!" I snap and he backs away, holding his hands in the air. "I didn't say you weren't." He says, sitting on the edge of the bed and looking up at me. "I know you thought it, I know you're thinking it now too. And I'm not weak." I sound desperate and on the verge of tears, not weak my ass.

"I know you aren't, but you've been through a lot. It's alright to be a little weak sometimes." He says and I groan, throwing my head back and slamming back against the dresser. "It's not alright for me!" I shout and he takes a deep breath, calmly looking at me. "Jinnie, you're human, just take a moment to realize that." He says and I bury my face in my hands with a sigh. "I just want to be me again. Normal, regular me." I say and hear him walk over, his hands settle on my hips and he lifts me up onto the dresser, standing in between my legs.

"Jinnie look at me." He says softly and I peer at him from between my fingers before slowly letting my hands fall down. "You can fall apart, you just have to put yourself back together again after." I feel a tiny smile grace my features and meet his eyes, leaning in and pressing my forehead against his, our noses touching. "You're absolutely perfect, don't let the darkness plague your thoughts. No matter what you went through I'm here to help fix it, however I can." His lips brush mine and I close my eyes, putting my arms loosely around his neck.

"Then I'm officially asking for help." I whisper and he kisses me hungrily, his touch sending fire coursing through my veins. Lord I missed him, missed this, and missed us. I let that fire move me, forming my body to his as I kiss him back, that powerful urgency being reciprocated. I don't let the dark images invade my mind, I focus on Yoongi and how me cares about me and how I care about him. He respects me and I really appreciate that right now. I get self conscious of all the signs of the struggle I've endured but he one ups my self doubt by planting a gentle kiss on each individual mark.

I know that I'm getting too deep again, that I'll fall out of sync just like with Namjoon but I can't help it. I can't tell him no or force myself to put a stop to it. It's like a drug and I'm an addict. Maybe it's just the raw compassion I'm feeding on but no matter what, I'm not beating myself up over everything, so I'm doing pretty good for the time being. He places another lingering kiss on my lips and smiles at me and I sigh softly, the tightness in my chest releasing its death grip on my lungs.

"Better now?" He asks and kisses me again quickly. "So much better." I press my lips to his with a smile and reach out for his phone with one hand as it starts ringing, I manage to fumble it into his hands and he answers it. "Hey." He gasps softly and I choke back a giggle. "I'm busy right now, okay?" He frowns and I arch an eyebrow before kissing his cheek gently, causing him to stutter over his words. "I'm busy busy. Is that so hard to understand?" He rolls his eyes and I smile, he looks like he's about to toss his phone across the room. "Yes that kind of busy. Dear lord you're a naive idiot." He sighs and I actually burst out in laughter, quickly covering my mouth with my hands and continuing to giggle.

"I'm hanging up now. Goodbye." He says in an overly sarcastic voice and I try desperately to muffle my laughter. "No, don't you dare. I will murder you if you even consider showing up." He says and I bat my eyelashes at him. "Fucking idiot." He mumbles and hangs up, tossing his phone aside and placing another gentle kiss on my lips. "We should go, that was a very suspicious Jimin calling." He says and I roll my eyes. "Can't I get a moment's peace?" I sigh and he chuckles, starting to get dressed. "I guess not." He says and I bury my face in a pillow with a groan. "Fine." I mutter and start to get dressed, I slip back into my clothes and then take my messed up hair out before combing it and leaving it in messy waves and fixing my makeup.

There's suddenly a knock on the door and I roll my eyes walking towards it, the heeled boots I slipped on clicking on the floorboards. "Um, hi?" I mutter opening the door to see a guy I've never met in my life. "Jimin fuck off!" Suga shouts walking towards me and quickly shutting his mouth when he sees the guy. "Can I help you?" I ask condescendingly and he smiles at me. "You're Li Jinnie right?" I roll my eyes and nod. "Good, you're who I've been looking for." He says and I get a unsettling feeling in my gut.