Off Record [Ereri/Riren] ✓

16 ⚕︎Selfish ✍︎

Off Record
Chapter 16
⚕︎Selfish ✍︎
Eren

self·ish

/ˈselfiSH/

adjective

(of a person, action, or motive) lacking consideration for others; concerned chiefly with one's own personal profit or pleasure.

The documentary is incredible, I never would have thought the ocean could be home to so many unique creatures. Dr. Ackerman seems to be in his own head the whole time so I don't disturb him. Something is eating at him, probably my situation. I barely understand it myself so how can I expect him to?

Once it's over I nudge him. "It's over."

"Oh. I see."

His name is stuck on my tongue. I want to ask if he's okay or is there's anything I can do. I don't know why I don't, it doesn't feel like it's my place. "Are we... done?"

Dr. Ackerman looks at me like he's debating something.

"You seem out of it today." I point out.

"I'm your psychologist, Eren, not the other way around." He massages his temples. "I'm fine. Worry about getting better."

I sigh and move so I can lean against the wall. "If you say so."

"I feel like I'm doing the polar opposite of my job description and that it'd be better if you had someone else sometimes."

"You can be selfish sometimes, you know."

"What do you mean?"

"Whatever you want to do, you can do it. If you want to leave me then do it. If you want to take me, do it."

Dr. Ackerman just stares at me with an emotion that I'm not quite sure how to place. I wait for him to speak. I wish I could understand him better.

"Eren, I want you."

"Then stop being a coward and take me."

"I can't properly have you..." He pushes me flush with the floor. "I want to fuck you on the coffee table."

"You can take me somewhere, I won't run." I say.

He checks the time and then looks at me, and then back at the time. This repeats for a while until I'm pulled up and being taken somewhere. I don't know where.

I worry for a second but the feeling quickly vanishes. I don't care where we go. He wants me and I'll give myself to him. I need him.

Dr. Ackerman looks around before using his identification badge to open a door to the shock therapy room before sitting down in a desk chair.

I look around. "What are we doing here?"

"Whatever you want."

I plop myself down on his lap. "I want what you want."

"Surprise me. I'm not particularly picky."

I pull my gown up over my head so I'm completely naked. I take his hands and place them on my ass then I place mine on his chest. I lean forward so I can whisper into his ear. "I think that you took me to this particular room for a reason, Levi."

"So you know my given name, good for you." He leans forward to kiss me.

I meet him halfway and we kiss. I let him take control immediately and allow his tongue access to my mouth. It feels so good to finally kiss him.