Complicated (First Book)

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Hello

We are both laying on the bed together. Not cuddling but it's so close to it. I'm in a better mood now. Obviously, I'm high.

"Oh," I sit up remembering that I can't stay for to long. I need to get 'girl's products..

I hate this body.. why can't I just be me? "I have to leave because of the reason I was leaving my house," I half lie. I still want to vent to Vic and Mike. Well, vent my way; eat all there food and sit next to one of them.

"Okay, I'll walk you," he says getting up. I get up and stumble a little. I'm really high. I put my shoes on and me and him go down the stairs. It takes way longer than it should, given how much we smoked.

His mom walks I'm and looks at me. Oli's intensity looking at his feet as he steps down step by step. She crosses his arms and looks at her son. "Oli," I whisper and he looks up and sees his mom.

I hope we aren't in trouble. This would be my fault. Oh god, I hope she doesn't tell my parents. "Oh, hi. This is really hard to do," he says trying to get down the stairs.

She laughs a little. "Who's this?" She asks looking at me. I go to talk but Oli answers for me.

"He's Kellin," he says and she nods a little. When we are both Oh the ground she comes over to me and I get a bad feeling that she magically knows.

"Can I talk to you in private?" She asks to me. Oh no.. Oli pouts and I smile at him because honestly, him pouting is adorable. Even though he's hot and scary he pulls off adorable sometimes.

"Don't scare him. Please," he says and she nods and he goes outside probably to go sit on the porch. she looks me up and down.

"Does he know?" She asks and I feel shy. Shes not talking about.. No, she doesn't know me. She can't possibly know.

"I-I don't k-now what you're talking about ma'am," I stutter nervously.

"I'll take that as a no. I'm a mother, I can sense things and I know the smell of blood. You don't have to worry but I know how awkward it must be for you to get supplies. Hell, it was awkward for me and I'm a girl. You a boy," she says and takes me to her room.

I'm quite and just listening to her. She just sees through me like that? Can Oli see through me? She hands me a pad and I drop it like its hot- or poison. "I'll hide some in the upstairs bathroom if you ever need some," she says picking it up and handing it to me.

I take it slow and burst into tears. "Do I look that much like a girl?" I ask shakily. She smiles and shakes her head 'no'.

"Sweetie, don't worry. I'm really observant and have really good smelling. It's not obvious," she says and hugs me. I hug back slowly and she taps the pad in my hand.

"I'll go talk to him about school, you can change your pad in my bathroom if you want," she says pointing at her bathroom and leaving.

She's support of me and she doesn't even know me.. Is this how mom's act? I'm sure Vic's mom would be supportive too. But my mom? No.. she doesn't support me.

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"What did she talk to you about?" Oliver asks as we walk off the porch starting our journey to Vic's.

"Yeah, She seems cool," I says and he doesn't even realize I didn't answer his question. I learned that if someone asked you something and you says 'yeah' and add a statement or question the person usually doesn't realize you didn't answer.

"Yeah, she can be," he says and we continue to walk.

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When I enter Vic's room I see he's watching tv on his bed. I'm still high so I'm more comfortable with myself. He smiles to acknowledge me.

I take off my shoes and get on his bed with him. "Are you high?" He asks looking at me with a smile.

I giggle and grabs his hair. It seems extra curly. "Yup," I say popping the 'I'm. He turns to me more and I look into his eyes.

He has ready dark brown eyes. Oli's eyes are brown but they are also green looking in the light. It's really cool. I'm snapped out of my thoughts as Vic's lips press against mine.

I pull away confused. He looks surprised. "Y-you just kissed me?" I state and touch my mouth.

"Yeah sorry, I was just seeing something?" He says and I get up.

"T-that was my first kiss.. because you wanted to s-see something?" I say feeling hurt. He looks confused.

"I-.. kells," he says but I leave highly upset. I go into Mike's room and he's sitting on his bed. I get in his bed with no words and he grabs a unopened soda and gives it to me.

"I know I don't talk about stuff but.. I'm confused," I say and he gives me his attention.

"Go ahead, I'm not here to judge," he says and I nod a little wiping my eyes from the tears that want to fall.

Fuck, am I really going to open up too Mike?

Bye.