Complicated (First Book)

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Wish me luck..

When he realizes I'm not going to answer him gets even closer to me. "Why do you always look like you've been crying?" He asks touching my cheek.

"Why does it look like you never sleep?" I shoot back so he won't focus on me. He doesn't do anything but look into my eyes. I want him to kiss me..

"Because I don't sleep," he answers and look in my eyes for the answer.

"Well maybe I'm a crybaby," I say and look at his lips.. I bet he's a good kisser. When my eyes go to his I see he was looking  at me mouth. I look down embarrassed. My feet are so cold..

"Sometimes it helps to talk about problems.. I'm a good listener," he says and moves some of my hair. We make eye contact and I blush.

"Thanks but theres just some things I don't feel comfortable talking about," I mumble and he grabs my face with both hands and I feel cute.. If that makes sense?

Usually I'd be really upset but I kind of like this. Wait is he going to kiss me? "Tell me how it feels then, no secrets need to be shared," he says and lightly kisses my forehead.

He then leads me to the swings and I sit on one of them. He knees down in front of me and lightly pushes my knees making the swing go back a foot and back to him. I bite my lip thinking about his offer. He continues to very gently push me on the swing.

"Okay.. so I got bad new, which made me feel-" I look at him to see he's listening. I can say this stuff right? "Upset," I mumble and he skips a push so I don't get to far from him.

"So I ran out of my house crying and then I saw you.. we got high. That was okay but something happened after I got to Vic's and it made me mad and confused.. That leads me to here. Upset in a dark cold park, with no shoes," I say feeling a little betrayed at Vic.

He was my bestfriend and its almost like he stabbed me in the back. Except it wasn't hidden so it was as if he stabbed me in the front. He took my first kiss without my consent.

"Vic kissed you?" He asks and I look at him surprised.

"W-why do you t-think that?" I ask and he smirks a little.

"You're touching your mouth, I'm aware vic is gay and you two hang out a lot, plus; who wouldn't want to kiss you?" He says and I drop my hand from my lips.

"Whatever. But I just see him as my friend? Why do people kiss? Do you think he likes me?" I ask nervous.

He stops my swing completely almost making me fall out. I grab the chain and blush. He gets closer to me getting in between my knees. He grabs my hips and looks up. His eyes pierce through mine and I feel giddy.

"Something tells me you kiss a lot of people.." he says and I look at his mouth blushing. My heart is beating so fast...

"H-he was the first person to kiss me," I state and the sides of his lips twitch up.

"Did you kiss him back?" He asks and I shake my head no.

"Then you haven't had your first kiss yet," he says and gets a little closer to me. I lean in a little while looking at his lips.

It's like I'm hypnotized, I can't see signs.  Does he want this? Why am I the one starting this? He grabs my jaw and smashes his lips against mine. How do I kiss? The thought disappears as I move my lips against his.

Oh god, I'm kissing him!?

I keep my eyes closed and enjoy it. When he licks my bottom lip I pull away not wanting to deepen the kiss. I'm as red as a tomato and Oli seems happy about that.

"How about I take you home. It's pretty cold out here," he says and we get up.

"O-okay," I say and he holds my hand. I let him and we start walking to my house.

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"Do you want to hang out tomorrow?" He asks as we start to approach my house.

"I would like too.. but that bad news I got is about tomorrow. I'm going to be busy all day," I say and he squeezes my hand a little.

"Text me through out the day?" He asks and I smile. We stop in front of my house.

"Yeah, of course. I'll send you my phone number through Instagram," I say and he surprises me by hugging me. At first I panic but then I realized this shirt is really thick. I hug back lightly and step back.

I don't enjoy hugs when I'm worried they can feel my chest. "Bye Oli," I say and he then kisses my forehead making me giggle a little. I like how he makes me feel.

The front door of my house opens roughly and both of us look at my mother. "Who's that? I thought you sent to Vic's? And where's your shoes!? I payed-" she starts yelling.

"Bye," I say making him know I want him gone.

"Oh.. yeah bye. Stay safe," he says and leaves. I go to my mother and she follows me nagging about everything as I go to my room.

"-You know you're going to wear makeup tomorrow. I set your dress out. Go to sleep its 6am you have 5 hours until you need to be getting ready to go," she says and I bite my tongue.

"Goodnight," I say and she leaves me alone.

I kissed Oli..

That alone fixes my mood and I go to sleep as happy as I can be giving my situation. His sweater is really comfortable and it smells like him..

Finally they kisses! What do you think about that??

Hhhh vic kissed him