Complicated (First Book)

17

Okay so I said oli has a class with kellin (second block) but uhhh... I change that. They don't have any classes together

I wake up to yelling and crying. That's not normal.. I shoot up and look at the the guy whose next to me in bed. He's asleep but crawling at his thoat and thrashing around.

I get on top of him and pry his hands from his throat and pin him down. "Oliver! Wake up," I say and after a long few seconds he wakes up and looks panicked.

He pushes me off of him quickly but not in the way to hurt me. I fall onto the bed and he rushes to the other side of the room and starts holding himself and not facing me..

He's scared..

Slowly I get to the edge of the bed and look at him. He's not okay.. I promise. "Oli.. come sit with me," I say and he runs his hands through his hair as he paces the room.

He's vulnerable..

He doesn't answer or respond to me. "One to ten," I say and he looks at me with a pained expression.

"One.." he says in a shakey whisper. My blood runs cold.

"Sit down with me, I'll sing to you?" I say hoping I can help some how. He looks at the bed and then me. He sits down on the other side of the room and hides his face in his hands.

I think of a song and fiddling a little. I sound like a girl when I sing... I hope he doesn't see through my lies.

"And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now," I sing and get up from the bed and carefully go over to him.

"And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't wanna miss you tonight," I sit next to him and touch his elbow. He flinches but doesn't pull away.

"And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am," I rest my head on his shoulder and he looks at me for a second.

"And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am," I sing and he opens up and wraps his arms around me.

"And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's meant to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am" I finish the song and now I'm in his lap as he hugs me.

His arms are around my stomach and I want to pull away.. I'm fat, Even Vic thinks so. But Oli needs me. He needs me to be here for him.

"T-thank you for- cheering me up," he breathes and I see tears forming in his eyes.

"Don't thank me.. do you want me to make you tea or something?" I say and he nods.

I go to get off of him but he pulls me back down. "Oh.. sorry. I- just don't leave me," he says and I we get up at the same time.

I hold his hand as I lead him out the door. We go down the stairs and when we are in the kitchen I look at the kitchen clock. Its 1am, we did fall asleep early.

He sits at the table and rests his head on the table. I make him tea and set it in front of him. Casually I get behind him and put my hands on his shoulders. I massage his tense muscles and find myself blushing.

His muscles are really nice.. He looks and feels like he exercises. But he's not overly buff. He relaxes a little and drinks the tea.

"That's why I don't sleep.." he mumbles and I move my hands down so I'm slowly massaging his biceps. Maybe now I'm doing it to feel his strong arms.. Maybe I'm just trying to relax him..

I move them back up and work on his shoulders. "How long have you had night terrors?" I ask and he leans forwards for me. My hands go to his strong back and I rub and massage the tension in him.

"Over time they just got worse.. all kids have nightmares.. but mine only grew with me. Now I'm a 18 year old whose afraid to sleep.." he says and I have an idea but its stupid.. Maybe not?

If you know koli shippers you should suggest this book to them ♡♡♡

Do you like the questions at the end?

You've seen a lot in Kellin's mind, how do you feel about him in general?

What about Oli?

What about Vic? Do you really think he's a bad guy?

Mike?

What about kellin's sisters and brothers?