Complicated (First Book)

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My tears don't stop but my breath does. It feels like my heart did too. Oliver Sykes killed someone.. wait maybe he's talking about Josh.. like he didn't actually physically kill someone...

"You.. you told me, you said j-Josh killed himself," I mumble feeling weak.

"No.. I killed his dad. With my hands," he says monotoned. He's not looking at me he's looking at his hands.

"I-" I'm not sure what to say.. He killed someone? He is a.. murderer? No Oli is a good guy, he's sweet.. Is that fake?

"Why?" I ask. That's really the only way I can see if I still trust him.

He looks away ashamed. "Can we talk about this in my room?" So he can kill me?

"P-please dont look at me like that," he says voice breaking. That was stupid of me to think. He really likes me. He's still Oli, my boyfriend.

"I'm sorry, yeah.. let's go," I say holding my hand out for him to take. He takes it and we start walking back in silence.

When we are in his room he looks at me like a hurt puppy. "I don't like this feeling.. can you explain so I can understand.. I'm not having too good thoughts about you," I say and tears fall out of his eyes and slide down his face.

"W-well.. Josh and me, we had something special.. but he would hurt himself. He was depressed and we, we did some fucked up shit together. Drugs, vandalism, stealing.." he say and messes with his hair.

"We danced to get candy- it was fun.. I wish memories with him weren't so painful.. I was obsessed with him. Like I am with you but I'm trying to keep my cool with you.. well whatever, just know I would do anything for him," he says and I sit in his lap and he hugs me.

"His dad didn't like me.. He would hurt Josh because of me. This abuse kept happening.. Josh kept ending up in the hospital. I didn't handle it well.. one night.. his dad beat him so bad he called me crying saying he was going to kill himself because of his dad.. so I rushed over.. his dad was drunk and angry.. he was- beating his daughter up.. kicking her in the ribs-" he stops and I wipe his tears away and kiss his forehead.

"I attacked him.. and.. I ended up punching him twenty times too many.. there was so much fucking blood," he fully starts crying and hugging me tightly.

I'm not too sure how I feel about this information but I know it's not as bad as I first thought. He had a valid reason.

"T-then josh hated me, because he-he I- because I killed his dad.. h-he got distant.. and sliced his wrists open and overdosing on drugs," he says and I run my fingers through his hair.

"Thats.. a lot.. I'm sorry you had to go through that," I say not knowing what to say.

"Y-you dont hate me?" He asks.

"No, I love you," I say and he forces a smile for a second.

"What I said was true.. I don't care what happened in your past.. I just want to be in your present and future," I say and he pulls me into a laying position with him.

"My heart hurts," he mumbles. I lift up his shirt and lightly kiss where his heart is.

"Can I distract you?" I ask letting my hand go south.

"Not right now.. I just want to lay with you," he says and I respect that.

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In the morning I wake up and see Oli's asleep. He looks peaceful now.. he cried himself to sleep last night.

I look down at his sweatpants to see he has morning wood. I look at his face to see he's completely asleep. I bit my tongue and look at the clock. 6am..

He's on his back with his arms lightly wrapped around me. I'm on my back so I sit up and lean over him. Carefully I push his shirt slowly now wanted to wake him up.

I shamelessly pull down his pants blushing when I see his not wearing underwear. He springs free and I cant stop blushing.

This is the first time I've seen a dick in real life.. I put my lips around him and sink down. From... experimenting.. I found that I dont have much of a gag reflex. So I'm hoping I can do this right.

I suck and bob my head grabbing his thigh to help support me. He moans and grabs my hair but doesn't do much.

"F-fuck, kellin-" he moans and I swirl my tongue around his tip and then see how far I can take him. When his tip hits the back off my throat I slightly gag around him.

After I lot of profanities and moans later he's cumming in my mouth and since I'm stupid and never done this half of his cum comes out of my mouth and down my chin and I swallow the other half. I blush and sit up and see he's already sitting up.

He smiles at me and wipes my face off and kisses me. "How about we take a shower together, love," he says and I feel nervous.

Be naked with him?

In front of him?

Should I?

Should he?

Omg but what did you think about Oli's past?

Do you blame him?

What do you think?

Oops, did you like how kellin woke Oli uppp