Birth of an Anxious Wolf

Chapter 16

“You feel it now!” Roman said excitedly. 

“Wait your my mate?” Virgil said confused. 

“Yes! Yes! Yes!” Roman said so happy he didn’t have to tell him. That after the shift Virgil just knew. It was the happiest Roman had been since this whole thing started.

“How do I make it stop?” Virgil asked his voice sounding terrified. 

"Uh…" Roman's brain short circuited. Thought processing down. Rebooting. Roman will be with you momentarily

Patton quickly jumped into help. "Kiddo you can't just make it stop. That's not possible. You two are meant to be together."

"Nonononono! I can't, no!" Virgil was panicking. He grabbed and pulled on his hair. This was too much. He was a werewolf and… and...

"Do you really hate me that much." Roman said in defeat his heart aching miserably.

Virgil’s head shot up and he looked into Roman’s sad eyes. He reached his hand out and cupped Roman’s cheek. Roman leaned into the hand tears starting to slide down his cheek. 

Virgil thought about saying yes. Just to hurt him. To push him away. He knew that what he should do, but he couldn’t bring himself to say it. There was a part of him demanding, screaming at him not hurt Roman. So instead of saying yes he didn’t he pulled his hand away shaking his head. “I don’t hate you. I thought I did, but I don’t. I just can’t be close to anyone. Even you.”

“Why not?” Roman asked confused now. If he didn’t hate him than why?

“Everyone leaves.” Virgil said like it was obvious a broken smile gracing his lips.

“I promise I won’t. I promise to stay by-” Roman was silenced by the deadly look that came to Virgil’s eyes.

“Do. Not. Make. Promises. You. Can’t. Keep!” His voice low and sounded deadly.

“But I-”

“NO! You don’t know! You have no possible way to know if you could possibly keep that promise! So don’t make it! I am not going through that again! I am not losing anyone else! So I won’t! So just… just… GO AWAY!” Virgil eyes flashed purple and Roman stiffened. The rest of the room watched in horror as Roman whimpered then stood up stiffly, his body seeming to move on its own accord and he exited the room.

Everyones, eyes snapped back to Virgil in shock. He growled deeply at them all of them shying away. “LEAVE!” He spat through clenched teeth. They all immediately darted out of the room their heads ducked submissively.

Guilt crashed into Virgil as he watched the door close behind the last person. He felt horrible for yelling at all of them, and the hurt look in Roman’s eyes tore at his heart. The longer he sat in the dead silent room the more guilty he felt. He was selfish. So very very selfish. He was hurting others just to save his own skin. He was tired of hurting. But what would Mary say if she saw him now. Virgil was sure she would be so disappointed in him. He felt tears pour from his eyes thinking about her. She was always the best at giving advice and helping comfort Virgil. She would know how to help, but she wasn’t here. That was Virgil’s fault. 

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“What the fuck just happened Roman!” Remus screeched. “You obayed an order!”
“I know!”

“You shouldn’t obey orders you are an Alpha!”  Remus stated loudly.

“I know!”

“Why did yo-”

“I don’t know!” Roman interrupted. His whole body was shaking. He felt drained he had tried so hard to fight against the command as an Alpha it should have been easy. Even if another Alpha tried he would be able to ignore the need to submit even if they were more powerful. But he didn’t have a prayer trying to ignore Virgil. He didn’t understand. Virgil had tried to order him to do things before and he was able to brush it off easily. What changed? 

“Logan I have a job for you.” Roman stated. 

Logan stood up straight awaiting his orders. Roman had to repress an eyeroll at how strict Logan was when it came to this stuff. 

“I want you to find out what orphanage Virgil lived at and then find out what packs live in that area, and look at which packs were there when Virgil was born.”

“I’m on it.” Logan before darting out of the room to work on the new assignment. 

“Patton.” Patton’s head perked up and looked at Roman. “You have two jobs. One make sure your mate doesn’t over work himself with the job I just gave him. Two check on Virgil when you can. The rest of you do what you want, I don’t care.” Roman said tired. He hadn’t slept since before Virgil shifted which was several days before and it was finally catching up to him. “I am going to go lay down.” He said ass he stumbled from the room.  

Hey so who remebers Chapter 11? Anyone forget. Anyone curious why the heck that exsists? Any guesses?