He saved you He saved me What about others?

Others

Being born again is the only passport for the non-believer to inherit the kingdom of God. Without that attribute, if I should call it one, Heaven becomes a fantasy. Heaven becomes a dream that never manifested into a reality. Heaven becomes a location that only some dwelled. Heaven needs people as much as Hell does. Salvation is what makes a person escape being deposited in Hell. It's a battle!

Myfirst holiday as a born again believer was horrible! I had too much confidencein myself and because of that, I failed dismally. I had a plan of preaching tomy friends and having a way of reaching out the way someone reached out to me.I wanted my friends to become born again, but I wasn't strong enough to carry themwith me, if at all, I needed to.

I have learned that sometimes, our attempt to have someone receive Christ won't always be successful. Most times, it doesn't result in the person giving their life to Christ. Becoming born again on that Saturday night was a result of fierce battles. Most spiritual and sadly, some physical ones. Just how many times had someone tried to convert me? Only many! Different people attempted, and my friend, my light skinned brother, by the grace of God, managed to do what only the Holy Spirit can empower!

 Attemptingto convert my friends was a big goal! I never hit my target, none gave theirlives to Christ. Instead, I became lukewarm about my relationship with God. Thethings that mattered and the things that stayed on my heart slowly started tolose significance. Before I realized it, I had fallen and never had anyone topick me up. I wasn't filled up with righteousness enough for someone to detectI had backslidden. The people around me, especially my family members justthought I was acting 'normal'. While I knew I had backslidden, I never hadanyone to confide in or to ask help from. I remembered my light skinned friend,yes, He came to mind.

At some point I stopped being bothered by the fact that I never tried to read my bible nor did I try to pray. I was back at zero and no one could glimpsed at the idea that I ever received Christ. It was a poor attempt at wanting someone to be saved. In the end, I needed to rededicate my life to Christ, I needed someone to save me.