10:59
Is the beginning, the start
My heartbeat thumps
The beats move and distort
Even though my stomach churns,
Nothing is wrong.
I box it up, my eyes burn.
11:00
The feeling in my gut isn't quite
Right. My jaw is clenched,
My face a pale white.
11:01
My fists start shaking
My nails dig into my skin
Barrier of tears breaking
Everything around me spins
11:02
11:03
11:04
There's a mullignant fire in my core
My lungs have evaporated and breathing has become a chore
My heart pumps and pounds and jumps and jolts
Like I've been electrocuted with a thousand volts
11:08
Is when my ears start ringing
I grasp at my throat
I feel hands, I feel hands.
They're strangling
11:16
I can't hear at all
The voices are crowding
My body curled to the wall
As my head is pulsing; pounding
11:22
I've given up on the masquerade
My mind is miles away; distant
The memories fade
My grasp on past and present is nonexistent
11:31
11:47
Where has the time gone?
The last time I looked
At the clock it was 11:19
And I can't remember
Who I am or what I've seen
I am a useless, distant orb
Waiting to die and be absorbed
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My Voice Through Poetry
PoetryDepressed + gay = poetry 🤯 ⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING: including (but not limited to) self-harm, abuse, mental hospitals, eating disorders, and suicide.
