B E A T R I Z
"What are you doing here?"
"Gusto lang kitang kumustahin, Bea."
"Ayos lang ako." I coldly replied.
"I see." she nodded as she stood still in her position while we are being covered with the defeaning sound of silence.
I calmly but firmly clutched my blanket to control my emotion.
"Kung hahabol ka rin sa pagsisi sa akin sa pagkamatay ni Jia... Pwede ka nang... Pwede ka nang umalis kasi pinagdurusahan ko na yun ngayon."
"What? No, Bea. Nandito ako kasi gusto kitang makita at makamusta. Magkaibigan pa rin tayo. Alam mo yan." she said with a convincing tone.
"Hindi gawain ng isang totoong kaibigan ang talikuran ka sa panahong kailangan mo siya. And you know that, Mich. You and all of Jia's friends. Our friends. All the looks they have given me when we all found out what happened, they are obviously blaming me with Jia's death."
"Pero hindi kita sinisisi Bea."
"Pero sinisi mo ako! At pareho lang yun Mich! Kesyo sinisisi mo ako ngayon o hindi, pareho lang yun! Sinisi mo pa rin ako noon! I saw how furious you are, that I knew you are wishing for me to suffer kasi hindi deserve ni Jia ang mamatay! Do you think I don't know it?!" I gritted my teeth.
"Bea matagal na yun! I was also hurt that my close friend died early. But I was also hurt knowing that they are all blaming you from what happened. Kasi magkaibigan din tayo! Yes, I blamed you before..."
We both fell silent.
"Pero hindi makitid ang utak ko para habang-buhay kang sisihin sa pagkamatay ng bestfriend mo. Ng kaibigan ko."
I continued clutching my blanket tightly as I try to conquer my tears from falling. But I just couldn't...
"Y-you all don't know how much I've suffer after my bestfriend died. All I want is to have a support coming from all of you! But instead, you pushed me closer to the cliff. And I couldn't find a way to escape from it. Aside from jumping off in it and enduring the pain I will permanently feel from doing that."
And my tears has started to fall harshly down my cheeks.
"M-mahal na m-ma-mahal ko yung b-bestfriend ko, Mich. I ha-have finally accepted that all of these happened. B-but I s-still couldn't accept that my be-bestfriend is now gone. If you guys were hurt, ano pa kaya ako? Ano pa sa tingin mo ang nararamdaman ko?!" I pointed at myself then looked at her with raging eyes.
"Bea, I know we all left you when you needed us the most. That's why I am here. Para maka-usap ka, para kumustahin ka... Because I believe that you are not responsible for what happened to your bestfriend."
I wiped my tears even if they keep on falling.
"I am here because you deserve to know something, Bea."
I was quiet for a while. Waiting for her to continue her statement.
"Hindi aksidente ang nangyari kay Jia."
Parang bigla akong nanlambot at mahihimatay sa sinabi niya.
"Wh-what?"
BINABASA MO ANG
BORROWED TIME
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