Searching For Rebecca

Chapter 26: Oh hello there Miss Moody

um hi *runs and cowers* its been a month omg i'm sososo sorry!!! i really wish i could have updated sooner but i've had so much going on, like dance exams and piano exams and school - its been and actual nightmare! but i am trying to update again weekly from now, so it will be either: friday, saturday or sunday!

CHAPTER 26: OH HELLO THERE MISS MOODY

As I watched him march off into the distance I felt Stacie grab my arm.

‘Bex...’ she said quietly, ‘he’s not worth it.’

‘How do you know?’ I muttered, suddenly full of contempt for the perfect girl in front of me.

She looked at me sadly, ‘because none of them are hon. They make you feel like crap until one day you realise that you’re not living your life for them, you’re living it for yourself.’

I turned away, not because she was wrong but because what she said related more to herself than it did to me. She’d done the whole boyfriends and lovers thing before, she’d fallen in love, had her heart broken and come out the other side more times than I could even think about it.

But me, this is new to me, and whilst I know I’ll make mistakes, I’m not going to give up on boys when I haven’t had anything to do with them, just because Stacie has warned me of heart break.

So I turn back to her and smile, ‘Stacie, you do you and I’ll do me.’

And with that I pick up my pace until I'm practically sprinting. My headache threatens to burst from my skull but I ignore it. I'm running through the parking lot like a madman to try and catch up with Marc.

I eventually come close to him, he’s about to get into his car when I throw myself in front of the door.

‘Bex...’ he’s looking at the floor, furiously trying to avoid eye contact.

‘No, Marc Woods you listen to me.’

He looks up, there’s a hint of a smile around the corners of his lips. ‘Must I?’ he’s only half joking.

‘Can you honestly stand there and say you’ve never done a bad thing? Never made a mistake, never- god I don't know! –never kissed someone and then regretted it, never slept with someone you shouldn’t have?’

‘I never said I was perfect.’

‘well neither did i.

We glowered at each other for a few seconds before he sighed and a sad expression crossed over his face.

‘Look,’ I tried again, ‘I know you’re pissed at me, and I know I’ve done something stupid and by hell do I regret it, but I’m not perfect, nobody is.’

‘The thing is Bex, whilst I know I’m going to sound like a complete and utter prat saying this, I had this idea in my head that you were different to those other girls.’ He looked up to meet my surprised expression, ‘I'm not judging you, I can’t but I wouldn’t have though you would be the one to do that sort of thing.’