Your mine dean

don't you understand

Dean's pov

We sat in baby my tears sliding down my face. How could he just say that how...? I wanted to stop crying but the tears kept falling down my face. cas was freaking out in the passenger seat as I just turned to look out the window. I felt a hand on my shoulder pulling me to the other side of the seat I looked at him and he turned me around. He cupped my face and started to kiss the tears on my face away. I rested my hands on his chest and pushed him away. "Castiel that's not going to work this time." I said quietly looking away. cas just looked at me so surprised. "You don't get it do you Cas! Do you even understand how much pressure is on me! I turn to you for support and he you are saying that if I don't find the devil you'll just leave me like nothing ever happened your go back to heaven and wont look back! Do you even...DO YOU EVEN LOVE ME DO YOU EVEN KNOW HOW THAT FEELS!" I yelled my voice echoing through the car. I heard people mutter from outside looking and pointing at baby and I crumpled to the side of the car leaning on the door as I cried harder. The hot tears sliding down my face. I squeezed my eyes shut but the tears kept falling I couldn't stop them no matter how hard I wanted to. I could hear my own choking sobs in the echo in my baby. I heard tapping on the seat beside me then a hand turned me around and lift my face up. I looked at cas and went to get out the car. But He grabbed my hand and turned me around bringing me closer to him. He held me tightly as I struggled against his embrace. I started to punch his back however his grip around me just tightened. I struggled a bit more and I finally stopped thinking my efforts would be futile as his stronger then me and a freaking angel. "dean...dean I I just thought if I said that it would encourage you to find him. I-I'm so sorry I didn't realize that would backfire. And dean I would no I could never do that. I love you far to fucking much for that. " cas said his voice starting to crack. I wrapped my hands around his back and sobbed loudly into his shoulder. "cassie please if you leave I don't know what I would do. I don't want to lose you I i cant lose you your all I have left apart from Sammy I I need you." I managed to choke out between my sobs. He pulled away from me to look at my face. He wiped the tears off my face with his thumbs and leaned foreword. Our heads rested against each other and our noses touched. He kissed me on the lips it was short and so sweet, just what I needed. He pulled away from me and smiled. "Now lets go hunt that assbutt down, your get him back in the cage this time we're do it together." cas said taking my hand and leading me back to the dinner to get food and do some research.