Ordered To Be His Wife

Chapter 15

Trinity's POV

It's been three days since that sad news broke my heart. I'm still hurting and it stressed me a lot. Two days left and we will celebrate my birthday party. I'm not excited at all. The thing I hate the most is that I can't even smile nor talk to people. Even when mom visits me here every hour in my room. It's really making me even more saddened.

My life is in white color, for now, I think. It's useless. No emotions and no happiness brought. It hurts me so bad.

Nanay is peacefully sleeping now. And here am I, being stressed about how to sleep thinking about her. I hate this feeling. I felt like my heart will burst how many minutes from now.

It hurts.

It freaking hurts.

Pain is slowly killing me...but please don't. I have to live because that's what I promised her. Even though her promise just had been broken.

"I will live...I will fight...I'll be strong..."

Tears are falling. I'm sad. I feel nothing but pain. I want to be happy. I really do. I really really miss her so bad. Kahit sa panaginip sana, makita ko siya kahit sandali lang...

Napalingon ako sa pinto nang bumukas iyon. Si mom. "Trinity..." sinarado niya ang pinto. Iniwas ko ang tingin ko sakaniya.

Naramdaman ko ang pag-upo niya sa may kama ko. I feel so bad. Gusto kong kausapin si mom but I just can't. I feel like if I tell just one word, I'll cry endlessly. And I don't want that to happen. Kaunti nalang ay ubos na ang luha ko. Konti nalang talaga ay dugo na ang iiiyak ko.

"Should we just cancel your debut?"

Napapikit ako at napakapit sa kama. Ang dami na nilang nagawa para sa'kin, para dun sa birthday party na ipinahanda nila para sa akin. My heart is just really aching right now.

Umiling ako sakaniya. "N-No. The preparations were already done. I don't want to ruin everything." giit ko sa mahinang boses. I don't have any energy. I'm so tired.

Hinaplos ni mom ang buhok ko. "It's gonna be okay, Trinity. Don't be sad. We've already sent help to your brother. Your mom will rest peacefully. So don't cry now, be strong. I know it really hurts, but please don't stress yourself about it. Your mom is in a safe place now."

Napahagulgol ako. Hindi ko na maipaliwanag kung ano pa ba ang nararamdaman ko. Basta gusto kong umiyak nang umiyak. Gusto kong ubusin ang luha ko hanggang sa mawala ang hindi pangkaraniwang sakit ng dibdib ko. I didn't expect anything. I thought I would be happy when I came back but I did not. It's really really sad.

"Hush now, Trinity..."

I hugged her tight. I'm thankful that she's here. Even though she's not my real mother, I still feel the love of a real mom.

"Thank you, mom...." pabulong kong giit. Hinang hina na ako. Napakasakit para sa'kin. Ilang beses na ba akong nasaktan? Hindi pa ba talaga sapat ang lahat?

Hindi ko na alam. Ayoko na.

Natutulog na ang lahat nang maisipan kong bumaba. Mas maganda pala kung mag-isa ka kapag nasasaktan ka. Walang manghuhusga sa'yo.

Lumabas ako ng mansiyon at pumunta sa garden. It's really been a while. Ang dami na talagang nagbago. Pero bakit yung sakit ayaw akong lubayan?

"Nay, sana masaya ka na..." tumingin ako sa langit. Magkikita rin kami. Magkikita ulit kami at alam ko iyon. Kahit sa kabilang buhay nalang.

"Are you okay?"

Napatingin ako sa gilid ko nang may magsalita. Hindi ko alam pero bigla nalang tumulo ang luha ko.