MAY
As the days passed I was feeling better about myself. Ethan would call but as I ignored him, overtime his calls decreased. I got a job working at target. I kept up with online school so I can finish senior year of high school and I finally got my own apartment. I was thriving.
Just three weeks ago I met this guy. Leonardo. He was different. A gentlemen. Twenty two years old. Wow. He was gorgeous. Blondish hair.
We didn't hit off yet but we spend so much time together. He was a really good friend.
I was walking through my neighborhood when I bumped into him walking his dog, Liam. He showed me around and I met some of his friends whenever we'd go out to clubs together. I also met his sister, Hayley. She was absolutely amazing. We'd get our nails done together and go out for milkshakes and do crazy shit. I feel like I rather hang out more with her than Leo because honestly, as much as I'm ashamed to feel like this, I'm still feeling for Ethan and I'm not ready for another relationship. And Grayson, he made me think about him for days. The time I spent with him at the lighthouse was everything. I've never felt that way with anybody besides Ethan. I wanted to see Grayson, I needed to see Grayson. I haven't called him either. And I felt bad about it. The last time I heard from him was when Ethan took his phone from him and we shared our last words.
In a month I'd have to go back to New Jersey to get my diploma and finally go to college to fulfill my dreams. To move on permanently. But also in just a couple of days it will be prom. This kept me thinking. Should I go?
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GRAYSON POV
I missed her. I'm pretty sure Ethan did as well but he didn't like to show it. After she ended that call with him he went crazy for a couple of hours.
"I can't- I'm sorry Ethan- Goodbye" she hung up on him.
"No Valeria! Shit!" He throws my phone and punches the wall.
He starts screaming. I run to calm him down but he pushes me.
"This is your fault! You could have stopped her!"
"Ethan it was her choice, this is her life. Not ours. Not yours, not mine, hers. So you're just going to have to accept it. You had her but you took her for granted and screwed it up, now deal with it. And be quiet before mom and dad hear you." I leave after I pick up my phone and go to my room.
He kept crying and slid against the wall to the floor. All night I heard him crying. It was non-stop.
Afterwards he hid his emotions.
He was still in school but got in a lot of trouble, detentions.
He seemed depressed but to get that out of the way he joined the gang. I tried to stop him but it was no use. He came home that night, all beaten up. Bruised eyes, cut lips, bloody nose, and broken knuckles. He was officially a member of the gang. I was so disappointed in him. He broke up with Candace but continued messing around with other girls.
One night he came home drunk and was crying Valeria's name out. He kept giving me the phone and saying to call her so she can come back home but she wouldn't answer. I tried telling him that but he wouldn't stop asking for her. I tried putting him to bed so my parents wouldn't wake up and notice but he still cried. I finally got him to fall asleep when I cuddled next to him like the old days to keep him company. It hurt me to see my brother this way. I understood him because I missed her too but we were only holding her back from her life. Maybe it's better this way.
In just a month we will all graduate from high school and had to decide what we wanted to do with our lives. She was having herself a head start but I didn't know what to do with mine. I really wanted to see her. I love her.
I didn't feel like going to any of the senior trips since Ethan or Valeria wouldn't go and be with me. She was gone and so was he. He was in his own world. I was even trying to miss prom but my parents were making Ethan and I both go. It wasn't up to us. Why would I want to go if I didn't have a date. I don't just want anyone. Ethan didn't care, he was going with some girl he met a few days ago. Of course he already took her virginity as soon as they met. Same old Ethan.
I couldn't stop thinking of Val so I called her. It went straight to voicemail. I can tell it was a recent one, updated. She sounded happier. Pure. I was happy for her so I didn't bother to call anymore. I left it as that. She was happier without us. I missed her so much. I wanted to hug her. One last time.
