lost love

for this weekend: don't think

The next morning type was brushing his teeth over the sink taking deep breathes.
Looking down he didn't know what was happening. He didn't know how to feel. All he did know was he didn't want to think just to feel.
Tharn got up to walk to type wrapping his arms around his torso to lean his head down to kiss his shoulder.
Type took a deep breathe while he closed his eyes.
"Mmm who said could you get out of the bed?"
Type smiled.
Bending down he spat in the sink to put his tooth brush away.
Turning he wrapped his arms around tharns neck eyes darted.
Tharn looked him up and down.
Type smiled then he laid his lips on his.
They Moaned into the kiss.
Leaning back Type went to tharns neck leaving kisses.
Tharn brought up his hand to place it on types head.
"Mmm let's go back to bed."
Tharn smiled.
In the bed they went another round.
Type now laid on his stomach with his head to the side,arms laid above his head.
Tharn laid on his back with his head on types back with one arm above to run his fingers up and down staring at the ceiling.
"Type?"
"Mmmm i need food if you want another round." He lightly chuckled.
Tharn smiled.
"No...what are we type?"
Moaning he placed his head down on the bed to move it side to side then he leaned his head to the other side.
"This morning....i thought we made a promise...not to think this weekend about it."
Tharns eyes darted.
"What do you want me to make you for breakfest?"
Type smiled.
"Blueberry pancakes with a rice omelette."
Nodding tharn got up to bend over putting on his boxers. Turning his body round he leaned down to give type a breathe taking kiss.
Departing he got up to go to the kitchen finding everything.
Once done he brought the plates to the bed.
Tharn laid on his back while type laid on his with his head on tharns chest.
They both ate there food.
Finishing type sat up to gather there plates to place them on the table.
Then he placed his head back onto tharns chest to look down running his finger up and down his chest.
Tharn placed his hand on types head looking down.
"How are things going with kon?"
Type rolled his eyes.
"Pathetically. He keeps shoving the fact he's with another in my face all the time."
Tharn half smirked.
"Mmm sounds like he's trying to make you jealous."
"That's why he's pathetic."
Type rolled his eyes.
Shifting he got up to sit on tharn.
They glared at each other.
Type looked to either side to place his hands in tharns bringing them slightly up making little circles.
He looked down to take a deep breathe.
"I...know we're not suppose to talk about it but..."
Tharns lips parted.
He leaned up to put his lips on types.
They gave each other a brief kiss before tharn parted going back down to cock his head to the side.
"I do have feelings for you type. I...can't be your friend with benefits."
Types eyes furrowed.
"Right now...this is all I'm capable of tharn. I can admit i have feelings....for you has well....but"
Then type leaned slightly forward wincing letting go of tharns hands to wrap his arms around his stomach.
Tharn immediately sat up placing his hands to types face has it hung.
"Type? Type? What's wrong? What can i do?"
"Mmm my stomach medication...it's mmmm in my medicine cabinet in the bathroom."
Tharn slowly pushed type off who.leaned to his side wincing and curling up.
Tharn got quickly up to run to the bathroom retrieving the medicine and a cup of water.
Sitting on the bed he grabbed types head placing it in his lap.
He helped him take the pill and helped him drink.
Soon he stopped wincing in pain.
Type gulped then looked up at tharn who looked down with worry.
He placed his hand on his forehead.
"Are you okay?"
Type nodded.
"Sorry."
Tharn shook.his head.
"Never apologize for that."
Tharn leaned down to place his lips on types.
The rest of the day they spent laying in a close embrace.
They stayed in types apartment all weekend long.
Around 3 in the morning they laid on there sides with tharns arm across types body. Type had his hands under his head.
Types body started to twitch. Nightmares plauged his mind. They were all the bad memories of there past.
"Mmm no...ddont!"
Tharn squeezed his eyes shut then he opened them slightly looking at the back of types head.
"Mmm pplease ddont...iii..mmmm"
Tharn leaned up looking down at type. He started to shake him.
"Type? Type? Wake up?"
"Mmmm nnno...nnno..pplease ddont...i thought you love me."
Tharns eyes darted and his lips parted.
Taking a deep breathe he pulled types body to his cradling him.
"Sshhh type.I'm here. Ssshhh."
Type started to breathe slower feeling tharns warmth.
Opening his eyes he looked up to see tharn looking down.
"Ttharn?"
He half smiled.
"Yes type. I'm here."
Type leaned his hand up to wrap it around tharns neck to pull him down for a kiss.
They gave each other a passionate kiss.
"Mmm make love to be tharn. I..know you don't feel that but oh god please."
Tharn took a deep breathe in has type asked that between kisses.
I do love you type. I have loved you since i was 15 and a half.
Nodding, he got on type under the blanket to pull up his legs to put himself in.
Type wrapped his arms around tharns neck kisses him widly.
Tharn thrusted hard letting a few tears fall.
The next morning type felt a warmth on his chest.
Looking down he saw tharn asleep on him.
Type smiled not remembering what he dreamt about.
His hands were to the side limply, to then bring them up to wrap one around his back the other to his head.
Squeezing tharn he closed his eyes to let a tear fall.
I...can't let you break my heart again tharn. I..can't be in a relationship again...not with You.
Type breathed heavily, not knowing what to do.
After tharn woke they had a quiet breakfest.
Getting dressed tharn stood outside of types door looking at the ground. Type had his body leaned to the door frame keeping his eyes on him.
They both didn't know what to do.
"Uum.."
"Tharn?"
He flinched. Looking up sullenly, type wore a tired smile.
"Friday. Can i see your place?"
Tharn nodded with a smile.
Type leaned off the door frame to step to tharn giving him a kiss.
Tharn placed his hands to types face pouring himself into the kiss in full.
Type reciprocated it.
Parting they breathed hard placing there foreheads on one another. Type placed his hands on his chest looking down.
"Will 3 Friday be okay for you? I can pick you up from work."
Type nodded.
They both took a deep breathe.
Gulping type leaned back. He was only in his boxers and a large white shirt.
Stepping back Tharn looked to type with a smile.
Type watched him go.
Taking another deep breathe he went inside closing the door.
He placed his forehead to the door closing his eyes hitting it with tears streaming down his face.
"Your in love with someone who will just break your heart again!"
Type brought one hand to his heart to clutch it.
"Your a fucking fool type!" He weeped.