The Self-Harmed

~Mornin' Sunshine~

I'm not truing to be dramatic or anything. That's not really my style, but Clara's alarm went off at 4:20 in the morning. 4:20 in the am.

"Turn it off." I stuck a hand out from my blankets and waved a hand at her.

"Mornin' Sunshine!" She announced.

I sat up, "Good God. You're one of those morning creatures."

Clara stood at the foot of my bed shower bag in one hand and towel tossed over her shoulder. And why was she so pretty? How does that even make sense?

"WHat are you even doing? I voice aloud. 

"Getting to the showers before all the girls with long hair do. The drain gets clogged, and then you have to stand in their ankle deep Shaved hair, and sweat."

"Yep," I tossed the blanket off, "Just let me grab my things.

We walked to showers only talking about classes. I don't much about girls, but she seemed to be tip toeing around me. Like she didn't want to open up. Not really anyways.

"Do you know Ryder?" I asked, turning on the water, and setting my towel on the door.

"I know of him." She said, from the next shower stall.

"So what do you know?"

"I know he has no friends, he's Anorexic, and he takes pictures."

"That's it?"

"I don't even know His last name."

"Does anyone know Him?"

"Nope." She scrubbed her hair. "He likes to be left alone and so everyone leaves him alone."

"Does he have anger issues?"

"Yep. Which reminds me. What's your eating disorder?"

"What? I don't have an eating disorder."

"Then I wonder why you were put in the eating disorder wing."

"The what?"

"Your in the eating disorder wing. If you don't have an eating disorder, you should be in the cutting wing."

"What?"

"You cut." She pointed at my arm, as if this was the most normal thing in the world. "You don't have to hide it or be ashamed of it. No one here is going to judge you. You're home Charlie."

I gave a half smile. Once back in the room I quickly got dressed and grabbed all my books. I wanted to get to my locker and put my books away before the school halls where flooded. 

"Hey Charlie."

I looked up, "Oh hey Ryder."

"I thought I'd walk you to breakfast."

"No thanks I don't eat breakfast."

"Uh-huh." He rocked back and forth on his feet.

"What?" I asked him, then I sighed tossing up my hand. "I do not have an eating disorder."

"Okay, so can I walk you to lunch?"

"Nope I don't eat lunch." I sighed. "Don't look at me like that. I do not have an eating disorder."

"When you eat dinner, you eat dinner?"

"Right."

"Do you eat more than seven hundred calories?"

"I don't know, probably."

He raised his eye brows.

"Only because I'm a vegetarian , and my parents don't support me, so I'm on my own for dinner. I'm just not hungry during the day."

"Because you sleep?"

"Yes, but how do you know?"

"Your a secret Anorexic."

"No I'm not."

"You don't know you are." He corrected

"I'm on the fatter side of life. I don't have an eating disorder. I just don't feel like eating when I'm depressed. I eat snacks. See?"

"You just have to come to terms with the fact you have an eating disorder, Charlotte. You do not eat three meals a day."

"The average american doesn't eat damn three meals a day."

"But the average american isn't in a recovery unit."

"I might have to take this from my parents, but I don't have to take it from you. You don't even fucking know me."

"Just calm down, Charlie."

"You calm the fuck down." I slammed my locker, and walked down the hall.

I plopped down in a chair next to Clara, who was taking breaths looking over her food.

"Just give me your plate."

I took her plate, shoved the food to one side, and smashed down. I handed her the plate back.

"There. Now you ate half of it. I used to do that back home."

"So you do have an eating disorder."

"I don't have a fucking eating disorder."

"What crawled up your ass and died?"

"Sorry." I muttered.

"What happened?"

"Everyone says I have an eating disorder when I don't, I'm fat."

"If you cut out your junk food, and continue to eat the way you do, you'll drop wieght Charlie. You have the means to havean eating disorder, your just not doing it right."

"So If I stop eating junk food, I'll be thinner?"

"Yep." She nodded.

"Huh. Who would of thought."

"That's the bell. Do you need me to show you your first class?"

"No I know were everything is."

"Okay, see you after school."

"See you."
I tossed her tray away and left the dinning hall.