In Deep (rewriting?? )

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The walk back home was one of confidence. I had a spring to my step, and I didn't find it hard to keep my back straight and my chin up. I liked this confident side of me. I felt invincible. I think even the barista was shocked by me standing up for myself as I did. I was strong, and did not need a weak boy such as Jason dragging me down. Sipping on my coffee, I open the door to my house, kicking off my shoes and going back into my room. This was a close to a chapter of my life, a flip of a page.

I swept myself onto my couch, texting the group chat with my girlfriends in it to see if anyone wants to hang as I sip my much needed iced coffee as scroll through Instagram. A quick text from Jessica tells me that Lana and Becky are on their way to pick me up. I quickly throw my shoes back on, ready to tell them all about my previous encounter.

Conversation sparks quickly, and I spill every detail. We spend the day talking and driving. Feeling the hot summer airflow through our hair, we blast 2000 hits on the stereo. This is what I love about summer, and these moments are the ones I hope to never forget. Alas, all good things must come to an end and I soon find myself back in my room, reading my book. I decided to send Ethan a text. All my friends should hear about today, so that means Ethan.

S: You know I saw the boy today

Putting my phone down, I continue to read my book, assuming he would not be quick to respond. Although, to my surprise, my phone chimes moments later.

E: Oh.. and?

S: well, I told him he messed up and will never get me back

E: wow, good for you

S: Ya well, he was asking to go on an apology date, so I had to shut that down

E: well I'm proud, he doesn't deserve you, remember that

S: lol thanks

S: how are you?

E I am good, just relaxing. that's what summer breaks all about right?

S: YES, I was with some friends today. I wish summer would never end

E: What is your favorite summer activity?

S: Well, I love being in the sun, but also driving with the windows down, music blaring, just being free. Did that today. I love the feeling I get

E: haha ya, I feel the same. I like to go swimming too

S: do you swim often?

E: not as much anymore, my family has a cottage up north, we used to go there as a family a lot

S: you don't go anymore?

E: no we haven't really gone since my sister's passing. We haven't really done anything as a family since then

S: I'm sorry Ethan.

E: ya, I think I should go up there tho. To the cottage. It's been so long. It would be good to see it.

Soon, I was texting good night and turning off the lights. The next few days were uneventful. Lana has decided she is painting her room so a bunch of us decide to go help her. Painting for the day in the toxic fumes of light grey paint. I have started a new book as well, reading almost every morning and every night. My conversation with Ethan has stayed a constant in my daily routine, Speaking to him throughout my day.

I honestly think that if this relationship starts to fade I'll be sad, since he has become so intertwined into my daily life that I can't see myself not talking to him. I can say anything and everything to him. It's so nice to have someone like that. Although the question still pops up: Am I ever going to meet him?

S: Are we ever going to meet in person? I feel like we have been talking for so long. I want to know what you look like

E: we could face time if you want

S: no, I want to see you in real life. You said you lived close

E: what if I disappoint you?

S: disappoint me? Ethan you are one of my best friends now, you wouldn't disappoint me

E: someone can always disappoint someone

S: Well I don't think you will

E: there's a lot you don't know about me

S: Well then tell me

E: I don't want you to think of me differently

S: I won't

E: You can't say that for sure

S: well I'm sure it's not a bad thing, unless you really are a stalker who wants to kill me. That's really the only thing that would make me see you differently.

E: Well it's not that

S: Then shoot

E: How about I tell you over lunch, St Lucy's Cafe on main street? On Saturday

S: wow ok, I'll see you then

E: can't wait :)

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