love is messy

Chapter 25: I Forgive You.

(Ashley above)
February 16th 2017
HANNAH: I quickly took a napkin and rubbed the Waiters vest. I really just spilled coffee on her, god i'm stupid. "hey it's okay im just gonna go to the staff room and clean up" she said quickly. her voice was low but chirpy at the same time, she had a slightly charming smile plastered on her face as her eyes glazed over my body. i looked at her eyes as she eye raped me until she snapped out of it realizing i was staring at her with my eyebrow raised. she let out a nervous giggle as she walked away grabbing my cup and trying not to look at me. I was about to walk back up to her but i was interupted by an ear wrenching squeal. i cringed as my eardrums pounded, "what the fuck?" i said turning to none other than Kahlani's big sister Ashley. "Sugar is that you!?" she engulfed me in her arms before i could say anything. "Hey Ash, it's been a while" i said hugging her back. she pulled away quickly and placed light kisses all over my forehead and cheeks. i scrunched up my face at the feeling of her wet lips on my now soaked face, "it's been forever! oh my god sit, sit spill the beans i know you have tea. drama follows everywhere you go." she said jumping up and down. i nodded and laughed slightly before sitting down. she sat in the chair across from me and took my hands in hers with a big grin. i explained everything to her quickly not wanting Aryn to walk in on me explaining because i was pouring my heart out here and telling Ashley things i didn't want Aryn to know. at least not yet. she sat there in shock as i finished the long, long story. "that bitch, she hit you!?" she exclaimed, i looked around and put my hand over her mouth. "can you pipe down!" i mumbled. she looked at me glaring like a five year old girl who wasn't allowed to get ice cream after ballet practice. even though she was already 24 years old she was definitely the most childish out of all my friends. she bit my palm making me yelp and yank my hand away from her mouth. she grinned triumphantly before she sighed and started speaking, "you're going to take her back aren't you?" she raised eyebrow at me. i nodded knowing i would, "if she wants me im all hers. i fucking love the girl." i let out a soft smile but she rolled her eyes. "it's lust, not love. know the difference." she said crossing her arms. "shut up and get out her seat." i said pushing her away as Aryn came in with her perfect smile that made the butterflies swarm around inside my stomach. "you, i have words for you. get over here!" Ashley exclaimed pointing to Aryn as Aryn looked at me confused. "who the fuck are you?" she asked, i have to admit her attitude is kind of hot. Ashley raised her eyebrow at her and opened her mouth to say something but i pushed her away and sat Aryn in the chair across from me. "she was just leaving don't worry." i said quickly glaring at Ashley. she shook her head and grumbled something under her breath before walking out the coffee shop. i sighed in relief, the last thing i need right now is her fucking up this day even more. "Hannah" Aryn said in a pissed off voice making my head snap to her. she gave me a look that said explain which i did right away. "that was an old friend of mine. i told her what happened and she's just a little over protective. she was pissed off that you hit me and i was willing to take you back but i told her to back off and stay out of my business. she won't be a problem. i promise" i said with a gulp, she had a deep red face. i couldn't tell if she was mad or embarrassed, maybe somewhere in between the two but she looked great. my eyes scanned her body as i took in the outfit that hugged her curves perfectly and defined her big chest. she snapped in my face as i went off into my own little world. "Hannah... HANNAH!" she shouted making me snap out of my thoughts. i jerked my head to her she was flushed and bright pink. "my eyes are up here" she said, i could feel the blood rush to my face as she giggled and poked my cheek. "stop blushing you're distracting me" she said as her cheeks died down a little. "s-sorry" i stuttered as i gathered my self and pushed the dirty things i was thinking to the back of my head. "as i was saying... i'm sorry. i should have never blown up that way and i shouldnt have pulled away" why was she apologizing for pulling away? she shouldn't apologize for that. she didn't want to do it and i understand that, i shook my head quickly and sighed. "i'm over the hitting thing. it's fine but please don't apologize for pullung away. you didn't want to and if anything i should be apologizing for forcing myself on you knowing you don't feel the same way." i explained, she looked at me and laughed. i looked at her confused, what was funny? "Han i-i did want to kiss you and i did feel the same way. i wouldnt have kissed you back if i didn't want you. i was just fighting with myself but i can't do that anymore. i can't push the feeling i have for you away anymore. i mean i can i have been doing it for a long time now but i really don't want to. it's tiring and i just want to let it all out" my jaw dropped at her words. "y-you want me?" she let out a dry laugh before she walked over to me, i just stood there in shock. she pulled me up onto my feet and snaked her hand up my shirt making fireworks go off in my pants. "of course i want you Hannah" she said before placing her lips on mine. i kissed her back with no hesitation as she deepened the kiss. she sucked on my bottom lip as i held back a wince because it was still busted open. i put my hand around her neck and tangled my hand in her shoulder length hair. i pulled her closer to me and she slipped her tongue in my mouth. this kiss was like no kiss i have ever had before. it was tender but passionate at the same time, just how i liked it. i pulled back this time breathing heavily as my heart beat grew faster and faster by the second. "i-im sorry" she mumbled letting go of me and backing away. "why are you sorry, i just need to catch my breath. quite frankly that turned me on and i need a breather" i said laughing she looked at me soft before her cheeks flushed again with a tint of pink. i kissed both of her colourful cheeks as they grew darker. "y-you were turned on?" she asked as she looked down and faced the ground obviously trying to avoid eye contact. i turned her chin up to me so i could look in her big emerald green eyes. "if i had a dollar for how many times you have turned me on. i would buy an island, and then a house for said island, and then a bed, for us, and then-" i started but she covered my mouth as her blush deepened. "no, stop i don't wanna know" she said looking at the ground. i frowned and lifted her head up again. "what did i say" i said raising my eyebrow at her cute pink face. she giggled shyly and turned back to me. i have never seen her so flustered before. it was fun teasing her. "you know, if we weren't in public right now i would totally have my way with you on this table." i stated before i bursted into laughter as she slapped my chest. "wow hitting me again already? i thought you were sorry" i said obviously playing around. she looked at me as her eyes pricked up with tears. shit no please don't cry. i mentally face palmed before wrapping her tightly in my arms hearing her sob on my shoulder. "hey, hey don't cry. hey i'm sorry i didn't mean it im fine okay i forgive you it's okay i know you feel bad for doing it it's okay." i said as her sobs died down and turned into a bunch of sniffling before she finally pulled away and looked at me. "i'm sorry Hannah. i'm such a horrible person i should go home and rot in my room until i die from starvation or something" she mumbled as she started sobbing again, that was really harsh and it kind of pissed me off to be honest. why would she think about herself like that? she is the best thing that has ever happened to me. i pulled her back into my arms ignoring her protests about how she didn't deserve my love and other shit that was completely and utterly NOT true. "you, Aryn Lynda Jones are the best thing that was ever happened to me. you are smart and beautiful and you made a mistake. did it hurt when you slapped me? yes. did it hurt when you pulled away from our kiss? yes. but did i ever, for a split second stop loving you? no. i could never not love you or think about you in any other way other than the way of seeing you as my wife with our kids in the future. you are the best girl i could ask for and even though you aren't mine i love you and i will not stop loving you and when you cry i cry so please stop crying because i have cried enough and i am on the verge of tears here. please Aryn if not for yourself do it for me" i poured my heart into my very true words. she sniffled before obeying and stopping the tears. "that's better, i hate seeing you cry even though you somehow stay beautiful while doing it... it hurts me seeing you hurt" i said, she smiled slightly before looking down at the ground. "eyes up" i said tilting her chin up. she looked at me with her gorgeous smile that made me smile but my smile quickly dropped when a tear rolled down her cheek. i wiped it away with my thumb before butting my hands on either side of her face. i kissed her forehead and smiled as she pulled my shirt telling me to go to her lips. i happily obliged and kissed her lightly on her lips. the coffee shop was almost empty except for a few workers cleaning off tables. i was at a table by one of the blind spots of the restaurant which means me and Aryn didn't catch any stares and were in private the whole time. which of course i was happy about. she pulled me into her like i was going to leave which i wasn't, i would never leave her. "are you okay now?" i asked, she nodded as her phone rang i went in her bag and took her phone letting out a groan as i read the caller ID. "it's your knight in shining armour" i said rolling my eyes and handing her the phone. she laughed nervously knowing that this killed the moment and my mood. "sorry, i'll be back" she said as she started to walk out. i nodded and she answered the phone putting it up to her ear. did he really have to call RIGHT now? i sat down frusterated, mostly with myself because i just made out with a taken girl but also because AJ completely ruined my day with that phone call. the way she answered it with no hesitation was like a knife to my heart, no not a knife more like a dagger. a very, very painful dagger...