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Prologue

 There are too many things na hindi natin napipigilang mangyari.

There are things na kusang dumadating.

Mga bagay na dumadating satin para pasayahin tayo, para saktan tayo, para sirain kung sino tayo at sa huli para patatagin kung sino tayo. Hindi natin mabibilang ang mga bagay na dumadating satin.

Umaasang balang araw makakatagpo na rin nang taong magmamahal nang tama at lubos sa isang katulad ko. Ano ba naman ang 8 years nang pagpapakatanga di'ba?

Nothing will change kung i-love back niya ako o kung hindi di'ba. Ako pa rin ito. Ako parin ang aayos sa sarili ko sa huli.

Masasaktan ako.

Iiyak ako pero hindi ako susuko.

There are people who loves us even we are at our worst. Gumigising tayo para sa sarili natin.

Pero sa kwentong ito, gumigising ang babaeng ito para balikan ang nakaraan. Ang nakaraang para sa iba'y basura na lamang,

Girls are girls, they are ones who laugh out loud in public, who get crazy with her squad, who keeps her problems inside her. They are the ones who care about the feelings of someone , that is why they can hurt boys the way boys can hurt them. We aren't just girls we are women that is much powerful. Be not predictable and always sees the future ahead something.

Just like boys, girls can't eat right if they are not feeling good. Can't sleep well nor talk to her relatives right.

But one man came for her.

These man ease all of my pains, he help me a lot thru my ups and downs he was there for me. He is the one who know me a lot. But kahit na siya ang mas alam kong nakakakilala sa akin hindi parin ako naging masaya sapagkat ang mga luha sa mga mata ko ay traydor at kusa na lang pumapatak. Dahil sa sobrang pagkakampante ko sa kanya ito pa pala ang magbubunsod nang pagluha at pagkadurog nang mahina kong puso at damdamin.

He teaches me how to be strong enough, to face anything in my life. Those learnings that i've learn from you ay siya pa palang kailangan kong gamitin para makalimutan ka. Sana naging masaya ka sa ginawa mo sa akin, salamat sa pagdurog  mo sa puso kong lubos na nagtiwala sa iyo. 

By the way my name is Dein Elizabeth Garcia a simple and bubbly girl that's all. I have someone, i admired him a lot, for almost 8 years. That 8 years taught me so huge, so large in life, dito  natuto akong maging kampante at makinig muna sa isip ko bago ako lubusang magtiwala at hayaang mahulog ang puso ko sa ibang tao. Na kailangang mahalin ko muna ang sarili ko bago ako magmahal nang iba dahil alam ko na ikakasira ko ito at nang buong pagkatao ko. Dahil sa sobra sobrang pagmamahal ko hindi ko na namamalayang nauubos na pala ako at unti unti na akong nahihirapang magtiwala ulit.

His name is Zackarie Sean Dy a simple, talented man . A varsity player.

We always chatted until one day I confess on him about how much i love him instead of loving me back, he said he can't. That is why we both decided to stop chatting nor texting each other. Sa sobrang karupukan nang puso ko hindi ko na napigilang mahulog sa taong palagi kong nakakausap at dahil  nga nakapalagayan ko na siya nang loob ay nagtiwala ako kasi akala ko iba siya sa  mga lalaking nakilala ko ngunit mali ang akala ko. Hindi pala talaga lahat nang judgement ay tama dahil ang mga ito ay parang prediction lamang. Kaya't lesson learned.

Note to myself: Wag  agad agarang maniwala sa mga bola nang mga lalaking nakikita natin at nakakausap natin dahil anong malay natin diba baka false alarm lang. Hayaan niyo na lang na si Author na lang ang  nasasaktan (a/n: ay napakabad naman ni Dien, nagsusulat si author para damayan ka sa sakit na nararamadaman mo kaya wag mo ipasa sa akin ang nararamdaman mo).

At first it was so hard for me to move on from him actually I can't let him go. Letting him go was totally that hard but when i met my friends and when my cousin knew this they never left me hanging out there instead of leaving me behind they came to my house with their luggage.

I promised to myself that I will never read those conversations of us cause it is full of nonsense and fake promises. But instead of stop doing those things, those promises i always reading it back that is why i realize that yes i can bring the feelings back, i can bring the memories back, i can bring the same promises back, i can bring the most hurtful scenario back but i can't ever bring the same person back to me. i am tired of being a  choice that is why i decided to make everything clear between us.

Let's now found out what will happened in their lives. If something would change their fate or they will destined to be depart from each other.

Does Dein continue her one sided love on her crush or maybe they will have a chance together? What if they are just in the wrong time for each other? Does destiny make a way for them? Does reading their conversations make or can help her moved on? 

Let God write their love story come on let's find out. Let her found her true happiness. Not all women needs men because we are women without men. Men will just mess our lives and can get our life worst. (not all men) Yes i am hurt right now so please understand me. Hindi ko nilalahat ang mga lalaki dahil alam ko naman na mali lang talaga nag taong pinili kong mahalin sa mga oras na ito. Hindi ako nagpapakamartir at bitter. Nasaktan lang talaga ako pasensya na.

I am not bitter I am completely BETTER.

P.s
   Sorry for the wrong grammars🤦😅 this was my first time on writing a story

Pasensya na po sa mga wordings.

    Hope you like it guys... Iloveyou all💝👌 Keep safe