The Mafia Queen Is My Ex-Wife (Under Revision)

Chapter 36

Macy's pov.

I woke up in a very white sorrounding, I was laying on the white ground, where am I?

Pinasadahan ko ng tingin ang katawan ko, wala nang mga sugat, malinis na at may suot na akong puting bestida, ang tanging nakikita ko lang sa paligid ay puro puti, it shines so bright but it's bearable.Tumayo rin ako at sinuyod uli ng tingin ang paligid.

"Hello?" I gently asked, confused while looking at the surrounding.Nasa langit na ba ako? Bakit naman ako nasa langit dapat ay nasa impyerno ako dahil sa mga masasamang ginawa ko noong nabubuhay pa ako.

"Hi." A little voice replied, making me shiver and look the surrounding closer.

"Where are you? Are you a kid?" I slowly asked, absorbing everything, while searching for the owner of the voice.

"Yes." The little voice spoke again.Napalinga-linga uli ako.Why does it have to be a kid? In the movies I've seen, when a person is at this state usually a saint comes and asks for his or her name.But why is it a kid? Maybe I'm already dead, maybe this is already heaven but I'm a sinful person and I don't deserve here.

Slowly, a small kid came into my view, she was wearing a little white cute dress, she suddenly reminded me of daughter making me miss her more.

"Where am I? Am I dead? " I gently asked to the kid, now she doesn't look like my daughter, they have the same figure though, but not the face.

"Am I dead?" Again, I asked when she didn't answer my question, she was giving me a small smile, longing reigned in her eys as tears starts to form.

"Are you my mother?" Tears slowly fall in the side of her eyes and on her rosy cheeks, she kept staring at me with those beautiful hazel eyes, then suddenly she hugged me.

"Mommy, what took you so long?! What took you so long?! I waited so hard!" She cried on my thigh, making me shock, this isn't my child but why does it hurt to see her cry and asking for her mom thinking it was me?

"Little girl, hush now." I gently kneeled, she hugged me more, and cried harder.

"Please...please don't leave me here, Mommy, please come with me, Mommy." She cried again, my heart tugged as her words came, I hate to break her heart now.

"Little girl, please stop crying." I told her while stroking her brown hair, I let her hug me with her little arms.I was afraid she can't breatch because her sobs were very hard, nanginginig.

"Mommy, please come with me." She begged again, staring into my eyes now, her eyes showed so much emotions, the thirst for a love of parent, her pain, her happiness thinking I am her mother, and the hope to keep me.

"I'm sorry." I said softly, caressing her hair with my hand, and brushed my thumb to wipe her cheeks, the tears doubled as she felt my touch she close her eys and leaned to my hand that's holding her little face, her small arms is on my neck now, she was shivering with so much emotion I'd thought she's gonna hug me again but she remained staring at me, with those beautiful eyes, tracing my face as if memorizing them.

"Little Girl, what's your name?" I asked carefully, not going to break her heart now, thinking about it made me more guilty if I broke the news that's I'm not her mother.

"You're not my mother." She slowly said and looked down, her arms fall to her side.Nagulat ako sa inasal niya, that fast? Pero nahahabag ang puso kong pagmasdan siyang nanghihina ngayon, bigong bigo sa napagtanto.

"I'm sorry." I sincerely said, letting out a heavy sigh.

She didn't move away though, she just let me caress her hair and brush her cheeks, when I looked down to see her she was closing her eyes, nanginginig ang labi at balikat, pinipigilan ang sariling umiyak, namumula narin ang ilong na at humihikbi ulit.

"I'm sorry, little girl.." I told her again, and hugged her, not know what the right thing to do.

"I will wait for her, Auntie." She told me and suddenly she disappeared away, making me just hugging the air. Napatayo ako at lumilinga-linga sa paligid para hanapin siya, why did she disappeared?

The poor little girl disappeared and now I was left alone in this white place, naglakad ako hinahanap ang bata pero wala akong nakita, puro puti ang nasa paligid at natigilan lang ng sumakit ang dibdib, ulo at katawan ko,  nakarinig ng boses sa paligid, bumagsak ako sa sahig sa sobrang sakit na nararamdaman ko.

"Baby, please don't leave me.." a panicking voice of a man whispered but I couldn't see  anyone.

"Please, baby hold on!" The voice shouted, and the pain in my chest doubled, I shouted asking for help to anyone, but my voice seem to just bounce off the white walls no one came and help me.I was already struggling for life in the floor even though I'm not sure if I was alive, the last thing I remember is that I got shot after taking my revenge to Cally, Kristine's worried and panic face came in shouting my name, asking for help to anyone in that stupid place.And my body having so many wounds and gun shots.Maybe I'm probably dead. Slowly, the room shine so bright it made me close my eyes tightly.

"Macy! Please!" The last thing I heard in that place was that begging scream, it made me think of Matthew then, was it him? I slightly smiled, feeling butterflies on my stomach as I think of it as him, I hope he takes care of my little babies, the happy memories flashed in my eyes as I felt like I was floating in the air with my body quivering, pain reigned in my body and I just continue to stare above, smiling as tears flow down, my regrets, my happiness, my sadness, my anger, my guilt, and all the thing I have done were being slapped at me.I can't help but scream as the pain from my heart and body, and head can't be bearable anymore.

And the last thing I saw was Matthew's happy face staring at our kids, sending them to school, kissing them goodbye. I smiled sadly, very opposite to what I am feeling, even though my heart felt sadness and seeing that made it happy and broke.I guess, this is it then, I force my self to happily smiled as I let the pain win, my body weakened, tears flowed endlessly, my head was throbbing bad, until I just gave up, I'm sure now he can take care of our children.That's all I ask, I hope they'll be happy, healthy and have a good life, as well as to my friends, their family, their babies and all I wish for my Donald is to survive, to all those men who got hurt fighting  Cally's shit mens.

"Until we meet soon, darlings." I said, closed my eyes and let the light have me.