Ice Hearts || ATEEZ ✔️

twenty-one.

Y/n's POV

"I had completely lost my sanity after that. If only I had the courage to fight back, I could have prevented it, if only I wasn't so damn weak. I locked myself in my room, I didn't eat or drink, and worse, I slit my wrists. Chan was right; I wished to be dead, I really did. I blamed myself so much, I should be the one who's dead.

All my attempts failed, I was always brought to the hospital, brought back to life. I lived in pain, unable to pick myself up from where I fell. I was weak, useless, lifeless. A living dead, practically." They looked at me in shock and pity, the two boys beside me were holding me so carefully as if I would crumble anytime.

I ignored their stares as I continued, "I was even admitted into a mental institution to receive treatment for almost a year; 8 months to be exact, and it was hell. They tied me to the bed, afraid I would lose control and seek death again, medicine was injected into me every time, and I was treated as a guinea pig who got experimented on. They only released me when Se—erm someone came for me, saving me from that hell hole. He was the one who helped me step out of the shadows, he brought me to Japan, trained me to fight and he took care of my everything till now. In fact, I owe him my life. He trained me the past year, teaching how to fight and how to use weapons. If he hadn't saved me from the mental institute, if he hadn't help me escape from SKZ, I wouldn't be here and that was how I lived my past two years."

Wooyoung's hold tightened around me as I talked about him, trying to suppress his anger and jealousy. "Y/n, we're sorry for your loss. We shouldn't have left you alone, we should have protected you, we should have stayed by your side. We failed you Y/n, sorry." Yunho apologized with tears threatening to fall from his puppy eyes as he too, tightened his hug. "Y/n, can you tell us who he is? The person who has been helping you, we should thank him."

"No, I'm sorry but I can't tell. Please, don't apologize. It's not your fault, it was mine..." I trailed off as the bad memories flashed past right in front of my eyes. I shook my head, trying to force them out as I leaned into the boys' touch.

"I'm sorry. I really wanted to contact all of you, any of you, but I couldn't. Everything was taken from me when I was taken away and when I was admitted into the institution. I missed all of you so, so much. I really did." My strong front had broken down by now, hot tears flowing down my cheeks and it was probably an ugly scene, but I couldn't care less. Ae Ri and a few of the boys were crying too.

"Noona, please don't cry. You have us now! We promise we will never leave your side, never. Trust us." Jongho bent to my eye level, cupping my cheeks with his large hands. "I know, Jongho. I trust all of you with my life. You're my family, the only people I have in my life." With that, it ended with a warm group hug, just like a loving family.

Wooyoung's POV

My heart broke with every word she said, my poor girl. No wonder she became a more aloof, colder person. Tons of emotions were felt throughout the talk; anger, sadness and jealousy. Yeah, yeah, I know it's not the time to be jealous, but I couldn't help it. When she spoke about that 'him', all I could think of was how it could have been me, how it should have been me. Everyone has retreated to their rooms after staying in the group hug for 10 minutes because Mingi was being a sentimental baby.

I, however, was currently in Y/n's bed, with her snuggled close against my chest, arms wrapped around each other. "Wooyoungie? Do you forgive me now? I really didn't mean to cut off contact, how I hope I had you by my side when I was at my lowest." She seemed so small and fragile in my embrace, and I made a vow to myself, that I would never let her get hurt again. "I know, Y/n, I know. I'm here now, everything will be okay." I assured her as I placed a kiss on her forehead, pulling her even closer to me. "Sleep tight, baby girl."

I love you.

Chapter 21 on my 21st birthday!!

ALSO ATEEZ SPECIAL STAGE SOON CAN'T WAIT

~thedouble_a (17/4/20)