When the Pen Bleeds

I ONLY HAVE YOU

I ONLY HAVE YOU
Written by: Geon M.

I have this someone who I cherished the most in my life. In fact, we live in the same roof together with my family because we promised that we'll stay with each other no matter what happens.

I love everything about her.
She has ears that are ready to hear my  never ending rants in life.She has eyes that can discern the agony that I conceal. She has a mouth that can make myself feel better because of the words of encouragement that are coming out from it.

In short, she's my bestfriend.

There had this time where I got home from school feeling so exhausted because of tons of school works that need to be submitted in almost the same schedule as well the expectations that everyone's putting on me.

As I went straight to our room, she greeted me with her suspicious eyes as if  she's trying to sense my emotions.

" Stop looking like that" I uttered trying to compose myself.

" I know you're already drained for today."

I tried to flash a smile on her. That's why she's my bestfriend. Wala pa nga kong sinasabi, alam niya na agad kung anong pinagdadaanan ko.

" It's fine. I know you can do it okay? You're strong enough to overcome all the struggles that you're facing right now. Just don't worry 'cause I always got your back."

Her encouraging smile made my tears escaped from my eyes unknowingly. Because of what she said, I think I'm at ease already.

" Thank you. I'm indeed grateful to have you."

We stopped in the middle of our conversation when we heard a knock coming outside our room.

" What brings you here?" I asked to my sister as I opened the door.

I'm expecting that she would come inside but she just remained standing where she was and looking troubled.

" Annica. Just...just stop the crazy things that you're doing."

I turned my gaze down to avoid her worried stares at me.

" You're insane." she added and left me with a heavy heart.

" Am I crazy?" I asked to my bestfriend.

She manifested a sad smile and my tears began to fell again.

Agad ko naman tong pinunasan but it didn't stopped.

Hinayaan ko na lang ito sa pag-agos dahil sobrang sakit rin naman ng nararamdaman ko. It felt like everything came back in my mind.

" I-I have no choice. Hindi ko rin naman gustong ganito ako eh. Pero ikaw lang kasi ang meron ako. Hindi ko naman kasalanan na wala akong ibang kaibigan diba? Hindi ko naman kasalanan na walang ibang gustong makinig sa mga problema ko kundi ikaw lang. Ikaw lang ang meron ako na nagpaparamdam na may halaga rin ako kahit papaano. I only have you, self."

I uttered while I'm in front of my own reflection for countless times.

WORK OF FICTION
(Credits to the owner of the photo)