When the Pen Bleeds

SO CLOSE YET SO FAR

Having Ken in my life was one of the best things happened in my whole existence.

Though he was enjoying to tease me every moment, I know that he cares for me and he is delighted with my accompany – as a friend– as a bestfriend.

But poor me for having a different feeling to him.

I know we're bestfriends. That's what I keep saying inside my mind but I just can't help myself for not falling for him– for not loving him.

"Uy. Seah! Gusto mo cake?" My eyes glimmered with joy as I saw him walking towards me, holding a small box of cake.

"Oo naman!" I exclaimed, ready to get the fork that was placed on the box.

He jerked it off away from me and showed me a straight face. "Sige bili ka." He uttered and scooped a large piece of chocolate cake and put it into his mouth at once.

Such a glutton! He even smiled from ear to ear as he was munching his food.

And here I am, staring at him as if my heart wasn't pounding heavily because of his face.

As if I don't have feelings for him.

"Uy Seah! Ang sarap! Gusto mo?" This time it was a half- gallon pistachios icecream.

"Oo penge!" I exhilarately said and grabbed the container.

Again, he removed it away from me. "Edi bili ka" He replied in a mocking voice and started to devour that large ice cream. I even begged  at him to just let me have a spoon but he just shook his head.

Fine. Seeing you in an ecstatic state made me full already.

"Uy Seah! May dala akong coke in can gusto mo?"

I first observed the softdrink that he was holding before drifting my gaze at him. "Bahala ka diyan! Sasabihin mo na naman bumili na lang ako." I blurted.

"Luh grabe naman. Ganyan na ba tingin mo sa akin?" I was quite shocked because of his reaction. Looks like someone is changing eh?

"Bakit? Bibigyan mo na ko?" I asked back and lend my hand in front of him.

"Hindi! Tama ka lang sa sinabi mo. Sige bili ka ng iyo."

Come on! I'm aware that we were very childish in these things but why does it make   the butterflies in my stomach moved abruptly?

Idiot. Of course I know the answer. Because I love him. And as he was making fun of me, I assumed that it was his own way to show affection to me.

I hope I was right though.

"Ang ganda ng mga singsing no." He said in a dreamy voice while glancing on the glass full of shining jewelries.

"Ha? Oo lalo na ito." I answered and pointed the golden ring with an infinity design in the middle.

He also pinned his eyes on the ring that I chose and beamed at me.

"Ate pakilabas nga po nito."

Wait. Am I seeing things right? What on Earth is happening?

My heart plummeted and beated loudly as he gently grabbed my hands and put the ring on my finger.

Can he hear this thumping sound?

I hope so, so that he would know that I'm inlove with him for so long.

" Ang ganda nga. Ito ba ang pinakamaganda?" He said seriously.

Our eyes met with each other, allowing me to see his clear charcoal- black eyes.

" Oo Ken. Ito ang pinakamaganda."

"Sige, ito ang bibilhin ko para sa nililigawan ko.Hindi para sayo to oy! Asa ka naman. Bili ka ng iyo Par!"

I felt how my heart shattered into pieces upon hearing what he said.

So he's courting someone already and it hurts— a lot.

I just faked a laugh at him after he removed the ring that I thought was mine and briskly ran away from him.

And as soon as I left, tears pooled into my eyes.

I want to hate you Ken! I want to hate you for not seeing my true feelings for you but I'm not in the right place to hate you.

Because I'm just your friend– your bestfriend.

But poor me for falling in love with you.

WORK OF FICTION