The stories in my flesh (Sequel to scars)

Part 13

It's been one week since Nick and I have come up with the plan. We are planning to escape at midnight. I've been thinking about it so much, I'm scared they might catch us but- there's also this little spark inside me. I might see Anthony again. That's what keeps me going with the plan.

I've also been thinking about Nick. And what he told me. He use to cut, he knows the urge I get to do it. He knows what it feels like to feel unwanted, alone, depressed and worthless. And that hurts me. Because I've finally realized I'm not the only one going through this. I'm not the only one that feels this way, I'm not the only one that cries and suffers. I'm not the only one that has thought about suicide. That's heartbreaking.

Nick said we shouldn't tell Amy about the plan until midnight, he feels like she's going to betray us- which she won't. He wants to make sure nothing goes wrong but just in case I wrote Amy a letter, if for some reason she don't want to come with us I'll give it to her. So she can at least remember me.

I sit beside Amy as we start to eat our lunch. Nick as usual sits in front of us. "You've been acting kind of weird, have you been taking the medication they give you?" Amy asks. I nod. But it's a lie. I know I should be taking it, but I can't. It makes me feel sick all the time, and I can't stand that. "Then why are you acting so distant?" I chew the inside of my cheek to stop from telling her about the plan, Nick gives me this look.

"It's nothing, I've just been thinking." I tell her, she stares at me as if she's trying to read my mind. "You're not lying to me, are you?" I swallow, I don't want to lie to her. "Amy, leave the girl alone. She's trying to eat her food, she's fine. The meds just make me act like that, right Abigail?" Abigail nods, "I hate those pills they make me feel nothing."

"You could give them to me." Scott says with a smirk. Abigail rolls her eyes and keeps eating. "Hmm, fine." Amy says. I look at Nick and mouth a 'thank you'. Because he has saved me from this.

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My palms shake as I wait for a knock. A few seconds later theres a knock. "Dinners here, may I come in?" It's Patty the lady that brings us dinner. Quickly I start to fake cough and she opens the door quickly, she leaves the keys in the doorknob. "Are you okay, Ms?" She comes to me and I act as if I'm falling to the floor. "Miss! Miss!" Shes panicking and I feel bad for worrying her. "What's the matter?" She asks a little breathless.

I keep coughing and act like I want to puke. "Hold on, I'll call the doctor or Henry." She quickly runs out and I get up, I walk to get the keys from the doorknob, I get the one that opens the door to the garden which is a silver one at least that's what Nick told me. When I get the silver key I put my key back in the doorknob so she can't tell I messed with it. I hide the silver key under my mattress. When I hear footsteps running down the hall I go back to the floor. Henry walks in with Patty. "You see!" She screams.

Henry kneels down to me. "What's the matter, Ms. Williams?" He touches my forehead. "It's- it's the pills, the- the side effects." He helps me up and o lay down in the bed. Patty puts her hand over her chest, "Oh God, she scares me to death!" Henry pats her shoulder, "It's alright. The pills she's taking give her side effects, but you still have to take them Ms." I just nod and he walks out.

Patty puts my tray of food beside my bed and she hands me the two white pills with a bottle of water. "I'm sorry you have to take these." She says. "It's not your fault." I tell her. I put the pills under my tongue and drink a little bit of water and pretend to swallow the pills. When she sees me swallow them she says goodnight and walks away. I spit the two white pills into my palm and watch them dissolve in my hand.

~

At exactly 11:56 p.m I hear my doorknob move. I start to freak out but then I see a tall shadow with curly hair and I know it's Nick. "Hurry up goldilocks." He whispers, I get up from the bed and take out the key from under the mattress. "How did you open the door?" I ask Nick. "It's called paper clips." He says.

"You stole one from Dr. Smith?" He nods, "Yep. I took two and she didn't even notice. Do you have the key?" He's whispering but I can hear him perfectly. "Yes here it is." He takes it and we walk out my room, I already have my shoes on so he closes the door quietly. "We have to be extremely quiet." He says turning around to face me. I can feel his breath against my face, it smells like peppermint. "Okay." I simply say.

We are walking down the hall when I stop him. "We have to tell Amy." I say, we are walking towards Amy's room when we hear footsteps. "Shit." Nick says. "We have to go, now!" His whisper is harsh and I don't want to leave Amy here. "We can't leave her!" I say, the footsteps are far away but they're getting closer. "We have to go!!" He says pulling my arm. I quickly bend down and slide the note I wrote for her under her door. "Bye Amy." I whisper but I doubt she can hear me since she's asleep.

Nick grabs my arm and we walk down the hall, we go in the bathroom. "Let's wait here for a few minutes." Minutes later we see a flashlight and then I immediately know it's a night guard. They're suppose to check around the halls and make sure nobody's out of their rooms. I hold my breath and I can tell Nick is doing the same thing. The bathroom is so tiny and dusty and I feel like sneezing. I make this tiny noise and Nick puts his hand over my mouth. When we hear the guard walk away he removes his hand.

"We have to do it now." He opens the door and we make sure the guard is not around. We walk over to the door that opens the garden. Nick tries to open it fast and quietly. "Hurry he might come again." I whisper. "I'm tryi-" before he can finish his sentence the cold air hits us. "Yes!" He says. We walk out and close the door. "What do we do with the key?" I ask him. "We keep it." He puts it in his pocket, "We have two minutes to run to the gate and jump over. The camera is facing that way so it won't see us. Got me?" I nod and I start to shiver, because I'm both cold and scared. When he elbows me lightly I know it's time.

We run as fast as we can and get to the gate, by the time we are climbing over it I'm out of breath. Nick is already at the top ready to jump off, he takes me hand and helps me up. Suddenly a loud noise starts to beep. It's an alarm! Nick jumps and I jump after him, my dress gets caught in the fence and as I jump down a part of rips cutting my thigh. I yelp when I hit the ground. "I scratched my thigh." I say shaking.

Before I know it Nick holds me up and throws me over his shoulder running down the street. When we can no longer hear the alarm noise he stops and puts me down. We sit down by a light pole and he's catching his breath. He's trying to breath while he's laughing, "It worked!" He screams throwing his hands in the air. I've never seen him smile or laugh before and I now realize his teeth are perfectly straight.

A huge grin appears on my face, "It worked. It worked!" I repeat. I'm finally able to smile after two long years of nothing but tears.