We are in our lunch break. "What do you want to eat?" Nick asks me. I shrug, "It doesn't matter."
"Actually, it does matter." I shake my head, "Nah. Let's eat here." I say. The manager offers us some pie and coffee for free on our 'lunch break.'
"Sydney, that's not going to be enough." He says and it's true. That would never fill us up. But we have to save money. "Nick, we can't be wasting money." I say, "I know but we can't starve because of that."
"We are not starving. We are going to at least eat something, maybe later tonight we could get actual food to eat." He sighs and rubs his temples, "Fine." He walks to the kitchen and I can tell he's upset. After all he does have anger problems, but I feel like he's upset with me. That bothers me, I don't want him to be upset with me.
"Sydney?" I look up and see Alice standing in front of me. "Y-yeah." I say looking back down. "Can we talk now?" She asks, I look back at the kitchen. "Nick, my friend, will soon be back and I don't want-"
"Sydney, please I need to talk to you. It won't take long but I just need to get this off my chest." She looks desperate, worried, and sad. I know I shouldn't give her a chance my soul is screaming to let her talk. So I nod my head and she sits in front of me. "I'm so sorry." It's the first thing she says. I bite the inside of my lip. "I know it's too late for that but ever since you left .. Ever since you tried to .. To kill yourself I haven't been okay. I feel guilty so guilty and I can't help but to think that what happened to me was karma, it was something I deserved for not standing up for you." She closes her eyes and gulps, she's trying to hide her tears. Something I've tried to do before.
"I had many chances to stand up for you, and I even talked ugly to you at times. Remember that one time we were at gym class?"
It comes into my mind so quickly, and I remember that time. I had been on my mestrual cycle and I bled through my panties and through my pants, Brittney and Alice saw it. "Ewwww!" Brittney had said wrinkling her nose and Alice laughed. "I knew I smelled something." Alice said with a grin. I quickly turned around and I was about to walk away when Brittney said with a laugh, "Is that ketchup in your ass? Or blood?" I closed my eyes, and thought please please pretty please I hope its not what I'm thinking. "You might want to change nasty skank." Alice said walking pass me and bumping into me.
I nod my head because I do remember that one time. I remember everything they did to me. My cheeks feel hot with embarrassment. That one time I felt so humiliated .. Like many other times. "I talked ugly to you because I was friends with Brittney. I thought if I did that I would be cool, but I regretted it so bad. I didn't want to be mean but I thought it was the only way to get friends."
I stay quiet and feel my stomach burn, I feel angry and sad. Those memories are memories I wish I could erase. "I'm sorry for everything, and there's this scene that keeps coming into my head," she says grabbing her head. "I want to get it out of my mind but I can't."
Nick walks out of the kitchen with two pieces of pie and he looks at me and then at Alice. I look at him unsure, I want him to come over here so I won't have to listen to Alice but then I want to listen to her. It's confusing, I'm about to say something to Nick when he walks back in the kitchen.
"It's that scene when we were in the bathroom. Anthony had asked you to prom. And Brittney found out she was so angry." Oh God. The scene replays on my mind, Brittney was mad. She was furious. I dig my own nails on my hands so I will stop thinking about it but I can't stop it ..
"Open the stall door." She said, "What are you gonna-" "Open the fucking door Chase!" She screamed interrupting her. Chase opened the bathroom door and it smelled horrible. Like urine. I began to gag and she pushed me down to the toilet. "Brittney- Brittney stop - I'm -im gonna throw up. " I screamed in between sobs. She pushed my head down the toilet and it was so gross. I wanted to puke in the water, I couldn't breath. She pulled me back up and I' was gasping for air, "You're -" she pushed me back down, "going- " pulled me back up "to- " pushed me down, "prom-" pulled me back up. "With-" she pushed my face back down the toilet, she took to long to pull me back up. I was trying to go back up, to get some air for my lungs.
Alice speaks up interrupting my thoughts, "She was drowning you. I knew Brittney was mean and cruel but that day she proved that she was evil. Beyond evil and I got the courage to speak up to tell her something." It's true, Alice speaker up she screamed with panic "Brittney stop! You're gonna drown her!" I remember Alice looking at me and she covered her mouth, she looked like she was going to cry.
"I don't want to remember." I whisper with tears on my eyes. "Me either." She whispers looking at me. "I could've stopped everything that happened to you. But I didn't." She looks down and she wipes her face. She started to cry and I want to cry to but I'm not going to. I'm tired of crying.
"Why are you telling me all this?" I choke out, she looks up. "Because I need you to forgive me. I can't keep on with this guilt in me. I've been miserable these past three years." miserable? She's been miserable? "And you think I haven't been miserable? My whole life I was made fun of, I've always been the weird ugly girl. People have stepped all over me, people have insulted me so much. You've always been beautiful and popular whereas me, I've been nothing my whole life. Until I met Anthony, and you .. You and all your stupid friends tried to keep me away from him. You all tried to screw up my life even more!" By this time I am crying, people are starting to look. I cover my mouth to stop myself from screaming and from making weird noises.
"Sydney I know I was cruel to you. I know trust me I know. But I just need your forgiveness. My life fucked up after you left, it's karma.. My life is not so perfect. I stopped being friends with Brittney you know why? They all turned on me. They - they stepped all over me like they did to you. They left me when I needed them the most. In not asking you to be friends with me because I know you hate me, but please I just need you to forgive me." She puts her hand on top of mine, she's shaking I swear she is. And she looks so sincere but when I look at her terrible flashbacks come to me.
"I need some time. I believe you, I believe you regret it. But I need some time." I whisper getting up. I walk outside and take a deep breath. To my surprise guess who showed up?
I run to him and hug him tight, my tears are drying with the air. "Are you okay?" Anthony asks. "Now that you're here I'm okay." I whisper, he kisses my head. "I'll always be here." And that's all it takes for me to get my emotions back together.
Anthony is all I need.
*Hey guys! I promise I will try to update like soooooon, maybe tomorrow! Hope Yall liked this chapter. By the way should I make a trailer for this story?
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