The stories in my flesh (Sequel to scars)

Part 34

Anthony's point of view;

As Im about to touch the door handle there's a knock on my door. I freeze, could it be Sydney? No that's impossible I'm going to pick her up from work right now.

Another knock. I open the door slowly hoping its Sydney but it's Macy. She stands there with a grin on her face. "Hey there." She says all happily and flirty. "Uh, hi?" I say confused. The last time Macy and I talked she was beyond pissed. Now she's all happy? Bipolar, I swear.

"What? You're not happy to see me?" She asks walking in without permission. Typical Macy. "Actually I'm about to leave." I say holding my car keys up in the air.

"That was rude." She says crossing her arms over her chest. "No I don't mean it in a rude way I'm just in a hurry." She smiles and not a sweet smile. "In a hurry to see your psycho bitch."

"Macy. Don't call her that. And if you come just to insult her go ahead and leave!" She holds her hand up, "Woah wait a minute. It was a joke, calm down."

"I don't like them kind of jokes." I say giving her a look. She stares at me for a while, I feel pretty awkward so I set my focus on the clock behind her. "Anthony," she says with a sigh. I look at her, "What?" She plays with her orangey hair. "I just can't understand."

"Understand what?" I ask just not to be "rude". "How you can like her. I mean seriously? She's so .. Not your type. Look at her and look at me. I am thousand times better. Look at my body and look at hers-! She's so-"

"Macy." I say in a warning voice. "You know it's true, I know you still like me." She wraps her arms around my neck and I try to get her off me. "Stop."

"I know you still think about me. I know you desire me- my body." She tries to kiss me but I push her away lightly because she's a girl. "Ouch!" She says. "I didn't even push you hard."

"Whatever. Fine. Go see your fucking psycho bitch. While you're over here thinking about her she's too busy fucking with another guy!" She storms off to the door but I grab her arm before she goes out the door. "What?"

She writhes trying to get away from my grip. "You heard me. I saw her with this guy at her job." At her job? Could it be her roommate? "You're lying to me." I whisper. "I'm not lying! She was with a guy at her job! Now let me tell you something I'm sure they can't just be friends. He's very handsome and he was touching her cheek in a very romantic flirty way. I saw it with my own eyes. If you don't believe me ask her- although I'm sure she's going to deny it."

I let her go and I stand there. She turns to walk away but doesn't move. "You're very stupid if you think he's just a friend." Then she walks away. I know I shouldn't believe her but she leaves me thinking.

~

I park outside and look for Sydney. It's kind of dark. I'm about to get off and I see her with him. It's her roommate. Macy was talking about him. He tells her something and Sydney doesn't answer. She's looking for me so that's when I get off the car.

I walk to them clinching my fists in my pockets. Sydney smiles and waves at me, I smile back. "Hey love." I say and her cheeks turns a pinkish color. She's so beautiful.

Nick looks at Sydney and then at me. "I'll see you later, Sydney." Nick tells her but his eyes are focused on me. I give him a cold look. I'm not a mean type of person but this guy just makes me mad. He walks away and Sydney gives me a hug. I hug her back and rest my chin on her head.

We walk to my car and I open the door for her. "Thank you." She says as I close the door. I then get on the car and as we drive away I see Nick who's still looking at us.

"I didn't knew he worked with you." She bites her lip nervously. "He does work with me." She says slowly. "I see that." I say. We stay quiet for a minute and she looks out the window. I reach over to grab her hand, she squeezes my hand lightly.

We get to my apartment and I once again open the door for her. She doesn't say anything as we walk to my apartment number.

"Do you want something to eat?" I ask her as we walk in. She sits down on the couch and shakes her head no. "Are you sure?" I ask again taking a seat next to her. She nods and I throw my head back on the couch looking at the ceiling.

"Are you still mad?" She asks after a while. "I was never mad." I say. "You sounded mad yesterday." She says, I can feel that she's staring at me so I turn my head to look at her. Her eyes are grayish with a green tint to it. They're hypnotizing. They're so hypnotizing I forget what I'm about to say that I just shake my head no.

"She told you didn't she?" She whispers. I snap back to reality. "Who told me what?" I ask even though I already know who 'she' is. "Macy. She told you what happened today at work, didn't she?" I nod my head, her face shows terror. "Don't think wrong. He was doing that to make me feel better." I sit up. "About what? That's my job, to make you feel happy and better- that's not his job."

"I felt bad cause of Macy." She says. "What'd she do to you?" I ask. "Nothing. Just the way she is- the way she looks."

"There's no reason to feel bad about her. Sydney, I think you're way more beautiful." She looks down. "Really?" I pick up her chin, "Yeah really." She smiles, I stop holding her face. "But I don't like he fact that he was touching you.. In a romantic way." Her smile fades. "Anthony."

"Sydney, it's the truth! You wouldn't like if Macy touched my face now would you?" She looks at me intensely. "That's different Anthony. That's so different." I sigh, "How?"

"Because she's so flirty. She throws herself at you. Nick doesn't do that. Nick is just a friend." You're very stupid if you think he's just a friend. Macy's words come to my head. "Do you not believe me?" She asks. "I believe you." I say getting up, I walk to the kitchen and look for something to cook. She sits on the couch looking at her hands.

~

"I think I should go now." Sydney says as she finishes washing the dinner plates. "No, it's only 9:30. Stay a little longer." Even though she's been with me for about an hour and thirty minutes it feels like it's been two seconds. "I really should get going, Nick must be-"

"Oh. Nick." I say turning away from her. Calm down, Anthony. Calm down. "What's the matter?" She asks I turn around. "Nick is the matter! It's all about Nick. Gosh." I clench my jaws with anger. "I thought you were fine with him being my friend!" Her voice starts to rise. "Well I'm not! Oh my God you have no idea what you do to me! No idea! It kills me when I think of you with him! Last night I didn't even sleep thinking of you two- sleeping in the same apartment. I'm so jealous. So jealous. God." I close my eyes breathing in and out slowly.

"You deserve better." She says. i open my eyes, "What?" She looks pale. "You deserve better. I can't put you through this. I can't have you thinking of all this stuff that's torturing you."

"Sydney I don't un-" she interrupts me. "I don't want to see you like this. It makes it sound like you don't trust me- and like you're against me. I can't deal with it! Anthony, I can have the whole world against me, I can have Macy, Brittney and all of her friends against me- but not you Anthony. I can't deal with that, I can't have you against me too. And I know I screwed up in the head, I have too much stuff going on. I'm screwed up Anthony, I'm screwed up." She breaks in a sob and I hold her tight. She's shaking badly.

"Sydney, Sydney calm down." I try to make her stop shaking but she won't stop. Her body is shaking violently and she's crying terribly. I feel my whole insides get stabbed. I made her cry. "Please. Don't cry anymore. Please." I beg. She hugs me really tight like she's never going to see me again. "I can't have you against me." She says in between sobs. "I'm sorry. So sorry. I'm not against you. I'm sorry." I close my eyes cursing myself, I can deal with everything but one thing I can't deal with is seeing the love of my life cry.