To Love and Lost

Kentrel Pov

"LET'S GET THE FUCK OUT OF THIS TOWN'' I yelled throwing all of the bags in the car ''damn kentrel we have our make up in there'' queen said mashing my head to the side ''damn don't push my head like that and I'll throw these bags in how ever I want'' I said picking up her bag and throwing in the trunk she laughed and rolled her eyes ''COME ON ANGELA AND MARIAH WERE GOING TO BE LATE'' I yelled I knew they were somewhere making out ''I'm going to leave they asses here I don't care'' I told queen she just shook her head and got in the car ''where here nigga damn calm down and how we gonna be late if where riding the car'' Angela said coming hand in hand with Mariah ''hey queen'' Mariah said getting in I waved at her and waited for Angela to get in like always we where out there fighting like we don't got anywhere to be ''can y'all come on'' I asked them, they looked at each other and jumped at each and came in ''y'all act like freaking kids'' I heard queen tell us it was a quiet trip going to Atlanta and man if it wasn't quiet it was me and Angela goin aback and forth. We where now going up to our hotel room and I was excited a week in Atlanta I'm going to turn  the hell up struggling to get the bags in the room ''you just think your superman don't you k asked if you needed help but nooo you wanna be stubborn'' queen said getting her two bags and Angela and Mariah getting there's also ''man shut up you always talking shut'' I said giving queen the key so she could open the door, we walked in and It was raw queen was out of words ''Oh my gosh kentrel you paid for this'' she asked me I said yeah and she just stood there looking at me before getting in my face ''with what money though'' I just looked at her she shook her head and left I took the bags and put them in a area so we would know where they were ''so where we going they got a pool we should go down there and get in'' Mariah said we all agreed and got dressed while getting dressed I started hearing coughing in the bathroom so I went by the door ''queen you good'' I asked her ''yeah I'm coming out right now'' she said quickly this isn't the first time I've heard her coughing like that it's kind of scary but I know if I ask her about it she won't tell me ''ok'' I said sitting on the bed waiting while scrolling through Instagram I saw a picture of Yvette and her family I smiled and liked the picture before turning my phone off and setting it down and looking at queen she had on this hot pink two piece bikini I was just staring at her before getting up and heading over to her and getting close to her ''um kentrel are you good'' she said trying to back up and every time she would back up I was closing the space between we where looking at each other for a quick minute before I grabbed a towel and covering her up I stepped back and told her I'll be down stairs waiting for her and everyone else. What the hell was I thinking I thought I have a girlfriend why did I do that ''you been down here this whole time'' Angela said I looked back at queen to see her still wrapped up she was avoiding eye contact, great we just got to Atlanta and shit is weird ''yeah k was just waiting for you all'' I said walking to the pool, I was in the pool when I looked at queen just sitting there I jumped out the pool and went to her ''why you not in the pool'' I asked her while drying myself off ''I don't want to get in the water is cold'' she said with a pout ''queen about earlier I-'' she cut me off and said ''it's ok kentrel'' she said laughing ''well I still think you should get in'' I said she shook her head no so I took it upon myself to make her get in I picked her up and threw her in ''WHAT THE FUCK KENTREL'' she said splashing water on me I started to laugh I was laughing so hard I was feeling tears in my eyes. We where in bed asleep when I heard my phone ring I turned over and saw who it was it was unknown but instead I answered it I got up and went to the bathroom and locked it ''who is this'' I said... nothing... ''who the hell is this'' I said again but instead it was silent again they hung up and a message came through my phone saying that I'll be next just like big j I was mad now who ever it was, was watching me and maybe they where watching my friends and family I sat in the bathroom thinking about who it was but nothing I went out and laid back to queen ''what happened to leaving that shit behind'' I heard queen said in a sleepy voice ''I am queen I just need to do a couple of things that's it'' I told her ''kentrel I can't tell you what to do but I don't want to see you hurt'' she told me I nodded my head and told her I'll be fine after that we where sleep. "I can't believe it's raining'' Angela said when we woke up it was storming like crazy every where is closed so we had no choice to stay in today ''we can play a game'' queen said and when she said that we looked at her like ''are you serious'' ''what it was a suggestion fuck y'all'' she said laying back down ''man I just want to get drunk'' I said getting up ''well good for cause I brought some bottles'' Angela said going through her bag and pulling out three Hennessy bottles when I saw those I ran over to her and grabbed a bottle and started to kiss it ''weird ass'' Angela said grabbing it back we all sat down and started to play never have I ever ''ok never have I received head'' Angela said and we all took shots we where shocked when queen took the shot ''what'' she said ''who the hell did you get head from and was it good'' Angela asked I looked at queen cause I knew nothing about this ''I mean it's none if y'all business but Curtis did'' she said smiling I was about to puke ''but it wasn't all that it was ok but not ok at the same time'' I don't know why it felt like a weight had been lifted off my chest when she said that but I was glad. 30 minutes and were still taking shots and I was out of it I looked to see queen out of it to Angela and Mariah was fucking don't ask me how but they were I went to queen and sat next to her ''you look horrible'' I said causing both of us the laugh ''cause I feel horrible please tell me there not in there fuckin'' she said I was shaking my head yes, I don't know if it was the liquor but queen was looking real good we where just looking at each other before I leaned in and started to kiss her I leaned back and looked at her she held no expression on her face but instead she leaned back in and started to kiss me she climbed on me and was now sitting on my lap kissing me this feeling was different when I was kissing Yvette queen was different I wanted queen to do more than kiss me I wanted to bend her over and fuck her but before it got further my phone started to ring I looked at it and it was Yvette the biggest regret was on my face I answered it and her soft voice came through ''hey ken'' I looked back to see queen just staring she held this expression of regret to I went in the other room and started to talk to her after hanging up I saw queen on the balcony I went out there and stood next her ''that shouldn't have happened'' was all she said ''queen we where drunk well we still is'' I told her she shook her head no ''kentrel we shouldn't have did it in the first place what are you going to tell Yvette she'll be mad'' she said in concerned I knew this was going to happen she went back inside and went straight to the bathroom I just stood outside thinking about what just happened, queen might of thought it was a mistake but I didn't I liked it I liked every bit of it her soft lips, the taste of them, her body on mine I wanted her but I was with Yvette and I loved her I don't tell her but I do and right now I was in between two girls I loved dearly and I didn't know what to do. I went back in and sat down cause my head was getting dizzy I looked up and saw Mariah coming out with only a rob on she sat beside me and started laughing ''what's so funny'' I looked at her ''you, man I don't know what you got going on but if you don't go out with queen someone will sweep her off her feet and do something you won't be able to do'' she said I looked at her astonished, did she really just read me like that ''we kissed and we liked it but....we was thinking about how Yvette would  feel now were in a situation'' I told her she shook her head ''look all I'm saying is that you make queen happy and queen make you happy I wouldn't just wait around I would do something about it'' she said getting up and going to bed I just sat there and thought about what Mariah said. I woke up to a pounding headache I guess I never went to bed cause I was still on the couch, I got up and tried walking to the bathroom I stumbled a little bumping into shit but who cared I needed to go to the bathroom when I reached the bathroom I saw queen sitting on the counter brushing her teeth ''good morning'' she told me she had a cheerful tone so I guess she forgot about last night, she was drinking more then me so maybe that was a difference in what happened ''so what's the plan'' she looked at me spitting out the toothpaste ''I was thinking about we all go out and go on some rides'' I told her she shook her head and went to the other room I proceeded to do my hygiene and get ready. We were on our way to six flag when Mariah and Angela started to argue ''IT DON'T MAKE SENSE FOR YOU TO COME AND NOT GET ON RIDES IT'S FUCKING DUMB'' Angela yelled out ''AND IF I DIDN'T COME YOU WOULD BE RAISING HELL'' Mariah yelled back at this point I was ready to turn back and I could tell queen was to ''TURN THIS CAR AROUND I DON'T WANT TO GO ANYMORE'' Angela said, you didn't have to tell me twice and so I did we reached the hotel and everyone but me and queen got out mad Mariah didn't even go straight to the hotel she went walking and Angela went to the room stumping away me and queen took a deep breath before releasing it we looked at each other before leaving ''want to got to the beach'' I asked her and she said yes we went back to the car and drove off. ''I can't believe they went off on each other like that'' queen said sitting on her towel ''you think there going through something'' I asked her she didn't say nothing she looked away sometimes we would catch Mariah and Angela arguing and it would be deep since middle school Mariah was Angela's first girlfriend that's how Angela knew she was into girls they been through it and I think there growing apart ''I hope it's nothing bad'' she said, it was quiet so I took it upon myself to ask ''queen we need to talk about last night'' she was quiet as if she didn't want to talk about it ''we kissed and we liked it and'' she cut me by saying ''wrong kentrel you have a girl and she's mice what we did was wrong on so many levels'' she told me ''and I know that but come on queen we where drunk shit was going to happen'' I told her ''I guess it was'' she got up and sat right next me she put up her pinky ''know one can know'' she said and I did the same ''know one'' for the rest of the day we chilled.