To Love and Lost

Queen Pov

I was walking in the hotel room so that I could change kentrel was downstairs looking for another event we could do before we left to go back home, when I got in I heard sniffles coming from the back when I went to see what was going on ''Angela are you ok'' I asked her sitting next to her she shook her head no a preceded to cry ''wanna talk about it'' I asked '' it's not the same queen there's no connection like there was when we were first meant'' she said breaking down I held her in my arms while she cried this was killing her I could tell because Angela never cried and never this hard ''Angela it's going to get better'' I told her ''no it's not we've been arguing for  three months I thought this trip was going to reattach things but it just feel like it's getting worse'' she said Mariah was Angela's first love and for them to be like this was something new and I knew it was killing her ''maybe where not meant to be together anymore'' she said getting up going in the bathroom locking it. I was walking downstairs seeing if kentrel was down there and to my surprise he wasn't alone Mariah was with him so I decided to ease drop ''what happens if its over and we won't be able to bounce back from this'' Mariah said ''I think y'all need to talk about this its not just messing with y'all physically its messing y'all up mentally'' I heard kentrel tell her wow for someone to talk so much shit he can give good advice ''maybe your right I'm going to talk to her'' Mariah said getting ready to leave I acted like I was coming down the stairs we nodded and went on with our business ''so advice'' I said heading to kentrel, he laughed ''I told the truth, mariachis a great person we've known her since middle school I would hate to see them broken up'' he told me ''I was thinking maybe we should go somewhere'' kentrel said I looked at suspiciously ''and do what'' I told him getting up ''out now come on'' he said grabbing my hand. I was getting inpatient because we have been standing outside WHICH IT'S COLD waiting, waiting for what I don't know ''kentrel I'm really gonna leave you out here it's cold you know'' I told him he didn't say anything so I turned around so I could go back in but then I felt a hand grip my wrist so I turned around to yell at him and when I did it was lights everywhere ''it's so beautiful kentrel how'' I asked turning to him ''well lets just say I have my ways'' he said popping his fake collar I laughed at him watched the lights. ''COME ON WE HAVE TO GO'' I yelled waiting for everyone ''where coming don't get you underwear n a bunch'' kentrel said coming down I just mugged him then I saw Mariah coming down also she didn't say anything then Angela came down also with a sad look and passed me without saying anything I took a deep breath and went in the car so we could  leave. We where all on the plane waiting for it to land so I decided to talk to Angela ''hey'' I said taking a seat next to her she looked at me with a weak smile but not soon after tears filled her eyes I hugged her and she cried ''so y'all are done'' I asked she lifted her head and wiped her eyes ''it's for the better  we agreed to be friends though'' she said  I knew she didn't want to be friends nut she didn't want to lose Mariah so all I did was smile and shook my head ok, we where now home kentrel went home and so did Angela I went home and decide to get some sleep. It was the next day and I was going to get ready to go shopping so I could have a outfit for the party, I went to the kitchen and saw  my dad and sister ''hey my lovely family'' I said with a wide smile ''well good morning to you too'' my dad said ''HEYYYYYY LOVELY FAMILY'' kentrel yelled coming in my dad just mugged him I laughed at both of them ''oops sorry'' he said going over to lay and kissing her forehead ''hey lil bit'' he told her all she did was blush kentrel then came over and put his arm around me ''you ready to go'' he asked me I shook my head yeah and kissed them bye and left ''so I was thinking there's this party'' I told him he looked at me and went back to driving ''what party'' he said ''you know the party Jayden is throwing'' I mumbled a little he stopped the car and turned to me ''NO your not going'' was all he said before driving again ''why not it might be fun'' I told him he didn't say anything all I did was suck my teeth and went on my phone. We where at the mall picking out some clothes and other stuff I was in Victoria secret looking for some bras and panties when someone bumped in me ''sorry'' I said before turning around ''oh no I'm sorry I wasn't looking where I was going'' the girl said she was dark skin but her skin was so clear her lips were plump and her hair was cut to a short and curly look she was so pretty ''it's ok I'm queen'' I said holding my hand out so she could shake it ''praise, nice to meet you queen'' we talked for a long time before I saw kentrel and Yvette talking I might have been zoned cause praise started to shake me ''so is he the one your in love with'' I looked at her like she was crazy ''no that's my bestfriend'' I told her she looked at me like I was lying ''ok'' was all she said ''hey you ready to go'' I heard a familiar voice say I looked to see who it was it was Curtis ''Curtis'' I asked he looked at me and smiled ''oh wassup queen'' he said I haven't heard from Curtis is so long ''hey how are you'' I paused and told myself should I ask so I did ''so are y'all like you know'' I asked they both looked at each other laughed I was so serious ''no that's my sister we have the same dad but different moms'' Curtis said I was kind of happy but I didn't know why ''yeah and plus both of us are gay'' she said I shook my head but then I realized what she said both ''wait your gay Curtis'' I said he shook his head yeah with a smirk on his face I laughed a little bit ''I thought you knew everyone did'' he said laughing with me ''well I didn't''. We talked and talked ''so you still hang with ugly'' it took me second before I knew who he was talking about ''oh yeah he got a girlfriend now, Yvette'' I told him he spit out his drink and started to laugh really hard ''what's so funny'' I asked ''you, you like him but you let him get with someone else'' he said all I did was stay silent and ate my fries ''but what else has happened while I left'' I took a deep sip off my drink and looked at him ''umm Angela and Mariah broke up'' when I said his smile fell ''what'' he said ''yeah things was going down hill for them so they broke up'' I told him they break was like as if the world was goin to end they was good together they where the it couple but when they broke up it was like they where lost nobody knew this would happen but I guess things do happen behind close doors ''aye queen I was waiting in front for you'' he said coming up to the table where at ''oh my bad'' I said when I turned around I saw Curtis with a smirk on his face him waving at kentrel, kentrel looked like he was ready to punch him ''why you talking to her bruh'' he said getting close Curtis ain't say anything but just held a smile on his face ''don't'' was all I say ''he's gay kentrel damn'' I said he looked at me with a weird look like as if he was asking me a question I shook my head yes and he said ooh ''my bad sorry bruh'' he said ''no hard feelings I know you like her'' he said and I mugged him and he laughed ''I'm kidding a little'' he mumble the last part ''you ready to go'' he asked me I said yeah and we left I wanted to ask where was Yvette but I just mind my business. I was dropped off at Angela's place told kentrel I was going to stay with her till tomorrow he said ok then left I went in and saw her in her bed ''hey best'' I said while jumping on her bed she laughed and joined me ''hope we still on for tonight'' I asked her ''maybe'' she said with a smirk ''well to bad I bought us some outfits for tonight so start getting ready'' I told her. We where now waiting for are uber ''damn by the time they get here the party going to be over'' and when she said that the car pulled up ''finally'' we both said and we was getting in, 15 minutes later we arrived and it was packed like crazy ''I'm gonna get a drink'' Angela said before leaving I laughed and started to dance a little when I felt someone behind me so I turned around and it was Jayden ''oh hey Jayden'' I said smiling ''wassup how you enjoying the party so far'' he asked I told him it was great and that Angela was having so much fun to cause that girl shit faced at this point ''maybe you should call her a uber'' he told me while we looked at her dancing on the table we laughed and I agreed to. I had called Angela a uber ''come on Ang your  to drunk'' I told her trying to carry her in the car ''I can't leave you here'' she said slurring her words ''I'll be fine I get a ride home just get in please'' I told her she finally gave in and got in the car ''be safe'' I told her and she shook her head yeah and left. It was past midnight and this party was still going on I was getting tired so I started to leaving ''hey were you going'' Jayden said running up to me ''home I'm tired and it's getting late Jayden'' I told ''well before you leave wanna have a drink with me before you leave'' he asked me I hesitated but then gave in ''ok'' I said he walked away and came back with the drink I down the drink down and it tasted funny while walking outside I started feeling funny I was getting dizzy and I blacked out. I felt myself being carried I opened my eyes and saw Jayden carrying myself upstairs I was sluggish my body felt so heavy but I was aware of my  surroundings ''open the door'' I heard him say and he laid me on his bed and all I heard was other people in the room ''I don't know man this a bad idea'' someone said ''come on y'all pussy y'all the one that said you all wanted her so her she is'' Jayden say ''we changed our minds this ain't cool and what happens if kentrel know about this I'm sorry but I'm out'' I heard a couple of more I'm out too before I heard a door shut close ''pussy ass niggas I'm not backing out'' I heard Jayden say all of a sudden I felt my pants and shirt come off I was trying to move but I couldn't ''mmmhm''  was all I could get out I felt in a quick second I felt something stab me In my vagina my eyes grew big when I felt the sharp pain instantly getting worse I started to cry and scream ''STOPPP'' I yelled I clawed at him but it wasn't affecting him he kept going my screams where not doing anything ''HELPP MEE SOMEONE PLEASE'' I yelled and nobody came he kept going he wasn't showing no mercy either I just laid there the pain was killing me I couldn't do it I was in shock why would he do this I thought he was done when I saw a flash in my face as if he was taking pictures ''if you tell anyone I'll show these picture to everyone on the school got it'' I didn't say anything he roughly grabbed my face and said it again ''got it'' he said I closed my eyes and shook my head yes he let go and left I cried and cried this is my fault I should of listened to kentrel. I was there for ten minutes before I had build up enough energy to leave I looked down and saw blood everywhere it brought tears to my eyes everyone was still partying so I did my best to leave I fell on to someone and when I looked up I saw it was praise ''OH MY GOSH QUEEN'' she yelled I felt her grab me and take me outside ''WHO DID THIS'' I couldn't tell her I just burst into tears then I realized.... I was raped by someone I though was a friend ''I can't I told her before passing out.

I was laying with Yvette when my phone started to ring it was queen calling so I answered ''hey queen wassup'' I said but it wasn't her it was someone else ''IS THIS KENTREL'' the girl yelled I looked at the phone to see if this was her phone number and it was ''yeah who is this'' I said getting aggravated ''IT'S QUEEN SHE'S IN THE HOSPITAL I THINK SOMETHING HAPPENED TO HER IT BLOOD ON HER EVERYWHERE AND SHE UNCONCIOUS'' I jumped up and got dress I was so out of mind I couldn't even hear Yvette talking to me all I did was grab my stuff and leave.  I was now rushing in the hospital when I saw queen's dad and Angela balling her eyes out and some other girl it must have been the girl that call cause I remember her from when we was at the mall '' what happened'' I said nobody answered ''NOBODY CAN FUCKING HEAR I SAID WHAT HAPPENED'' queen dad looked at me '' you better lower your damn tone we don't know'' he said with a serious tone I sat down with my leg bouncing up and down then I remembered she was with Angela tonight ''where did y'all go Ang'' she didn't say anything ''if she don't pull through I'm killing you'' I told her she looked at me with red swollen eyes ''we went to Jayden's party'' she told me queen is so damn hard headed I told her not to go and what she did go to the damn thing now I'm pissed because not only did she not listen she laid up in this hospital. We waited for a good 25 minutes until the doctor came in and asked for her dad he got up and left Yvette texted me asking where I go and asked if I was ok I read her text but didn't reply her dad came out with a unreadable expression he looked at us all and took a deep breath he went back to where her room was ''I wonder what happen'' Angela asked with tears in her eyes I just sat there not caring I wanted to see my best friend and I couldn't . Her dad finally came out with the same expression on his face and came over to us and told us she didn't want to see nobody else I was about to throw a fit but I respected her wish we left the hospital except lay and her dad I looked back and saw him sit down with lay in his lap. I was now sitting in front of my house I got out and went in ''hey I thought you was staying with Yvette'' my dad said I just shook my head no and went to my room. It's been a month or two and queen hasn't came to school she isn't even opening her window it's locked I'll go by it and see pure darkness I tried talking to hear through the window but nothing, I was walking through the hall when I seen Jayden so me being me I went to him and the team ''aye we need to'' I told him he shook his head yeah and followed me ''so queen was at your party and as you can see she hasn't been the same so what did you do to her'' I told him straight up ''I told queen that she should go home because her and her friend was drunk I didn't hear from them since then I hope she's ok though'' he told me I didn't believe a damn thing this big headed ass little boy said so I shook my head and left some thing isn't right and I'm going to find out. ''hey Yvette'' I said giving her a hug from behind ''hey babe'' she said turning around and kissing me ''I'm going to leave early and check up on queen  gonna be alright'' I asked her she said she'll be fine and I left. I was in front of there house I knocked and saw her dad ''listen kentrel she don't want nobody over'' he told me ''can I at least try to talk to her'' I pleaded he took a deep breath before moving to the side and letting me in I thanked him and when in her room I saw that she was in the bathroom so I went to the door and asked if she could open it no response I asked again no response I was getting worried so I bust through the door and saw her In the tub laid face down with pill everywhere I screamed for he dad and he came running in and seeing her he pushed me out of the way and went straight to her pulled her out I told him to call the ambulance he did I went to her side and gave her CPR ''come on queen breath for me'' I told her I stuck my fingers in her throat so that she could throw the pills back up after doing CPR on her for seven minutes she through them up and started to breath real heavy I hugged her ''queen what were you thinking'' I looked at her she started crying ''why did you come in here'' she cried while punching and pushing me back ''I just want my mom I want this to be over I don't want to do this anymore'' she said the ambulance came in and checked her out they said she needed rest and left some doctors they are I went to sit next to her dad I could tell he's going through right now ''I'm failing this family kentrel'' he said I just listened ''if I wasn't always at work this wouldn't have happen I promised her I would be there 24/7 and let nobody hurt them now look it's like I'm not meat for this'' he said ''your good father you looked after us since were kids it's life it's our decisions of what we do and we have consequences but it's not your fault'' I told him before getting up and leaving I looked back at queen's room and thought to myself something happen at that party so I wanted answers. I was at the trap counting money when I heard someone talking about how some girl look like she was drugged and how she was so bloody looking I yelled for him to come in my office and told him what happen at the party ''so like always this dude was throwing a party before school started again and we where invited to sell, later on the party the dude who was hosting the party asked if he could get one of the pills jack had I looked at him and told him them things are to strong he said he didn't care so I gave it to him'' I was getting mad so I told him to hurry up ''I saw ole dude and a girl and  some other niggas go upstairs and that was it but about maybe a hour later the girl came down looking all bloody and out of it'' I pulled out my phone asked if this was the girl he saw he shook his head and said yes I blacked out all I know is I was in front of queens house I knocked and saw lay she waved but I didn't pay any attention to her I burst through queen door and I guess it scared her ''queen I'm going to ask you something and I want a answer'' I said in a stern tone ''what happened at that party'' I ask she didn't say anything so I asked again coming closer to her ''I-I was raped'' she said quiet I wanted to make sure she said that so I asked her to say it again ''I WAS RAPED KENTREL THERE ARE YOU HAPPY'' she said with tear in her eyes I ran over to her and cried with her I was mad ''why didn't you tell anyone'' I asked her ''he said he was goin to send the picture to everyone if I told you'' she said crying harder ''who did it'' she looked at me and I instantly knew who it was I ran out of the house and went to the school everybody was at the front waiting for the game to happen which I called in sick so I couldn't play I saw Jayden out there talking to some hoe so I got out and ran too him connecting my fist to his head lucky me I had some niggas that work for me that was going to be there so they jumped I and started to beat his ass I grabbed his phone and put it my pocket I wasn't going to crush it just yet so security started to break us up ''HEY HEY HEY THAT'S ENOUGH'' the couch came and said trying to hold me back ''YOU A BITCH ASS NIGGA YOU WANNA RAPE GIRLS NIGGA I'MA KILL YOU NIGGA'' I yelled out ''I DIDN'T TOUCH QUEEN THAT HOE LYING'' then everyone looked at him they let me go ''if you didn't rape nobody then why assume it was queen huh'' he looked shocked yeah nigga told on yourself I punched him in his shit damn I been waiting to do that and I did it again ''don't call my best friend a hoe'' I said getting in the car. We was in the principle office for the accident that happened the other day ''so I'm hearing that mr.Park here raped a student that is here is she here'' he asked I told him no and said because of what he did she wont show here face he said ok then they gonna pull some dumb shit and say since there is no evidence of this accusation they can't do anything so I pulled out his phone and his smile went down I mentally laughed and showed our principle he cleared his throat to the images that was presented to him ''someone sent me those pictures'' Jayden said all quickly I shook my head and said there was people who saw you I brought in two of my niggas and explained that they saw him buy some pills and of course had to threaten the team to come clean and they told everything ''well Mr.Park looks like we have to put you under arrest for the rape of queen carter'' I smirked at this lame ass nigga I was happy now queen don't have to be afraid of that bum. I was with Yvette chilling when she asked me something ''kentrel do you love me'' she asked me ''yeah why'' she got up and looked at me ''no do you love me '' I was confused ''I'm confused what are you trying to say'' I asked her ''I feel like you love queen more than you love me''  and she selfish ''queen is my best friend of course I love her'' I told her ''I feel like you have feeling for her every time she's in danger your always there to help'' I just started to laugh at this bitch I got up and grabbed my stuff and started to leave ''it's me or her if you leave kentrel'' I turned around and went to her ''I'll always pick her Yvette'' I told her before leaving and driving away she was so selfish like really your making choose well I gave my answer and left hope she has a good life. I went by queen window and to my surprise it was unlocked I came through and saw her on her phone laying in her bed I laid next to her and just stared at her ''thank you'' she said putting her phone down I just looked at her I leaned in a kissed her ''wait we can't'' I told her me and Yvette broke up and I kissed her again and this time she kissed me back I could tell this year was going to be great and next year our 12th grade was going too be great.